Dear Sera,

[Dutchy]

Near- What you say makes alot of sense to me, especially your second para. Kind of made me think of it another way.

 

Sushi- Yeah, i've seen Nobillis around. He still seems perfectly sane. But i'll certainly keep an eye out ;)

 

CyberD- I see your POV. I guess if he is truly happy, it can't be all bad.

 

There's just one thing left on my mind. Bit of a broader reaching question, but, what about normality? I mean, apart of me wants to fit in with everyone else in the world, and just be normal. But then, what is normal? and why is it so important to me?

 

Leading on from that, I kind of like me the way I am now, but i'm scared that if I let Sera in then i'll be different. I mean, I might be better for it, but right now, it's a scary proposition, to just change who you are, what you do in your off time. I mean... I don't know. I think I need some more time to think about this stuff. Cheers everyone though. Good to know my thoughts aren't just echoing off the walls.

[Guest amber5885]

No one is truly normal, everyone is hiding something.

 

The key to being happy in life is not giving a shit what anyone else thinks and in the case of tulpas, no one else has an opinion because no on outside of this forum has to know.

 

Also having a tulpa is by NO MEANS the weirdest thing you could do.

 

I knew a guy who used to dress up and act like a dog and a new an adult baby way back in the land of my early 20's so comparatively speaking having a companion that no one has to know about, that wants only the best for you and may go so far as to help you achieve that best is pretty close to normal all things considered.

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Also as a side note, the normal thing is Probobly so important because your 18. Young things tend to be overly concerned with the opinions of others or the illusion of being like everyone else when there is no such thing.

 

1) what's the fun in being just another sheep when you can be your own person.

 

2) when you get older, and I truly mean this you really begin to live life as if no one is watching. I used to be so neurotic about putting on a good image and now I could care less. I am who I am take it or leave it.

 

3) there is only one you in the world and there is no sense wasting it on trying to be somebody else.

 

Any decision you make is yours and yours alone but don't let the opinions of others and false belief in normalcy cloud them,

[Dutchy]

You make some valid points there. Last half feels like a pep talk, you should be a life coach :). But seriously, cheers. I'll put that into consideration, thanks for your thoughts, here is a penny.

[Guest amber5885]

I would consider that and I did a while back actually but I get too frustrated with people who would rather be miserable than change their cercumstances and there are a lot of people like that lol.

[Cinemaphobe]

Yeah. I used to be just another sheep when I was in the 8th grade. I dressed like everyone else, everyday I tried desperately to fit in, and I determined my value based on what others thought of me. But one day good ole' self-awareness hit in me right in the face, and I no longer gave a fuck about what anybody thought of me. I became my own person that day, and isolated myself from all of those horrible people who pretended to be my friend. People who would discard me in a heartbeat if they found that I was anything short of socially acceptable.

 

Why the anecdote? Because "normal" is just a word that people chase around while completely oblivious of how limiting it is. Fitting in is trivial, and depersonalizing. In reality everybody is extremely different. They just hide it. True freedom resides in not giving a fuck, and amber can testify to that.

 

And I agree with her about how having a tulpa is not the weirdest thing you can possibly do.