The Procrastinator's log.

[Renfer112]

Alright, So I'm just gonna list all the development Rachel has gone through up until this point:

 

Prior: Spent an entire 30-hour car ride contemplating what my tulpa should be like. Procrastinated for two days.

 

Night 1: Created Rachel as a blue ball of energy, gave less then usual traits to promote self-development. Around five traits in one forcing session.

 

Day 2: Narrated throughout my school day. Attempted to force on the school bus home. Woken up by obnoxious six-year-old slamming a hardcover book on my head. Probably won't try that again for a while.

 

Night 2: Put off forcing until 10:30. Forced an additional two traits and reviewed base traits for 45 minutes. Passed out around midnight .She seems to be developing extremely quickly, I'm already getting consistent head pressure and flashes of imposition. I asked her to stop imposing until she got her full form.

 

Day 3: Narrated during the school day, came home with a mountain of homework. While doing the homework, my friend called and asked to spend the night. Meaning little to no forcing would be accomplished. I told Rachel I'd try to force when he fell asleep. He arrived with four six-packs of red bull and halo 4.

 

Night 3: So he wanted to do an all-nighter, meaning there's no way I could force. He is my best friend, so I can't just blow him off. After about ten hours of playing halo 4 non stop, I told him I needed a shower. Sat in the shower and gave Rachel the form of Tomari from Kashimashi so that she finally had a body

 

Day 4: Friend still over. Took three showers today in order to try forcing. Added a few traits.

 

Night 4: Friend spending another Night. He never seems to be tired, until my mom played some white noise to help herself sleep. He was out like a light in ten minutes. Got about half an hour of forcing, before passing out from exhaustion.

 

Day 5: Friend leaves. Chores all day, no forcing.

 

Night 5: Finally! I forced for about an hour, then had to go to bed.

[Renfer112]

Alright, so I'm mostly caught up (skipping day 6)

 

Yesterday was Rachel's 1 week anniversary of existence! And how did she celebrate? With her first words! ("Someone's gonna go-" is what she said. Not exactly sure what she was trying to say) The voice seemed a little unnatural for her, but it's still a huge deal for me! She attempted to speak at least twice before that (I think) because there were audible clicks and squeaks (I think it was actually an e, not a squeak). She hasn't spoken since, but I'm keeping my fingers crossed. Head pressure is still consistent, so I guess that's the primary method of communication I'll be using with her for a while. (Which didn't ever feel very reliable to me,)

 

I tried making a wonderland last night, to no avail. I can never focus long enough, and my concentration ALWAYS fails. I need to find some kind of base for it, though I doubt there's anywhere to find one. I'll just have to draw it out. It might be the best way.

 

Yesterday I forced for about half an hour, meaning I've forced a grand total of 5 hours and 45 minutes. It seems like a lot more time then I thought. I'm hoping to force for at least an hour today.