A New Member To the System

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Day 18

 

So, I haven't been able to do any active forcing for the past few days (family keeps pulling me around all day until I'm too tired to stay awake and force), and have been doing a little passive forcing.

 

What really caught me off-guard was Chael's very first full sentence! It was last night when I was trying to fall asleep. My fiancee and I had been driving from 1am - 4am, driving back to my campus, and we kinda crashed right after getting back, being extremely exhausted. There was a point right before falling asleep, I 'heard' a sentence in my head that said something about getting to know the other souls or something (I was tired, so I don't really remember). It caught me by surprise to much that tired me immediately thought 'HOLY CRAP I'M PSYCHIC wait my fiancee's asleep and that's impossible...' I figured since that was so much different that how my 'alters' sound when they become vocal, I heard it in my head, and it was different than the random thoughts that go through my head right before sleep, along with being in a different voice than I heard when I think. I have a feeling that Chael has enough sentience that he's willing to start getting to know my other 'alters' better than he has.

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Day 28

 

Unfortunately, I haven't had a lot of time to spend with Chael (school is mainly responsible for this), but he was just fine and took care of himself while I was away.

 

I noticed something very interesting while forcing and visiting our headspace (what I'm now going to call our wonderland) last night. Cart was fronting physically, but Kita was interacting with Chael, and she watched as Zero came down stairs via our new escalator (what @_@), quickly smoked a cigarette, grabbed something to eat out of the refrigerator, and went back upstairs, where everyone but Chael's bedrooms are. I had never seen or experienced that before, so it took me by surprise.

 

Anyway, I'm going to do some forcing after class today, and get back into the habit of forcing at least once a day.

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So I'm back after a long hiatus from forcing (a mutual agreement between Chael and I - we decided to stop forcing for a bit to focus on school and wedding planning), but I'm back in the game.

 

Last night, I decided to make a new room in our headspace house - a forcing room in the basement so I have an actual room instead of blank space.

 

Since I'm still taking a break from forcing Chael since he's at a stage in his development where he's teetering on the edge of sentience and puppet/parroting, we've decided to start a new tulpa together. Sort of a companion for him that's another tulpa and not one of my alters, and bonding for the two of us.

 

With this new tulpa, I'm still deciding on appearance (though I'm thinking about possibly an android?), so she's just a small orb of white light, but I worked on personality. I gave her intelligence, a dry sense of humor, independence, loyalty, and cunning.

 

EDIT

I think I'm going to go for something like this for her appearance:

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So I've done more work with my new tulpa. I named her Celeste, and decided to go with the appearance shown in my last entry. So far, I haven't been able to do much work with her without falling asleep before I finish (finals weeks and final projects have to do with that).

 

Here are some doll maker images of her (I have some sketches I've done, but I can't scan them right now)

 

 

 

 

 

And a new one of Chael

 

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So I just discovered a way to start imposing with Chael!

 

I'm an artist, a visual and hands-on learner.

 

Therefore, I decided to do an experiment with Chael. When I took a shower (this is why I didn't do it with Celeste - she is an android, after all), I approximated his height (6'1") compared to mine (5'1") and drew the general shape and proportions that he would be in the real world on the shower wall opposite the faucet and shower head with bright-colored shower gel. Using that as a base, I was able to successfully guide my hands around where his features would be (thank goodness for extensive figure studies in my gesture and figure drawing classes) and was able to feel his skin against my fingertips (his fur, hair, and feather were a whole other story).

 

Hopefully I'll be able to continue working this way for a while, since I found something that works for him. I'll have to figure something else out for Celeste, but she's about my height and proportions, so it shouldn't be as difficult...

 

I hope.

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Just updated their appearances; slight changes, nothing drastic. Mainly Celeste wanted a different hairstyle and more hair. ;w;