FF's personal tulpa journal - a detailed account of my two first months with a tulpa

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At the time of posting this, I've been tulpaforcing for two months and one week, and I've kept a fairly detailed personal journal of every forcing session and otherwise note-worthy, tulpa-related event since day one. While it's mostly a personal journal that I've never seriously intended to post on the Internet in its entirety, I figured that it'd be a bit of a shame not to. It's a quite massive, 10 000+ word behemoth, so enter at your own risk. I'm not really planning on keeping this updated, but if anybody wants me to, I can add new entries as they're written.

 

Here it is, I hope it can be of use to someone. Please read my notes before clicking.

 

A few notes on it, me, my tup and the methods we've used:

 

I had no experience what-so-ever with meditation or "mind-hacking" prior to starting tulpaforcing.

 

This journal is my personal journal. Some things may not make sense to you, because it's my personal journal. If you read my personal journal and you're confused about something in my personal journal, do ask me and I'll try to explain my personal journal to you.

 

Some entries were written for posting on the Internet, but the vast majority are not.

 

My tulpa, Swindle, started out as (yet another) Rainbow Dash tulpa. She went by that name for a while, and that's reflected in the journal. While she still retains most of her original form, her personality is nothing like the Rainbow Dash from the show.

 

My writing style is extremely lively at times, as I type most entries out "in the heat of the moment", right after a session. This is intentional and for my own reference. In particular early entries may sound extremely optimistic to a third party, and at times it may sound as if unrealistic progress was being made. That is just how I write, so take it with a bit of salt. Despite that, however, people tell me that we've progressed unusually quickly. The reason for that is unknown to me, but I like to think that keeping a journal played at least some part in it.

 

I started tulpaforcing primarily as an experiment to test if I would be able to accept something on pure faith alone. I'm an extremely sceptical, factual, atheist kind of person, so acting on pure faith is something that's completely foreign to me. Needless to say, the exercise was a success.

 

I didn't read many guides before starting, and I deliberately have not read any progress reports or journals either - all in order to prevent myself from having unrealistic expectations about tulpae. I've never had any real plan as to in what order to do what, or how; I much prefer to just mix stuff, try a little bit of everything every here and there, and see what happens.

 

While the length and date of every forcing session is noted in my journal, I have never counted my total hours.