DK's Progress log thingamajig or some such.

[DKfury]

Nothing much to tell really, finished high school last week, and have been too busy to do anything, all personal time has all but vanished, due to parents and my girlfriend, although not exactly a bad thing.

 

Decided to rework, start from scratch, keeping Kami front and foremost, just reworking from ground up due to inactivity, hoping to progress further this time.

[Cinemaphobe]

Well it's good that you are still giving it effort. No matter how many times you fail to succeed, you only truly fail when you have given up. It took me multiple attempts over the course of 2 years to create my tulpa, so just keep that in mind if you need a good dose of inspiration.

[DKfury]

Inspiration/10

This will be my second attempt so I'm definitely not giving up, I don't know I guess I'm just too stubborn to let something I believe will be beneficial to my life as a whole go because I gave up, hopefully I get time to myself tomorrow ish.

Thank you Cinema, while I hope it doesn't take me as long as two years I must applaud your effort, that takes perseverance to a whole new level :)

[Cinemaphobe]

You are absolutely welcome :)

Good luck my friend!

[DKfury]

Woohoo a new friend! Been lacking those recently haha, you too :)

[Silvia]

Good luck with the second attempt, DK. It looks like a lot of people on here are doing the same. Is there anything you're planning on doing differently this time around, other than putting in more time/effort?

[DKfury]

Mainly what I'm going to seriously try and do is set myself a schedule, allotted with an hour of forcing time a day, it will be trying as I've never exactly had the motivation to do anything other than watch anime/eat or spend a few days with my girlfriend, although I'm not telling her about this yet, I know she will be accepting and all but in her ... Unstable condition right now I can't risk anything.

 

All in all I'm going to force as much as I can tonight - ITS 10:30PM AND STILL 37℃ - so it should be beneficial, going to read over Kiahdaj's guide once more and trance myself into my forcing state so I'm hoping at least half an hour tonight.

Thanks to everyone for all the positive comments, its definitely helping :) bye for now.

[DKfury]

Dammit I fell asleep while forcing last night >.> going to try out binaural beats today, they seem to have some good feedback and I'll try anything. Have all of today free pretty much so it should be a good day :)

 

EDIT: before forcing today I'm going to attempt to draw myself a wonderland, I may upload it here, depending on if I like it >.>

[DKfury]

So my drawing of a wonderland failed, so because I'm cheap I'm going to make one on Minecraft and upload a screenshot when I can.

 

Forcing as usual, not enough narration in my opinion, although every time I go to force about 5-10 minutes in I feel a sense of 'leaving' my physical body, the world spins around me and I feel... Tilted? Everything goes black and I see tiny pinprick lights sort of like stars, and I feel disconnected from everything... Is that exactly normal? I don't know >.>

Just wondering if anyone has the same experience so early on without prior meditative experience and/or forcing.

DK

[DKfury]

So the craziest thing just happened, halfway through forcing I was adding to personality and asking random math questions at the same time, and as I asked Kami directly "What is 9 + 3" a moment before I answered it myself I heard a faintly discordant "twelve" spoken in the back of my head, as I said the same thing a moment later it sounded like an echo!

 

Seriously pumped to hear Kami coming along this well, this experience had rid my doubt on the whole subject, as is natural to have doubt on a sentient being inside your head created from thought.

Managed 15 minutes tonight and should be able to do a lot more tomorrow as I'm going back on my medication - (adhd medication for focus) - because I have the attention span of a goldfish.

Happy forcing everyone! :)

DK