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[Near]

...I will think of an interesting title.

 

Greetings, fellas

You may or may not have read my introduction, but in short, I've been a lurker on this site for over 2 years and I've finally decided to join in the fun, social part of community life. You also might notice I do things a little differently because my primary experience with thoughtforms was daemonism, aaand I didn't pay attention in class (i.e. the tulpa guides) so I mostly did it my own way... just a heads up :P

 

I'm an avid writer and I have a bountiful supply of original characters. Try not to ask how many tulpas I have, because what usually happens is I get so engaged with these supposed servitors I use for my stories they start talking without me having to parrot :I the ones I've mentioned on this forum so far are Kuroi and Lucifer.

 

The Mindscape

 

But I think I'll at least start afresh for y'all, it's easier for me as well. First of all, I give levels to my... mindscape, if you like. Level 1 is ground level, where I've built my main wonderland. That's where all my tulpas, and whoever else likes to make an appearance, live. When I daydream and imagine places that don't belong in the Level 1 category (they don't exist in that piece of land I've set for my tulpas to do with what they will) I call it Level 2. Basically I go there when I space out.

 

Level 3 and 4 (I often refer to them as the Salle) are the White Space and Black Space. The White Space is a place that is all white, of course. It's like a small world with lots of tall white rectangles (buildings) in grid formation. Imagine Coraline or Fly Like a Bird. This is more of a fixed place. I go here to think, sit on one of the buildings and just look out. Sometimes I speak to this little boy who doesn't really have a name (but damn, he looks like boy Gaara).

 

The Black Space is what I have personified as my subconscious. I go here to meditate, reflect, fish for old memories. All kinds of stuff.

 

Meet Giovanni

 

The first thing I've decided is his name and appearance. Basically he's called Giovanni, and he looks like my avatar. (I decided on 'Giovanni' thanks to some rather comical inspiration from the urban dictionary :P). I wanted to meet him in a different place so that we wouldn't get any interruptions from my other tulpas (I love them, but sorry kids :P) so I've chosen Level 2.

 

Using a template saves time so if any of you have watched Sherlock Holmes (Robert Downey Jr) that's what I have in mind. Yes Sherlock is my childhood. Detective Conan was even earlier in my childhood. Would it be bad if I used Baker Street as our address? >D

 

The point of this thing is to put Giovanni in day-to-day Victorian London life (the Victorian bit is for the sake of my passion) and that'll help me develop his character. It doesn't mean he's stuck there, but it's a base to fall back to.

 

I will likely create a profile for him before I start because that is my practice when creating any OC.

Cheers

[CyberD]

Welcome to interaction with others.

 

Tulpa are different for everyone, some will have lots while others like myself tread carefully to only have one. That said I've created plenty of characters like you have for all manner of writing exercises.

 

Giovanni sounds like he might be a really interesting tulpa. Drawing inspiration from other sources can certainly help speed along the process but it makes diviation a little more difficult should you ever grow bored of the setting.

 

Good luck to you, remember, you only get out what you put in.

[Near]

Haha, what a welcome. Thanks, bud.

 

True, that. They are all different and staying in one place would be boring. Though I don't plan on sticking stubbornly with the London map. I know that'll close off a lot of opportunities. But, it's a chance to see how Giovanni will react in-world (without interruption from other tulpas). Oh, I should mention I mostly project (Tulpa.info calls it imposition? Forcing?) my tulpas inside the mindscape only. Only the special few have made it to being projected outside of it. Thus my projection skills are crap, but at least being very good at vocalising and seeing them in-world makes up for it. My special few are pretty much just Kuroi and my daemon, who we refer to as Kasper online.

 

 

Scenario #1 [why not number them? I usually have quite a lot]

 

I don't spend that much time in the mindscape, to be honest. Usually I interact with my tulpas in scenarios. For example, the most recent one I had was with Kuroi. I imagined a maze-like mansion and involved some of the tulpamancers I have seen on here so far :P (looks based mainly on avatars, others I made up.) Basically, we all mysteriously ended up in this mansion, and slowly, each one of us starts to have visions. It started off with a fleeting glance, but gradually the tulpamancers all began to see their tulpas. Their visions got longer and more frequent and finally, the tulpas became corporeal.

 

What happened next was quite interesting, and not what I expected. Kuroi and I are pretty close, but in this situation I found that I was incredibly suspicious of him. After, how do you explain it when everyone's tulpas start appearing? That would be a pretty amazing thing, and (for me at least) the best way to expose one's weakness. Since I expected the tulpamancers to all be naturally suspicious and anxious of each other, they stuck close to their tulpas. Suspicion breeds fear, and the end result was that we all started to fight and go after each other. What can be a better way to control a person but to use their tulpas against them? It started getting pretty dramatic and that's when I ended it.

 

I should mention that Kuroi and my other tulpas always know that it's just a matter of daydreaming and experimenting. There are no hard feelings between us.

 

I think it should be interesting too. The way Giovanni's personality is coming along at the moment, he should be getting us into all kinds of trouble in-world.

[Near]

To differentiate, Giovanni speaks in italics.

 

Day 2

 

I can just about summon the energy to write this up. Exams can be exhausting. I spent about half an hour interacting with Giovanni today in the morning. I didn't expect to think of him but he appeared in at the bus stop where I was sitting. I started playing MSI and he started to jam shamelessly to what I was listening to; something I didn't expect him to do the way his personality was coming on so far. As in, I expected him to be a bit of a wallflower. It was quite amusing, and a tiny bit awkward, if you know what MSI songs are like.

 

So for a brief moment I looked at myself in third person and he had pulled me up to dance with him. The first conversation went like this..

I told him, "Whoa, that's a bit much."

And he smirked and said, "Why, you scared?"

"Why would I be scared?"

"Because I'm on my way to becoming real."

"Excited, huh."

 

His last line was interesting. After that, I asked him which song on my playlist he wanted to listen to, and it was another one from MSI. There were a few intervals between short sentences exchanged. The next thing he commented on was my spelling while I was taking notes to put on here. Since I was typing very quickly, I got a blunt "Your spelling is awful/disgraceful" (he said it twice, honestly) from him and "No, you won't be able to read that."

The bad spelling thing probably comes from his writing hobby. He apparently wants to work as a freelance writer with a rather satirical style.

 

I was writing on stickies on my phone and I picked a blue background for him, to which he raised a brow at, so I asked him what colour he preferred. He said orange.

It wasn't what I expected, again (developing tulpas can surprise you, eh) so I was like "What? Orange."

It took him a while to reply again but he said "Yeah... Autumn. My favourite season is Autumn," hinting that he liked the colour because of the season.

 

For the last few minutes, he criticised my taste of music by saying "You know, as a welcome gift you should give me a pair of ear plugs."

"How would that affect you -_-"

"At least we can pretend I can't hear your music."

I suggest headphones for him, which he approves off, but "earplugs for now." They looked funny on him (they probably would on anyone).

 

He walked me down the road to school after that, and that was the end of our session, though he did make a comment here and there throughout the day.

[Near]

Due to exams, there hasn't been much going on. Apart from seeing Kuroi on occasion today, there hasn't been a lot of progress, though we did walk home together. I'm tired and a little hungry, and there's a few projects to be finished before I can relax.

[Near]

12th, 13th November

 

For the past two days (starting on the 12th) Giovanni and I have tried possession. I can already hear some people saying this is a little early to be trying that, but my method is to let my tulpas 'learn on the job'. And having created tulpas and numerous original characters (who are probably not quite tulpas) before, I'd say I'm not trying to do the impossible. Anyhow, it happened rather randomly on the 11th I believe. I was trying possessing first with Kuroi because he's the one I know best out of all my headmates.

 

I more or less imagined, say, a ghostly form of my hands retreating towards the centre of my body (I created a control room later on. Just a small dark room lit only by a screen, lots of control panels and a couple of chairs. I found it slightly easier to picture myself dormant and let Giovanni remain in control). The possession with Kuroi went alright. I imagined his arms sliding into mine, like gloves. It was a little strange, since I still felt like I was the one moving around and not him. We did that for a few minutes and the next morning, Giovanni suggested doing it with him.

 

We did the possession thing for pretty much the whole day (12th). He kept pressing to do it longer ("Until 6pm, damn it. We agreed.") At first it was the same, I didn't feel like he was controlling my movements. There were three things that Giovanni and I noticed.

 

1) It was much easier to imagine I had taken on his personality, rather than the other way around (that he had taken over my body, or however you want to put it). So basically, my personality is suppressed, and his becomes dominant. Once I got that idea into my head, I imagined being Giovanni, and since I had a good idea of his personality, I basically went along with what felt like what Giovanni would do. Meanwhile, I occasionally picture myself sitting in the control room watching the screen.

 

Another thing we did to remind ourselves who was fronting (started yesterday I believe), and this was especially helpful for Giovanni since I don't need reminding when I'm in control (but I should try saying it as much as I can anyway) was saying something like "I am Giovanni. I am in control" and "I am Giovanni, I relinquish control" to make it official who's doing what. Over the course of yesterday Giovanni made little speeches inspired by what Katniss does in Mockingjay. He would basically say the basics about himself, and develop that. For example, he said these words quite a lot;

 

"I am Giovanni. I am male. I am 23 years old... 7 months... 11 hours and ten minutes old (depending on the time of day). I am in control. This body is not actually mine, it's Near's. I am rather bored, and hungry, and... why the hell do they have lights on at midday?"

 

2) We also found that whilst Giovanni fronts, our attention span greatly decreases. He missed a big piece of green paper telling us we were in a different classroom, and very often we found ourselves in a daze. I guess it's the fact that I have to remember he's fronting and that his personality is at play, not mine. So I can't count on using Giovanni to help me get good grades :P though that wasn't my intention anyway.

 

But, interestingly, his personality was more fierce. Whilst fronting, he successfully scared off two troublemakers. Normally I would just wait for them to go away, but after taking on Giovanni's personality (and I knew he was a no-nonsense guy in a more open way, unlike me who is often passive-aggressive) he tossed a few angry words in their direction, and it worked. This makes me wonder what the line is between a tulpa fronting and an alter ego, even though the personality idea really helped.

 

From time to time, we did lapse back to my personality without Giovanni saying "I relinquish control" and that was mostly due to having to constantly remind myself he was fronting. We also find we lose concentration when engaged in something like a book or work.

 

3) One downside with the personality idea, our personalities seem to be very similar. So we were kind of desperately trying to find differences. I read about two characters called Alyssa and Bates from a game called Clock Tower. Alyssa being the host, and Bates being an entity trapped inside her. Their personalities were very different; Alyssa was shy and meek, and Bates was cruel, arrogant and sarcastic but kind to Alyssa.

 

Fortunately, we were able to find some differences that would make it less confusing. For one, he didn't say much to my friends. He was quiet when it came to having to talk to them, and he was quite reckless. It seemed we had some trouble spelling. A lot of this might be due to the amount of concentration we put on keeping him in front. He's a little bored by all the routines of daily life. He's definitely far less insecure and isn't obliged to smile when being smiled at.

 

14th November

 

Today (as I wrote the above last night) Giovanni tried fronting again. It definitely feels slightly better, but we still ended up lapsing back to me at around 1:45pm. ("I guess there's no point in saying 'I relinquish control' then?") Yeah, so I should probably brush up on that. The lights were on on the other side of the room today, at midday, which Giovanni couldn't resist commenting on. I tend to get snide remarks from him. I guess another difference is, I'll be polite for the sake of peace, but I guess he doesn't care much.

 

I also determined a big red button to press in the control room so that I, and only I, can cease the possession if I want to. We tried it today, it works, like it's supposed to. What else? We had a 5 hour Chemistry exam today, and Giovanni joined in the practical. He didn't seem very impressed by it all.

 

Not much else to report.

[Cinemaphobe]

The possession practice you have been doing is incredibly amazing. I have never really looked into possession because I assumed that there would be no benefit in doing it. But then again I have never considered the possibility that possession can build a tulpa...

 

After reading this post, I've decided to give possession a try! After all, I never asked Yumi whether she'd like to try it for some reason, but she also probably doesn't even know what possession is, so this will give me the opportunity to tell her about it lol

[FurryBlueNaki]

I thought your tulpa knows everything you know Cinema.

[Near]

Cinema, it's actually quite fun. If tulpas are as complex as us humans, they have strengths as well as weaknesses. Those troublemakers back there were dealt with by Giovanni. It's having a friend (with benefits) inside your head who can take over and have a go at dealing with some of those people you either can't bother yourself with, or you have no patience with. Plus it's a nice pastime and enjoyable, just like going out with a good friend.

 

Since starting the possession thing, it had definitely helped with Giovanni's vocalisation, and the conversations we have are slightly smoother. I don't feel like I'm parroting so much, so it does work to help you get to know your tulpa and build them. I'd be interested to see how you and Yumi get on ;)

 

And on a side note, how well they know you doesn't really spoil the experience of possession. So far that hasn't affected Giovanni and I at all.

[Near]

17th Nov

 

I didn't do much with Giovanni over the weekend. I was working fervently on a new story the entire weekend, but this neglect seems to have done some damage to Giovanni's fronting experience. It didn't feel like he was as assertive, and we decided to just give up on it later in the afternoon since it just wasn't working out. My actions and thoughts kept overriding his, though we made one small discovery at least. He doesn't like to look at (my) reflections. He says, "It's not because I see your face, it's because I don't see mine." And it ruins our concentration a little since I often picture him in third person in my place, doing whatever I'm doing.

 

We are slowly becoming more aware that it feels different when he's fronting. The subtle differences, like how he sits, walks, looks around, talks, compared to how I do them. As for music preferences, he only prefers the hardcore stuff :P Oh yes, that reminds me of writing that profile...