The Tulpa Journals of Azbjornarr and Company

[Azbjornarr]

The past three days of waiting have seemed long, indeed. The wait was well worth it for myself though, for now I can begin my Progress Report!

 

My name is Azbjornarr (meaning Divine Bear Warrior in Anicent Norse) and I began my journey with Tulpas on 20-May-2013. I found out about tulpa from 4chan on /x/ and /mlp/. Because I do not take any subject on /mlp/ too seriously, and I take everything on /x/ with a sea's worth of salt I began researching what tulpa really were. I decided to take my luck with the link that the 'Tulpa General' thread on /mlp/ had posted as a starting point. This lead me to tulpa.info and this site quickly became my number one source for tupla information. I read the guides, and the articles, and researched other sources (primarily related to the Tibetan and Psychology aspects of tulpa) and was quickly become entranced with the idea of tulpa. Then on 22-May-2013 I signed up for an account of the forums and decided to start lurking #tulpa.info.

 

The folks over on tulpa.info were great and answered all of my questions with enthusiasm and encouragement. Then on 23-May-2013 I decided to take the plunge and I forced the intention of my tulpa. Starting off as just a green wisp, I started my journey and quickly transformed my little green wisp into my tulpa's basic form. After visualizing her initial form I named her Zenyth. Since then I have been forcing and focusing on her form and a small amount of personality. I decided to only force a minimal amount of personality so that Zenyth can develop her personality almost completely uniquely.

 

It is now 2:11 AM on 25-May-2013 and my tulpa.info account was activated just recently. I have decided to start a Progress Report and now I am caught up to my current situation.

 

I have been forcing and narrating for approximately 2 days and I am very excited to walk this journey through to the end of days. :D

 

I want to give a shout out to all the wonderful folks on the #tulpa.info IRC channel. All these people have been wonderful companions and guides for me:

• Araneia[OvO]
  
• ConCeit
  
• Patterns{Tread}[Relsa]
  
• Verdugo[spica] / Verdugo
  
• Office
  
• RemnantDrive
  
• Verdy
  
• JJosh
  
• jofadda[natasha]
  
• Cyclops61[Wildfire]
  
• Kanohispider[Colgate]
  
• Han
  
• GraphiteAchasse[Pepsi]
  
• CyanSylph
  
• schlondark
  
• Snowshoe
  
• Splooshie
  
• Axiom[izzy]
  
• GrandmaJim
  
• Schvoletski
  
• Leijona
  
• jonpaze[Davin]
  
• Moon_Shooter / Snow_
  
• Red_M[Pinkie-Pyro]
  
• Kronkle[Alyson]
  

Well that was a much larger list than I anticipated, however all of them are great and I want to thank them all greatly!! You guys rock! If I missed anyone, I apologize! Just shoot me a message and I will beg your forgiveness :P

(If you would rather not be listed here just let me know and I will remove you :) )

 

Until next time ladies, gentlemen, and tulpa!

[Guest]

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Edited May 2 by Guest

[Azbjornarr]

Are you going to let your tulpa choose her form, or do you already have one for her?

 

I have a form for her, but I am going to let her change it however she wants :) Right now she is a humanoid female with long purple hair and I am going to give her a tail and animal ears ( but I have not chosen which kind quite yet xD ). I am not that great at drawing, however I am going to try my hand at drawing a character with her likeness sometime this week. :)

[Josh]

Always nice to see that there are still newbs that actually do some research before doing this.

 

Good deal, and good luck, man.

 

Also-

I am not that great at drawing, however I am going to try my hand at drawing a character with her likeness sometime this week. :)

 

Tons and tons of artists here on the forums who would probably take a request.

[Azbjornarr]

It's been a few days now...

 

Progress has been made since the last time I wrote:

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• Visualization of Zenyth's physical form is almost complete (next up is movement, emotion, scent, sound, and touch)
  
• Zenyth made what I believe to be her first independant movements during a forcing session a day or so ago
  
• Zenyth made a very clear proclamation of having independent as a personality trait when I was forcing today
  
  

Both incidents were quite surprising. The most recent came during a forcing session earlier today. I was going over a few personality traits that I thought she might like and suddenly it was like she shouted out "INDEPENDENT!" It certainly came with that alien feeling that is said to accompany a tulpa's first speech.

 

xD Needless to say I am very excited to have made such progress.

 

 

Good deal, and good luck, man.

Thank you very much!! Also, I took a look in the Tulpa Art forum and found a face generator that served my needs for now. I have attached a copy for anyone that is interested!! Thank you for the guidance!!

 

And now I will return to forcing, working, and (sadly) "real life"

[Azbjornarr]

14 days in. I find it hard to believe it has already been that long! Time has been simply soaring ever since I started forcing Zenyth.

 

This past weekend was rough when it came to forcing. Work weighs down on me on Mondays and Fridays and Saturdays and Sundays are often times filled with attention on other people as well as being shared with myself and Zenyth. This weekend saw very little active forcing (only about one hour for Friday-Sunday), but I passively forced for approximately 4 hours and I tried to narrate and talk with Zenyth as much as I could remember.

 

On Friday, Zenyth sent a powerful emotional response to my fatigue and passive forcing while at work. I was wearing myself thin and I was getting light headed while working around machinery, and I believe that distressed Zenyth. I am curious if any other tulpa have gotten stressed when their host wears themselves thin like that.... After the feelings of distress, Zenyth also seemed to "step out" for about 15 minutes. I have never felt such an empty feeling in my life. It was actually rather terrifying feeling her leave like that.

 

I have also hit a road block. I am running into the problem of forgetting to narrate constantly to Zenyth. I am taking steps at this very moment to help alleviate my attention deficit. I am praying that I will be able to get myself in line when it comes to narrating, or I will be in danger of warping Zenyth's development from the lack of attention.

 

Overall, the experience thus far has been fantastic, difficult, unique, and thoroughly curious. I am very excited for the next 17 days and beyond!! :)

[Azbjornarr]

Day 16. Contact established. Deeper understanding is beginning to unravel the complexities of our minds.

 

Such a short time after our emotional super nova, another landmark has been reached. Zenyth is now officially at stage 2 for communication (this is based on the scale from this thread). We have been chatting almost non-stop since I was able to differentiate between her train of thought and my own. It still takes some practice to keep our thought lines separate in my mind, however we have developed a method that allows me to discern the two rather quickly.

 

Zenyth is also becoming more willing to deviate herself. She added 'princess' to her list of personality traits (and she certainly acts like it =P) and made a few cosmetic changes to her appearance.

 

The experiences are growing every minute now and we are both very excited to continue on! Stay tuned for more!