Tulpamancy Under the Moon

[WiddleWuna]

Thanks for taking the time to stop by and read our blog. This particular one belongs to Widdle Wuna, and my adorable filly Inkie Pie.

 

The Past

I actually started Tulpamancy in December of 2012, though it never picked up steam. I would every couple weeks sit down for maybe a 20 minute session, before getting caught up in my life again. Long hours of work were spent without a thought towards my poor girl. Every so often I'd make a promise to change, force a new pony form on my pony and try again.

 

Eventually it got so bad that every time I went to sit down with my Tulpa, she was a new pony, or person, or thing. I suppose this stemmed from the fact that either she was being totally ignored for long periods, and needed a new way to attract me with something exciting each time. Unfortunately, I became more fixated on what she looked like rather than even the slightest bit of her personality. I was in love with the idea of having a Tulpa without actually having one in earnest.

 

I've decided to change, and this blog is going to be a big part of helping me sift through my massive amount of fears that I have about doing it wrong. So if you'd like to comment with feedback, criticism, or encouragement, please feel free.

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Day 1

 

I started off by greeting my old girl that has been ignored and dormant for who knows how long. Sitting on my bed in total darkness, with a white-noise machine on in the lotus position with 5 minutes of meditation helped prep me.

 

I stretched out my mind to her, and was immediately placed in a winter wasteland, which looked like a field leading to a cliff and trees around the back of us. It was very hard to visualize and if I didn't keep constant attention simply vanished into nothing. I felt cold, and asked worried Inkie was too, so I asked her to put some clothe son. A parka like Korra wears from The Avatar popped up on her, which looked really cute. I demanded she put pants on too (It only covered her upper part), and she popped on a heavy wool skirt that did the job. I was surprised and praised her for the design choice.

 

I explained to Inkie what we were going to be participating in. Traits were an important part of describing a person, with good and bad ones that sometimes blurred the line in between. I put up a whiteboard and put some traits on that described me, and briefly showed her what I meant by using myself as a dummy. Then I went to the method I read about a box, writing the trait down on a piece of paper and putting it in for her.

 

She said (in my mind's voice) "How does that work?"

"I don't know"

"I want a whiteboard like you"

And thus the box died, a tearful death. I was a bit concerned because this is what the guides said to do, but we went with the whiteboard anyways.

 

Her first trait was 'enthusiastic', and I wrote it down and then did my best to explain what it meant, when it would come up, how she would respond to situations. Often it felt like I was talking to thin air, though I tried to focus on where I thought she would be. We ended by hugging, me kissing her cheek and promising we'd continue tomorrow. And we will.

(total time: 27 minutes with 5 meditation.)

 

Good: The fact she chose her own clothes, and I could somehow sense she wanted a whiteboard (which took me aback) really excites me.

Bad: I'm concerned the constant body changes, and literal 9 months of pretty much ignoring her has caused some damage. It's so hard to visualize her, she's like a black spot painted on the wonderland that I can only see out of the corner of my eyes: barely distinct. Getting very little feeling from her.

 

Work on: Start reading guides and get her a second trait tomorrow.

[Shui]

Looks like she's showing signs of sentience. Glad you're doing meditation. I think it really helps the process along. Keep at it!