My progress log

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Hi guys, this is my first time writing on this forum. I don't know why I decided to do a log, since nobody comment at them, but whatever...here's the situation: i did hear the word "tulpa" for the first time on "pony thread simulator"'s videos, and i francly didn't care of what that was. Then a friend of mine came an started explaining what they are. Then i started looking up for informations on this site: i read guides and chatted on the irc channel of the site, gathering various informations about how to "move".

 

Firstly here's my tulpa: his name is Red (short version of Redstorm), and he's inspired from an OC of a crossover between the videogame S.T.A.L.K.E.R. and MLP (yes, the two opposites).

 

1st day: I forced in the morning about 20 minutes, talking to an orb and trying to develop personality (FAQ_man guide) listing and describing traits.

 

2nd day: forced for like 20 minutes in the shower.....same stuff....orb and personality...the last 2 3 minutes i actually talked with him about random stuff. Same happened in the evening, forcing during a subway journey.

 

3rd day: forced in the shower again, developing traits and talking at the end

 

4th day: forced about 30 minutes in the shower. I actually changed the "rules": i started creating a basic wonderland (the place popped in my mind), then i visualized him (not in detail at all) and started talking...just talking about random facts and telling him about what i had to do that day and about my friends. In the wonderland i saw him static, sitting on the ground and staring in the air.

 

5th day (today): i didn't actually forced already, i just talked him during the morning (spreading the dialogues during the morning), just because i didn't really know what to say. No response from him neither speaking neither moving (i still visualize him in the same position).

 

COnclusion: since this point i don't already feel the presence of the tulpa. Have you some suggestions for helping me doing the things a little better? Thanks for your attention :)

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6th day: IMHO the most productive day so far. I forced for the classic half hour, but talking out loud while focusing of talking with him. I actually felt his presence more, and at some point i think i heard a sentence from him ( the dialogue was like "...and i just hope that the installation file isn't broken", then in my mind popped the phrase "it's the save file, not the installation file". At first i din't mind that, but after few seconds i felt strange). I'm not going to built it up, but i also hope it was him ^^

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7th day: unlukily almost didn't forced today. I only talked with him for like 12 minutes this morning (christmas day...parents and chaos all over the house). During those munutes i didn't noticed any form of answer from him (i didn't ask him question...just narrating). I also asked him if he liked the wonderland, i hadn't an answer.

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8th day: forced for 20 minutes...i narrated to him about my past holidays and stuff...it was nice. No response from him, again, but i keep getting those weird echos whenever i accidentally parrot an answer.

 

9th day: I didn't actually forced, i only talked with him during a long trip. I tried asking me if he could "tell me" whenever he got scared (we were on a motorbike, i was a passenger) by head pressure or sort, but that got no results