Starr June 9, 2013 June 9, 2013 For those looking for the actual progress reports, you can skip down to the next post, as I intend to outline my overall view of tulpamancy, my goals and current status here, then begin with my first report in my next post. To clear some thing up before hand, yes, I am a brony. My Tulpa Name: Tia Form: Alicorn mare with a white coat and magenta eyes. Neon pink and white mane and tail. Stage: fully sentient, stable relation ship, practicing possession and parallel processing Voice: Energetic woman. Over all goal: Create a friend, I had a troubled up bringing, and developed some quite severe social disorders. Hopefully having a friend I can't escape will help me tackle these problems, as I've been trying to do. My goal with this thread: allow the community to assist me in my... no... OUR journey through tulpamancy. And to share my experience with the world to help new hosts grasp the concept of tulpamancy. Also, I will be using Underlined text to highlight what I consider to be important introspective revelations, and bold text to high light concerns and questions. My current overall view of tulpamancy I came across the tulpa general thread on a random visit to /mlp/, I don't visit very often(less than once a month) but it immediately caught my interest. Now I've trained my self not to run into things blindly like an idiot(even though I was EXTREMELY overly excited at the concept of tulpamancy), so I did my best to read as much as I could about it. My first impression was simple: Using intense thought and focus, create an imaginary friend and convince your self it's real. In my head it was a simple concept based on amateur psychology, and impractical theory. You believe it's real and you end up creating the schism, you treat the schism like a person, and you end up with a person. This second step seems a little less sane, but it actually makes sense to me, when a new child is born, it doesn't just crave attention it REQUIRES it. If you do bare minimum to keep a new born alive(keeping it clean and fed only) it's been proven (unfortunately) that it will die from lack of stimulation in the mind. I believe that because we treat a created schism the same way, we get essentially the same results As time has went on I've realized the above statement is a bit crude, it's technically true, but, speaking now, a week and plenty of reading other's experiences, and my own experience, later, Tulpamancy is a practical and powerful application of the power of abstract thought. Now, When you clearly define the concept of "abstract thought"(which I will attempt to shortly), that statement, in my opinion, basically sums up the skills I feel most "to be hosts" should clearly understand if they want to meet with some form of success in tulpamancy. The Definition of abstract thought The very name defies typical conventions, an abstract thought is a thought that is too simple or too complex to be clearly defined in vocabulary. Even in all the guides and with all the experience pooled in this place, I have yet to see names for these thoughts. Instead the common practice is to describe ways to produce gateways to these thoughts. When a guide asks you to visualize an object, then perform an action, it's not an attempt to produce a "physical" result, but is intended to produce a feeling, not as simple as an emotion, but not as complicated as a thought nor as complicated as your mind voice. An indescribable feeling that seems to happen some where else in your brain, a third party, besides your tulpa and you. This is your subconscious. your GENUINE subconscious, doing what ever it is you asked it to do through visualization. Learning to control your abstract thoughts is the true key. "Tulpamancy is partly learning to change the way you think. To learn to change to way you think, you must first learn to observe the way you think." It's hard for me to describe how to practice managing abstract thoughts, I've just been doing it for so long, but one suggestions you might read about later in this thread is to "perform the action" then try to remember what happened. When some one suggests visualizing something, like during the creation process they consistently say something along the lines of "imagine your tulpa's body, and then imagine when you want your tulpa to be flowing into that body." The point of the visualization is not just to focus on it physically happening in your mind(which can be pretty easy for people who day dream a lot), but to focus on all those feelings, the thoughts about what you want your tulpa to be, flowing into it's body, and being accepted by the tulpa. I rarely have to use visualizations, but there are many times where I'll consciously say "i am going to do this action." what ever it may be, and the "thought feeling" just materializes so that I can grab onto it, these thoughts don't happen in the dreamscape, they're almost physical feelings in the back of your head. and then you think about them and think about wanting them to be stronger, or what ever, and they just comply. Day 1 Day 1 is was unfortunately quite short, I'm essentially a 2nd shift worker. I go to bed at 4am which is directly after my shift and do all my "goofing off" with my free time before work. I had discovered tulpa.info only an hour before work and had minimal time to do any significant research, this led me to do what I outlined in my first impressions above, I created an imaginary friend and convinced myself she was real. My job is pretty mindless and repetitive, so I had a few hours to monologue to 'er, no problem. Unfortunately, it was more passive forcing then anything. Immidiately got the indicative head ache. less than 30 minutes in, too. I would describe it as a sinus head ache(painful pressure) along the right "foot" of my glasses, from temple to ear. Day 2 Day 2 was all about correction of error in ways, faq's and irish's guides on the front pages are WAY too vague and DO NOT properly outline all of your options, or the corresponding results. So day 2 and 3 were the days I dedicated to producing and defining Celestia's form and personality. instead of killing time while bored before work, I used that time to actively force. (apox 90 minutes) Day 3 Read some where that using a mantra to call in and focus your tulpa can be incredibly helpful, experimenting proved rightfully so, a mantra has been written to help nail down her personality(I had a hard time thinking of things). almost the entire day was forcing of some sort, roughly 8hrs total. The day ended in an unusual event. I was falling asleep while actively forcing before bed. somewhere between consciousness and unconsciousness I received a powerful visual hallucination, like a bright flash of sky blue light. The hallucination was powerful enough to invoke "fight or flight" jerking me awake. I RARELY get powerful hallucinations, I'm so used to getting these while falling alseep I can mostly ignore it, so this was incredibly out of place. This process repeated twice more, the second hallucination being quite long and complex for a "pre-sleep" hallucination.(I will supply a thorough description later if asked to) The third one was simply a clear voice. I'm incapable of remember what it said currently. Day 4 This day was disconcerting, I remember reading that you shouldn't force while dreaming, but it's okay to force before bed. My frustration and concern escalated quickly as I found it INCREDIBLY difficult to call out my tulpa even with the use of mantra. My choice of action was to simply push forward and create a forum account for later(it's later at the time of this writing). The unusual hallucinations, to me, were a clear sign of the process working and I decided to simply avoid forcing while sleepy. If damage had been done, I'de see even more trouble tomorrow, and I'de simply ask for tips on "restarting". Luckily things returned to their original state pretty quickly, and while she claims to remember this, she doesn't seem to feel good or bad about it.
Starr June 9, 2013 Author June 9, 2013 Days 5,6,7 after the incident and recovery I decided to stick to repetition, focus, and minor experimentation. Instead of experimenting with how to force, I decided to experiment with things to do whilst forcing. I remember I started to get random feelings that felt off from my usual brand of ADD/ADHD randomness, Usually when I get a random thought popping into my head, it feels quiet, concerted, like a thought connected to my current train in some way. but I started getting random visual hallucinations while forcing, that feel COMPLETELY random and confusing, at first I fought it, but after coming across a post called "parrot-noia" and a specific incident where I gave her a clearly defined copy of my old teddy bear. I realized I simply had to trust the randomness and let it happen, until I could learn to define the difference between her thoughts and mine. This incident with the teddy bear was unique, I had decided, I still cant figure out why I decided this, to define my teddy bear in my head, if only to bring her a new experience. something for HER to see and feel, and not just be told what it's like, I think. Unfortunately, focusing on such a personally important object probably left an emotional imprint on the thing, good emotions, ofc, I didn't keep my teddy for bad memories. Her response was almost immediate, I felt hugged. if only for a tiny moment, and then found myself and her, in her room in the poorly defined wonderland I had made and given up on because I lack vivid imagination. there wasn't any sound, or movement or much of anything else besides what I described, it was more like a shadow of a thought that she wanted to keep it, but it was clearly a thought. I don't know exactly what day that was. I had received my pay check around this leg and that made my life busy and things tend to meld together when i cant focus on one thing. Also some where around here I had one of those "random coherent thoughts" i usually get: Music tends to act as neural stimuli, lighting up the brain's activity, could music be used to help stimulate tulpas in some way? Day 8, the big day I know parents say that there's no way to describe 'that feeling' but holy shit! what a rush. After all the exhausting business with my real life, and the seemingly minimal success, I decided to try and make forcing a part of my daily routine, to make sure she gets enough stimuli even if i have a bad day. The plan was to simply say "I'm going to take time for my self, today and stop an hour before work and just dedicate that to her." unfortunately, that plan fell through. I'm not normally a guy quick to anger, I could probably spend a wall of text the size of my last three posts bragging about my ability to "keep calm and move on" I'm not going to tho and hope you just trust me with that statement. But this journey is important to me, I'm not going to give up just because of a few bumps, so after work, I used a little self discipline. I was careful not to be thinking about her or forcing her at the time, no one needs to see me give my self bruises with a car key. Unfortunately afterwards I was having trouble getting the focus I needed to start forcing, I would try to clear my mind through breathing and other various tricks I had learned to help combat my ADD/ADHD. And so for the first time in... quite awhile, years, I shouted ****(fuck) at the top of my lungs in anger. almost immediately afterwards I heard in my head, "You can do it, keep trying."(I had managed to summon Celestia by this point but lacked the focus to define or teach her anything) And it was COMPLETELY stunning, it was in the voice I had attempted to define for her and everything! with renewed vigor I immediately dived in to forcing and asked her if she would like to learn something and she replayed a half ass'd lesson where I showed her how to walk up stairs. "Obstacle course it is then!" I tried to show her how to stride properly and a few other various things, like how to gallop and slalom, but she seemed to be wanting something different, so after a moment of reflection I decided to try and show her how to fly a bit, which was a difficult task. the end result was creating a "pit" full of dark blue feathers(to keep her from getting confused about her own feathers) that was too wide for her to jump over, and said to her "show me" like I had done with the other tasks, she went across and back a few times with out even needing encouragement. after about her third circle, I felt a weird sensation in the dream scape, and suddenly found my self imposed figure(me) inside the pit of feathers, and was immediately under the notion I was being chased. I realized SHE was in the pit and she put me there. I stood no chance against the winged hunter as she quickly figured out how to use her wings to move through the difficult material with ease, and I found my self being "glomped". She's there. and she loves me. That's a pretty heavy hitter.
oowarrior June 9, 2013 June 9, 2013 Learning to control your abstract thoughts is the true key. It is my personal belief, presently, that because of my accidental experience with abstract thoughts through heavy use of metaphors(i love metaphors when it comes to philosophy) and interpreting my father, who had a schizophrenic melt down some time ago, I was able to achieve such quick success in creating sentience. Unfortunately this also means I can't really supply a definitive suggestion for helping you master this skill, for me, it was all instinct, I just knew what to do. This concepts of abstract thoughts is very interesting. Can you elaborate a little more about this? Like the use of metaphors, I confused about this. ~Tulpa~ Name ---------> Caleb Sex ----------> Male Form ---------> Human Stage --------> Personality
Starr June 9, 2013 Author June 9, 2013 This concepts of abstract thoughts is very interesting. Can you elaborate a little more about this? Like the use of metaphors, I confused about this. Did you read the definition of abstract thought directly above it? if so, please tell me where you're confused about THAT part, as I said in the section you quoted, I can't really describe how to help you control them, for me it's as simple as: 1) producing the abstract thought through a supplied visualization or action 2) remembering the abstract thought, that "mental" feeling, too complicated for words. 3) telling myself to produce that feeling as strong as i can for as long as i can. You were asking about metaphors? I can only describe the process of grabbing an abstract thought through a metaphor via experience, as well. Let's take a quote for example, one my family uses alot: "We come from the dirt." The intent of the quote is practical in my family, we grow plants in the dirt, we eat the plants or feed the plants to animals, then eat the animals. but it also has artistic and philosophical implications. A "silver spoon" type person, cannot exist with out his "dirty, burtish" counterparts, the underclassmen, who cook his food, clean his messes and make his life easy. The abstract thought, behind this quote is some what easy to describe "life, in all it's forms, starts form the ground up, no matter how high we climb the tower we've built, we are still standing in the dirt." now if you've read that, and hopefully learnt from it, you probably got a tiny feeling in the back of your mind, not in your physical head, but in your mind. something your subconscious was producing, a part of you and your thoughts. that's an abstract thought, a "compound" version of everything you just read about that quote, too complicated to be an emotion. learning to grab these feelings and "grow" them is what I consider to be the key. That's essentially how I force, all while trying to keep my tulpa in my mind's eye. As for wonderland VS dreamscape, I lack the concentration/capacity to truly maintain a clearly defined wonderland, so I use dreamscapes, Small, single purpose but clearly defined "rooms" that i can recall from memory similar to my own bed room. as an added bonus, you asking that question led me to another moment of clarity: Trying to clearly define personality traits in your head can quickly lead to very strong and easy to identify abstract thoughts.
Starr June 11, 2013 Author June 11, 2013 Day 9 another bad day, I don't feel like I took enough time for Celestia, I know we got in an hour or so though so I'm not worried. day 10 A break through, perhaps? I might need advice on this. Today while forcing I thought to myself "Why can't you try to show her your old monologues." I used to talk to my self alot, internally and externally, to help clear my head. so some where near the end of my forcing I tried to remember as many of those old thoughts as possible and formed them into a ball inside of an apple, and asked celestia to eat it. my forcing immediately ended with out my consent and I got a pretty nasty head ache, some of it was where I usually feel Celestia, some near my neck, and just an over all minor throbbing. I couldn't summon Celestia for almost 30 minutes afterwards(head ache lasted about the same duration), but when she came back she seemed more... coherent? and a passing thought in the back of my head, clearly mine, seemed to imply I had 2 tulpas, but it was more a feeling, like intuition. after that, we worked on her autonomy some more and her mind voice, which i did flash card style, I would pick random words and say them in her voice to her and ask her to repeat them.'' Also thinking about experimenting with the "music as stimuli" idea tomorrow, giving her a set of head phones with the idea that they will allow her to hear what i can hear all day long.
Starr June 13, 2013 Author June 13, 2013 I've stopped counting days... it's like maybe before 20. what ever. So... alot to talk about. I don't even know where to start. I guess mentioning that the "music as stimuli" thing worked out decently is a good place to start, I did end up giving her a set of head phones in the dreamscape, The concept was simple enough, The head phones let her hear what my ears hear. I feel her wearing them a lot unless we're just talking. She seems to like pop rock, christian rock(creed as an example, She doesn't seem to get the 'heavy' "i love jesus' crap.) and oldies, which I can live with, I fancy that stuff pretty regularly. She also discovered "red hot chili peppers" last night, she hasn't really "told" me yet, but I kinda get the vibe that she likes them the most right now. I also had an interesting moment of clarity some time ago that I've sort of... been afraid of sharing, but I guess talking with her has been helping me open up. Early tulpa development is similar, but not relatable to, child hood development. Some where around day... 5-10ish I gave her a self awareness test, in which I showed her two random characters with different hair colors and called them "red lady and blue lady" red lady had a purse which she put in a box, and left to go for a walk, blue lady moved the purse into a cabinet before red lady came back, I asked her where red lady thought her purse was and she insisted it was in the cabinet... I saw this test in a video that was an excellent exploration of intelligence, I can't come across the video right now, but I'll link it if I come across it later, It was by "VSauce" on YT If I remember correctly. I havn't really administered the test again, because I'm not in any big hurry, specially since, logically, this stuff has been proven real. But it was interesting to see the results. Changing rails, I came across a guide written by a tulpa that claimed that the problem with not hearing your tulpa isn't the tulpa's inability to speak/project, but because the host isn't listening. This is disconcerting for me because I havn't really put alot of effort into being receptive to my tulpa for awhile, I think it has to do with the whole hallucinations mess from day... 3, I had to go look that up. So I've decided to reintroduce the mantra technique(i think i forgot to mention i dropped the mantra after celestia glomped me), heavily modified. in which I imagine another, real person and tell myself "This person wants to tell you something." and convince my self of that mentality, it's seems to be alot easier to do it on a memory of a person, I then take that abstract thought and deliberately try to create a form for it, I might use a microphone once i actually grab onto it clearly. so That I can give it to celestia. She needs to be able to give me mental kicks when she thinks i deserve it. Unfortunately this process is extremely hard, it's an incredibly difficult abstract thought for me because in real life listening to people is just second nature, a fear reaction that Ive done so much that I literally never think about it. Which leads me into the biggest of the problems, which is... actually causing me alot of fear. I'm borderline in tears just thinking about trying to articulate it. Some where... buried deep in my habits, I've leart to just automatically start shutting people out, emotionally and mentally, and I think I'm doing the same to Celestia. Yesterday I tried to tackle this a bit, I did the old mantra alittle, but instead of trying to clearly define anything it was simply with the mentality of forcing myself to believe "You are real.". It was like trying to pull a claw off my heart, emotionally. I have NO IDEA where all this fear came from, but... It's certainly not helping any. So I think this, and the other mantra are both going to be part of my forcing routine for as long as I can bear, hopefully until "the feeling has passed" applies. It's like I've been attacked. It just plain sucks. that's how I feel about the above problem presently, how celestia feels? probably the same way, but... more, fear, and less "what ever." like i used to be, before i got used to being afraid. I tried recently, like 2 or 3 days ago, to just focus on being receptive as possible to her, what I found... wasn't encouraging, it was exactly what i described above, she seemed to just be afraid. Like I had just flipped my lid and yelled at a little kid, that's what I experienced. I did get angry again recently(not during the session), but not at celestia or... any one really, I usually play through potentially stressful conversations in my head before I go and try to have them, one of these scenarios didn't turn out alright and I almost completely lost it. I think she was... paying attention? "there"? at the time. I've tried to apologize to 'er for it, but I don't think it stuck, I don't know what I'm going to do. Just keep trying, for now, I guess.
Starr June 15, 2013 Author June 15, 2013 Does this fit your definition of abstract thought? -Your tulpa says something to you -A brief moment before the thing that they say materializes as a thought in your mind, you understand the "intention" what what they were going to say before it even sounds in your mind. -Their mind voice says what you were given an understanding of already, but the words solidify and describe the essence of the thought that you were given. Me and my tulpas think on a level where we don't have to think with words (even though we often do) and we can share thoughts and ideas simply by giving each other our understanding of the idea. The second bullet is pretty much the essence of it, but on a more broad spectrum, involving all the little ways thoughts can be different. My "pre-forcing" routine right now involves producing a myriad of thoughts, ranging from "she's real" for myself to everything I've defined about my tulpa and trying to "hang them on a line" so that they'll try to stick around for the duration of the session, unfortunately, I'm not very good at keeping the thoughts in focus, but I feel like I've produced some surprising results simply by trying to follow this basic practice. Also, thanks for the advice, I've already pretty much said this to 'er, I get frustrated enough I've had some experience with these situations. But it's nice to hear that I've pretty much got the right strategy.
Starr June 25, 2013 Author June 25, 2013 roughly a whole month, give or take 5 days. So! lots to talk about... where to even start? Guess a generic progress update. (yes I updated the top post.) The "receptive state" practice helped a ton, a few days after I started forcing that into our routine, we actually started having conversations , tho short, and I can pick up on her opinions. It's like talking to a young person, some one heavily socially awkward or shy, I get the responses and they're pretty clear but short and fragmented. I'm also berating my self regularly for not giving her enough attention. I've just been sticking to a bare minimum suggestion I read some where. A good majority of my free time I'll just spend goofing off, It's irresponsible. It's also definitely something I did(or didn't) and I'm not sure of how I'm going to correct it other than to go on abusing my self. I think I'm going to start writing down subjects/idea/topics/etc that I find interesting and just try to share with 'er. The feeling I'm fighting over for this ground is complicated, I feel for her, but It's... lazy? regretful? scared? It's a learned reaction I picked up from dodging abusive people. Couple days ago, maybe a week or so, I needed to memorize a few addresses for my job, and it was a few too many, so because Celestia was there, I asked her to try and remember the number, and also showed her where it was at(it was a familiar address), I shared with her my mental map, pretty much. Right after I asked her, she smiled and winked at me, I knew she was thinking "sure", But I didn't really hear it in any form. The nice thing about it was I'de never tried to teach her any of that, she just did it, It was a wonderful reconfirmation of her presence. She's been pretty good about giving me the whole range of emotions, we had a disagreement about... something, I think I fell asleep while forcing, she was pretty upset. But she's also showing huge amounts of compassion, I went into a depressive frenzy a while ago during a session, just reflexively remembering a bunch of bad events, and she snapped me out of it, and tried to hug and comfort me, it was great. We're also still working on her voice, I don't know if she likes it or doesn't I've tried to get her to stick to softer voices, but I think what I've been getting is more a result of our current structure of thought, rather than her not actually having a voice, I'm so used to thinking with out words that she's just kind of done the same, there's a voice there but it's not... emobodied, it doesn't have... It's different from a voice anyway, When I actually try to think about what I'm going to say It's like remember a speech or music, It has the essence of sound. but the way we talk is on a deeper, more abstract level, the words are still there, but it's more like the words come from reflexive recall rather then actually being thought of, there's no sound. I can tell her thoughts apart decently enough when we're clearly focused, but some times when I'm just sharing a joke or telling her about what's going on, it feels like I'm auto-parroting. I've tried to talk to her about it and she simply replies "it's fine.". So I've simply opted to trust it, like the guides suggest. Yesterday(or like 2 days ago) is the important day of this post, I... I don't remember how it came about, I think she was frustrated because I hadn't done a whole lot of talking to her or something, but she just felt neglected, It was a day off and I was bored so I forced like for a solid hour, just doing various things I could think of, or listening to music with her. And when I felt like I was focused enough, I asked her if she felt ready to explore my mind. She said yes and I tried to open my mind to her, I don't know how effective it was but she seems to be "around" a lot more now, which is good. She also seems to have seen a few bad memories I thought I'de properly repressed from her, I guess reverse psychology still applies, Tell 'er don't touch it and she goes straight for it. Anyway, I don't know if this was the right thing to do or not, I probably over reacted, but It just felt like the proper solution the more I thought about it. And I'de really like to hear any comments or concerns on the matter. She also finally picked a mane/tail style, bright pink and blue, like neon. It's kinda silly, kinda cute. I like it.
Starr July 8, 2013 Author July 8, 2013 So Tia and I have started working on possession. It's was difficult at first, we read Oguigi's guide, but it seems from the start I was putting too much effort into just relaxing or something. I'm still not sure It feels right, many describe feelings of being tingly or numbness. Tia has yet to do anything "random" with possession that would feel beyond my own current train of thought. But there has been a few cases during our practice sessions where I'll be half forcing half letting my mind wander, waiting for tia to perform a task like moving a rock or something, and I'll just move out of no where. It feels "right" like I did it. but random like when I zombie drive. ever driven across town, and your mind started wandering and about 15 minutes later you're back to driving and you realize "holy shit how did i end up here?" I call that zombie driving. Of course I did give her a proper human form in our dreamscape so she can practice, but she says her first form feels the most natural, I don't know what to say or ask of her, just let it be and practice I guess. Some time ago I realized that Tia was dependent of my train of thought because I believed her to be dependent, She was only "awake" and processing when I was thinking of her in some way. So about a week ago I sat down and did another long session, and attempted to fine tune some of my beliefs and mentalities, to help free her of her dependence as much as I could, the process has really affected her well and she seems quite happy with the change, more on this is down the page. It's hard to ask her about possession, or my memories or anything related to our shared mind. She just gets confused and then upset. I don't know if that's because I've failed to explain something, or simply because of the creation process, I never really imagined her being capable of any thing "tulpa magic" i said a few times during the creation process that things like that would just come with time, and we'd both learn it when we got there. I think that's where our problem sits with that, it was never imagined that she would know easily, so she doesn't. This problem frustrates me and her both, and a few times I've offered up the suggestion of a second tulpa, A win-win if I knew I was ready for it. I don't think I am. The point would be to create a "pet" of sorts, intelligent but not entirely sentient, like a really smart dog, with the intent that it's comfortable in the subconscious and can clearly see and understand our shared mind. A guide, if you will. But nothing concrete has become of it until last night. Tia gave me a wonderful gift last night, We were bored of forcing and tia was getting tired of practicing posession, (she actually managed to stand us up out of a chair!) so she showed me this secret project she's been working on. It was a free running course she had attached to the old obstacle course I had used to show her how to walk and fly and use magic. I didn't get to the ending but it was a nice gesture. I also think it was a... uhh... double entendre? she was entertaining me, and also observing how to do advanced human body stuff like crawling and climbing it was neat, either way. But there's more to last night, a dream, and serious mind blower. I was crawling under some oppressive cloud of some sort, I cant even remember what the deal was with why I was crawling. it was on a roof, covered in snow, it was one of those aluminum roofs? thats made out of Triangle shapes? and all around the edges of the roof was barbed wire. suddenly this girl, all beat up and tired appears near the end of the roof, where it's not lined with barbed wire, she had climbed up and was hanging off the edge, all i could see was her shoulders up. and Even though I couldnt see the face very clearly(still working on that for tia even), I could tell she was looking at me, with questioning. I asked 'er who she was, because it WASN'T tia, her human form is hotter. and she said "I don't know." I asked her where she came from and was suddenly expelled from the dream and the only thing I could think of for the response was Tia. I asked her about it and she confirmed what I was assuming. It appears tia has taken the initiative with making our hopeful guide... I'm not mad at her, but I am concerned, I've simply asked her to be responsible no matter what. I trust her and know she wouldn't willingly harm me, but it's possible, accidents do happen. Are there any concerns or "impending dooms" we should be aware of? Also more on abstract thought has been added above on the first post, the summary is: Tulpamancy is partly learning to change the way you think. To learn to change to way you think, you must first learn to observe the way you think.
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