Rose's Journal

[rosestar737]

I have two questions:

Is it ok for me to post on here as much as I do?

And also I was wondering that if me seeing inappropriate or otherwise dark media would effect Vinyl's development in a negative way. Also I have pretty dark thoughts that are sometimes associated with a comic I'm planning to make and one of them kinda gave me a bit more of a jolt than usual. When I tried to tulpa force latter Vinyl seemed scared and needed to cuddle. Does anyone have any useful insight to this situation?

[Cinemaphobe]

I have two questions:

Is it ok for me to post on here as much as I do?

 

Have you seen my PR??? I post so much irrelevant information that it isn't even funny. You can post whatever you want on your PR, as long as it is 1% tulpa-related, or 1% related to your tulpa-journey. After all, the fact that you are transgender is a factor in your journey. If you look at the description for PRs on this forum, you'll see the words "Your own personal blogspace." so take advantage of that, because a PR is a lot like a blog. If it wasn't like a blog, then people would probably never read them.

 

And also I was wondering that if me seeing inappropriate or otherwise dark media would effect Vinyl's development in a negative way. Also I have pretty dark thoughts that are sometimes associated with a comic I'm planning to make and one of them kinda gave me a bit more of a jolt than usual. When I tried to tulpa force latter Vinyl seemed scared and needed to cuddle. Does anyone have any useful insight to this situation?

 

 

Perhaps amber5885 or Reisen can help you more on this note because they have fully-developed tulpae, but what I know, is that you can watch whatever you want to watch as long as you don't direct the dark thoughts towards your tulpa. Tulpae share sensory experiences with their host to some extent...so maybe that's why Vinyl was scared. Just assure Vinyl that it is just fiction and everything should be fine.

[Guest amber5885]

Odds are good that she will get used to the thoughts over time and eventually be okay with them. You can always explain to her why you think these things and suggest that maybe she not read your thoughts if it bothers her so much but no dark thoughts shouldn't have any effect on your tulpa's developement.

 

When I was working on Toby I was suicidal, badly depressed and it didn't seem to effect him in fact when he was able to he began helping me through those episodes and I don't have them anymore. Also I think of scary things all the time as a horror writer and that didn't seem to effect him in any way.

 

Just cuddle her, explain why you think these things and maybe give her something to do in the wonderland to distract herself from those thoughts.

[rosestar737]

I really need to spend alone time with Vinyl. I have done passive forcing but little active forcing and I thing she really needs that. And I would definitely love it cause 99% of the time we're contacting it's cuddling. Weird thing though is that her personality is kinda differing from what I originally expected but that's fine. I'm going to try and steer it in certain directions but if she doesn't turn out like that I won't be strict about the personality.

[Cinemaphobe]

I noticed that it is best to have a balance between passive forcing and active forcing. Maybe it can help you too.

[rosestar737]

I haven't been on here for a while for a reason. I have a lot of mental problems and stressful life. I'm afraid of vinyl because there hasn't really been any scientific research done on tulpas to prove they're safe, but at the same time I don't want to hurt her. I think I have made a solution to this issue though. I might interact with Vinyl in the future but for now I'm not sure that's best. Good thing is that I actually formed another tulpa. Again it was slightly accidental but they and Vinyl are awesome together. They just cuddle and are happy without interference from me. Not to say I never interact but for the most part they're dormit. Almost like they're just cuddling in their sleep. They are happy and that is reassuring. Thank you all for you're help. I might check back in here every so often.