Lochlyn and Zie's Progress Log

[ZieTea]

The date is the 24 of July, 2013. Lochlyn has been speaking as "Lochlyn" for over a month now. We are starting to work on visualizing her.

Step 2 Closed Eyed Hallucinations

Why closed eyed? Why not just impose into your sight normally? Isnt it more indirect? Its easier to impose into something where you dont see the actual light because you already are depriving yourself of your actual sight. Something to remember is not to focus as much as what you really see which is black and to focus on the pixels mentioned in the Advanced Vision Control Guide. An analogy of how when youre thinking in a quiet room you dont think about your clock ticking so it wont register at all until you realize youre not thinking about it and you think about it because of this there by hearing it. If you can get into that state where you are only focused on your tulpa and not your surroundings do it, however that requires a guide worth of explanation by itself to explain in decent detail so i wont bother.

 

Either way turn off your lights and close your eyes. It is better to impose other things first before you impose your tulpa because their shapes are simply easier. For me i try to impose swords from Fate/Stay Night but you can impose whatever if you want to practice even your tulpa. When you see the particles mentioned in the Advanced Vision Control Guide focus on those, keep them in your field of vision and focus on more and more of them. When you turn off your lights and let your eyes adjust from the light to the dark you should see the particles naturally, or distortions in your view which is basically the same thing except its shape is nicer and more organized. Try to gather a group of particle things in your view and then try to move them with your will, it actually works like that, imagine them move and they will somewhat move, not perfectly at all, but to some extent you should be able to control it, even a little, and over time you might be able to get better at controlling it.

 

For us the particles which are bends now are often white so when i impose mine i will often see a black and white version of what i wanted. Colors can be applied later or if you want try to change the color of the bends into basic colors and then after you can see the form add shading or just skip it and do it with colors first off.

Then you can try to do open eyed.

Sadly, though I know what she "looks" like, I cannot see Lochlyn as of yet, even though I can hear her voice with the same clarity that I hear my own. The particles that this quote speaks of can be seen and slightly change in color, and I can even change the color of my computer screen with my eyes open to either green or purple (it's blue), however, no further progress has been made. The particles will not even move for me.

I feel as if I have terrible visualization skills and probably concentration as well. If anyone reads this and has any ideas to help me see Lochlyn that would be great.

Other than that Lochlyn has continued to be herself, talking to me and having a very different personality than my own. She says that she is lonely, though I give her probably too much attention since I will go back to school and won't have much to spare. Though, until I can see her with my eyes open there is no chance of me making another tulpa.

 

I can't help but wonder if it's even worth it. I know what she looks like and I've seen her once without trying (I was sick and she was standing over my bed and it wasn't a dream). Do you have to see your tulpa for them to be complete?

[Shui]

She's complete when you want her to be complete. Personally, I want to be able to see and feel my tulpas, but that's not for everyone. If you want to stop here, do so. It's possible that you'll get better at seeing her without consciously trying.

 

Bob Hoskins imagined the cartoon characters of "Who Framed Roger Rabbit" when he was acting in scenes with them. After a few months of filming, he could see them all the time, and he couldn't get them to go away. He created tulpas without even trying. So if you stop consciously forcing, and just try to imagine her walking beside you, and physically being there with you when you talk to her, she might just become visible.

[ZieTea]

The date is the same because I never sleep. I have received some feedback and need to stop reading this in an announcer voice, because I really sound crazy when I do.

 

It's possible that you'll get better at seeing her without consciously trying.

 

So if you stop consciously forcing, and just try to imagine her walking beside you, and physically being there with you when you talk to her, she might just become visible.

 

That sounds like a really good idea. I will definitely think of doing this.