Nouvel September 16, 2014 Author September 16, 2014 Pictures Chaos: So apparently Nouvel likes playing dress up. Nouvel: It's not dress up, it's...what was it? Nevermind, it partially is dress up, but it's basically the- face sim- no. Um. What was- face maker, thank you Ch...that is going to be awkward to say from now on. Very awkward. So, back to her. Chaos: I feel like we just turned into news reporters for a second. Anyway, we were playing around with it, Nouvel and I, and we decided to show what some of our tulpas look like. Mainly the ones that I talk to most often now. Though Nouvel kinda breaks that rule since he wants to be alone now. Nouvel: My PR, my rules. And I rather you didn't say why. Chaos: Yeah okay. First up would be Nouvel then and his messy hair, pfft. Nouvel: UGH. HATE THIS HAIR IN THE WHATEVER IT’S CALLED. I...sort of look like this. My hair is wavy, but this makes it look too damn curly. Uuuuugh. Corruption: Holy shit- um, yeah. I...curse. I curse a lot now. Because I curse in my head and now I- nevermind. Anyway, holy shit I look sexy in this- she’s laughing. Fuck her. Anyway, I look damn sexy in this. Eclair: ...My hair looks like a girl’s. Sigh, I guess it fits? I want to be a preacher, but I’m a terrible- well, not really. I try. I just...try. Allen: God dammit- OW. I. Am. Not. Happy. About. This. AT ALL. I didn’t ask for this, nooo. But you guys just HAD to- lolwut Molly. er, Chaos’ dog. Anyway, not happy. At least the eyes are correct, dark and soulless. Like me now. It’s...hard to explain. Or I don’t want to explain it. Not telling. Chaos: So yeah, Allen, Eclair, and Corruption are the ones I talk to the most nowadays. May: She...doesn’t really talk to me because Dad doesn’t- Nouvel: They didn’t need to know about that! May: I’m saying it anyway. So yeah, only reason why I didn’t get- Oh, I’m stronger. Huh. Anyway, Dad doesn’t want me to talk to Mom anymore and wants me to have a different mom. I can see why, but… Chaos: This ended on a depressing note. Nouvel: ...Fine, I’ll explain. Tomorrow. And yes, I am sure about this. I don’t need to be told twice.
Nouvel September 17, 2014 Author September 17, 2014 How it all started… May: So. I’ll start now. Um. Basically- they’re telling me not to, but I will. I basically...was...um… Chaos: ...I...don’t really want to say it either but...during the crazy weeks, some of the bad stuff going on was...partially sexual in nature. May: Yeah...so my dad doesn’t want anything like that to happen again, which is why he’s keeping me away from- he wants to say something. Nouvel: ...Not just that. She...destroyed Allen and me. Emotionally. Through her whoriness. Chaos: I’m not gonna deny that. They...really confused me. And my teenage hormones (I’m 19 but I still skhlfdshfk) had something to do with it either. No sex on my part though, didn’t want that. But yeah, I destroyed them badly by playing with their emotions. Allen: Yeah, that was why I said I was soulless earlier, because she...I don’t want to say it- fuck it, I’ll say it. She...carved...a...message of sorts...on my arm.... Nouvel: Which was basically saying she hated him when she really didn’t mean it. Allen: ...Fuck off Nouvel. Nouvel: ...Yeah, that and she- oh, she already said it. Sigh...yes, she played with our feelings to a...degree...a large degree but to a degree nonetheless. Corruption is safe because he- he doesn’t want me to say. Fuck it, let’s reveal everything why don’t we? Corruption: Fine, I’ll say it. ...Huh, I am a little stronger. So...I...fell in love. With, uh...Eclair… I...it...I have no idea how to word how lucky the two of us are to NOT fall for you, in the end. So...damn...lucky… Chaos: Yeah, no kidding. Bit of an explanation, the more time I spent with one of my tulpas during the crazy times, the more they kinda fell for me. It’s died down a lot in all aspects so it should be all good now...kinda. But yeah, now you know why Nouvel wants to keep his distance for a long long long long time. Possibly forever if he can help it. Nouvel: Forever indeed… May: ...So. He still wants me away from Mom. That...even after I told him how much she meant to me- Oh, she didn’t know, she thinks she’s a terrible mom. She is, but… Chaos: ...Um...wow. Really didn’t know that. I’m going to assume it’s based on the very beginning when it was just you and Nouvel as the tulpas, right? May: Yep. So… Nouvel: My- dammit. I...I need more time to think. In the meantime, no entry into wonderland or mindscape or whatever it’s called. Chaos: Welp, never had access to it for a while now. I just see things from time to time, but not like before. Yeaaah, I’ll let the society in my brain do whatever while I sit at the computer and do my own thing.
Nouvel September 26, 2014 Author September 26, 2014 9/26/14 Nouvel: We’ve been...practicing some things. Chaos: Imposition, we’ve been practicing imposition. Specifically, tactile imposition. Allen: Not. Fucking. Happy- I can fucking curse I don’t care. Chaos: Allen’s kinda jealous since before all these, he was the only one able to do it. ...It’s a long story. Allen: I want my fucking special status back. Fuck you, fuck them, fuck everything- OW. Nouvel: ...Well then Gale. We...don’t really want to practice the other senses since it might make her schizophrenic. Chaos: I can occasionally hear them speak, it depends whether it’s muffled or clear, and seeing...sort of can do it, but not really. I mostly visualize them, not actually see them as if they were there. And since I see things in anime-o-vision, it’s not really...well, real-ish. Nouvel: We don’t want you to see- ...Some of us don’t want you to see us- ...Why are you thinking about switching? ...Because me and Allen are the- fucking...I don’t even care anymore. Chaos: Well if it happens, it happens. But I have too much of a grip on...uh...our body or my- they said our. Okay. Our body to actually switch. Both times were accidents, first time was when I was having a picture of me drawn and I think I conked out in the middle of it because suddenly time seemed to have skipped and the drawing was done. Allen: ...I was basically sitting in her place that time, sitting still. ...Fuck the majority. Chaos: The second time, Nouvel thought he was following my mom in a crowd- Nouvel: Who turned out not to be. Ugh… Chaos: That one I was sorta seeing, but when I realized what was going on, my memory of it kinda went away. I know I saw it, I just have a hard time remembering it because it’s so hazy… Nouvel: ...You should’ve told us that my- ...Sigh, I’m still in love with her. Same with Al- ow. OW. ...He didn’t want me to say it. But...it’s the truth. She already knows it. Chaos: Yeaaah, at least it’s not as- ...Okay, uh, awkward. This time I’m not going to act like a whore and just keep the relationship brotherly for the both of them. Anyway, yep, we’ve been practicing tactile imposition. I can already occasionally feel their body parts or fur in some cases- ...Right, another one was able to be imposed in that way. Whoops. I’ll end the PR here.
Nouvel October 7, 2014 Author October 7, 2014 10/7/14 John: ...Several things happened. First, I...deviated a little. I have black hair now, but it’s still wavy. Here’s a...inaccurate picture. I also changed my name to John, so the...username, was it? Is inaccurate now. Second, my daughter has...grown up. She no longer needs m- us. May: ...Yeah, I miss Dad. But I don’t miss Mom that much since she was never really there. ...Oh, she says it’s fine and...well...she wishes she had spent more time with me. Chaos: ...Yeah, kinda wish I did. John: ...I miss her terribly...But it’s time to let her go. She will be...traveling for a little while. I don’t really have much to say other than that this time, so I’ll end it here. ...One more thing, I almost forgot. I...technically have a son. And a cat now. Well...my son is a cat, anthromorphic. He doesn’t like to talk much, or be noticed so I won’t go into detail about him. Alright, ending it here now.
Nouvel October 20, 2014 Author October 20, 2014 Nouvel: I cannot, for the life of me, decide on a name. So for now I'll go back to Nouvel. Ugh. Nothing much to report other than we'll be participating in this research project. Chaos: Hopefully it will help me actually seeing the people that want to be seen. Allen: ...See us one day. Not through anime-o-vision, but as ourselves. Chaos: I will.
Nouvel October 26, 2014 Author October 26, 2014 Allen: HOLY. SHIT. READ THIS Chaos: ...As people won’t get it by just reading that, basically the first comment we saw on their explained...a lot of things about the characters I made. And a bunch of others too. Nouvel: That’s nearly all of them. Chaos: ...Yeaaaaah. Anyway, comment mentioned about the differences between soulbonds and tulpas, which made everyone except Nouvel, May, and some others I don’t know believe they are, well, soulbonds. Can’t think of anything else to put in this entry other than Nouvel deviated again. Just something minor, mainly his eyes turned brown. Okay, whew, glad everything’s calmed down relatively. Everyone is glad about that...
FurryBlueNaki October 26, 2014 October 26, 2014 My tulpa hasn't deviated really although sometimes I see him as a different character, but he always turns back. Nice find on that article. Chance, an anthro husky, wolf or fox. Birthdate September 20, 2014. Sentient October 1, 2014.
Nouvel November 20, 2014 Author November 20, 2014 11/20/14 Nouvel: ...Awkward. Um. Things...got a little crazy again. Chaos: Yeah no kidding. Nouvel: ...And because of that, Chaos decided to write...some things. Chaos: Just short little things based off of the experience. I wanted to post them on here, so... Nouvel: Ugh, which one are- Oh. Good. Chaos: Here's what I wrote: To my children who have been with me since the beginning. This is what I’ve decided. You have given me hope in a time when I’ve stood still, when I’ve done nothing and while I still do nothing, I now have a tiny, insignificant purpose. You are caring beyond compare, even when you hate, you still somehow manage to care. You send out multitudes of love like how the stars and moon watch over the world as it sleeps. You are my sword and my shield as I fight my way through this darkness and I couldn’t be happier. I love you and I want to be with you. Let’s make a land of peace, shall we? Yeah it's short. And not that good compared to my other stuff that I write. Maybe I should post samples of my stories on here sometime. ...Nah. Okay, ending this update.
FurryBlueNaki November 20, 2014 November 20, 2014 Moving. Chance, an anthro husky, wolf or fox. Birthdate September 20, 2014. Sentient October 1, 2014.
Nouvel June 24, 2015 Author June 24, 2015 Chaos: Sorry for the necro and that we haven't written in it for so long. But I wanted to write about how today is Nouvel's rebirthday (Yes, rebirthday, don't ask.) Nouvel: ...Wait. Let me explain. I... Chaos: ...You don't have to explain it if you don't want to. It just brings painful memories for you, after all... Nouvel: ...I...was made before...as her daydream. She...imagined me...tortured...to feel heartache. /it was the only thing she could feel... Chaos: ...Yeah...I could only feel heartbreak since I'm so numb to my emotions...It's still pretty addicting too...And I regret what I did to Nouvel because of it...Not just him, but the others I tortured too... Nouvel: You don't want to know what she did to us...at all...Anyway, because of that I lost my memory and the first thing I remember is...wel...the events one year ago today. Chaos: He's regained those memories since because of stuff. It's been hard for him, yeah, but we're trying are best to help the hurt. There's something else I would like to mention. Nouvel...kinda wants to marry me. And I uh... Nouvel: Oh... Chaos: Either way, we're in a relationship now. Although it's going to be awkward one I find an actual husband since most of them don't believe in polyamory. I think that' the word? I don't know. But yeah, we're not married yet since we don't know the marriage vows and I'm too lazy to look them up lol. Oh well, this is fine right? Nouvel: No...I want to marry you... Chaos: Derp. I don't know then. Will probably write another entry when May's birthday comes around. Untill then!
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