DKfury October 23, 2014 October 23, 2014 Decided to start a progress log, never actually done any recordings of any sort about anything I've done in life, so why not start I guess. I decided to make a tulpa after a few days of consideration, which came after about three months of lurking around the forums, reading most of the guides etc, which furthered my want of a tulpa, mainly out of companionship, to have a second opinion on things as I tend to act/react impulsively without thinking about who I could hurt or what the consequences may be, and my unnecessary fear of being alone. Kk enough with my moodiness >.> The tulpa I have decided to create I have named Kami ( I know I know so original, what with him being a wolf and all ) and, as for personality I'll be attempting to influence him with traits of calmness, focused, analytical and level headed, as to counter my impulsive and erratic behaviour, in a healthy sense of course. As it is at the time of posting this I have managed roughly 5 hours of forcing, which is quite low for over two weeks due to family matters. I feel as though Kami is developing nicely currently, still forcing the personality traits and doing narration for an hour a day (I don't classify narration as forcing in my mental mess of a brain) and am able to visualize him for a split second perfectly before the image fades away, and I do get random head pressures in the frontal lobe area, which I've never experienced before, so optimistically I'm taking that as a sign of Kami interacting with me in some way ( I'm a little weird I don't get headaches in the brain, but behind the eyes >.<) so hopefully I should be able to talk with Kami soon, as I'm hoping to have him vocal in a month or two, hoping, not saying that I know it'll happen, but that's what I'd like anyway. Ugh. Walls of text. I'm sorry to whoever reads this I'm really quite a dull person >.< After I post this I should be able to force for another hour or so due to everyone else being asleep (yay) so I suppose I'll get to it eh?
Guest October 23, 2014 October 23, 2014 You only think everyone else is asleep! Really, though, I can identify with you-- I've been at this for approximately 2 weeks in a row myself, yet I haven't gotten in too much active forcing. I try to get in 10 minutes minimum a day, but I haven't always met that quota. I have spent quite a bit of time doing active forcing, but it is easy to forget you're doing it while you're at school or work or something; you could do something like what I did, and wrote a 'K' on your hand, and begin to talk to your Tulpa again every time you see it. I also understand the difficulties with visualization-- my imagination isn't all too sharp in the aspect of visualization, and it is hard for me to visualize my Tulpa, Kayla; however, I've managed to be able to hold it longer and longer every few sessions. For a while, practice does seem to help-- I am trying to find another exercise to strengthen the clarity of images in the mind's eye, myself-- if I do find one, I'll be sure to alert you. I am sure your process will go along well, though. Make sure to tell Kami that I said hello.
DKfury October 23, 2014 Author October 23, 2014 Well my head just started pounding as I read the last bit to Kami, so I'm going to take that as a hello back, definitely the most notable response from external sources so yay, and yes if you do find one I'd be most appreciative thank you :) and as for the 'K' on the hand I'll definitely try it, although I may be doing this at a bad time (year 12 final exams all week >.>) but oh well xD
DKfury October 25, 2014 Author October 25, 2014 Figuring out how hard it really is to try and play Diablo whilst narrating, my head hurts now >.> still working on personality.
DKfury October 27, 2014 Author October 27, 2014 Finished my chemistry exam today, physics on Friday, (kill me now) so I should have more time to focus on other things. Yay. Beginning another active forcing session after posting this, which should total around 6 hours of personality work in a week, although passively visualizing is definitely straining me a little, but to no ill effect, I honestly can't wait until Kami is vocal enough to have full conversations with him so the next three days will be full mostly of passive and active forcing! :) Pssh who needs to study for their final exams amiright?
Guest amber5885 October 27, 2014 October 27, 2014 Maybe you could have him help you with your school work. Have him sit in on the classes next to you and listen to your teacher. He could learn a bit that way. You could also try to use him as a study buddy. I know he isn't vocal but as you're studying just pout out things to him and ask him what he thinks. Even if he can't answer you he will still enjoy the attention. Also thinking along the lines of if you get him thinking a lot it might help him to start speaking.
DKfury October 27, 2014 Author October 27, 2014 I was actually thinking the same thing myself honestly, and its definitely something I will do, studying for this physics exam I'm going to need all the help I can get haha. Thanks for the advice though, definitely will do :)
DKfury October 29, 2014 Author October 29, 2014 Absolutely no progress today, might try active forcing later, but after moving a metric f#cktonne of steel today I am in no shape to brain >.>
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