Having Tulpa Problems, and It Isn't Her Fault

[Johannes]

Is it possible for your tulpa to emulate their emotions through your face on the fly, as if they possessed you face? I never gave her permission, but I don't think I told her not to. When we talk, when I visualize her and see she is happy, a grin appears on my face when I didn't expect it to the same time she does, and its the same kind of smile. Heck, things I usually don't find hardly humorous are now much more funny, and while I am laughing, I am wondering why I am laughing this much/this hard?

 

I know she can't help herself, but is there any explanation? And yes, I had been thinking about this, and did more research, and she might as well need to work on her parallel processing. She seems to be sentient, but is relying on me needing to focus even a TINY bit on her so she can speak. I feel so bad for her. "Don't be," she just told me, but still, I like her to be more independant, and more (if I am phrasing it correctly) conscious than where she is right now. I guess we just need to force more.

 

However, like in my original post, I am worrying about getting massive migraines the more I develop or force Alice. I never had this problem in my entire life until now, and like I said before, I was (unknowingly) talking to a tulpa, for over seven hours a day, and mentally I didn't mind. It was the headaches that get in the way. Because I had recently had lack of faith in Alice, and be ause of such didn't talk to her, 80% of the strength of the headaches went away for lack of forcing. What puzzles me is that at a certain point, and for a while, I wasn't talking to her either at all or less than twelve minutes a day because she's trying to communicate to me (and I act like a jerk and ignore her), I STILL get migraines like I was still forcing fir hours at a time.

 

Thank you all for caring.

[sushi]

Emotion is felt primarily in the body. For example, anger tenses muscles in the shoulders and arms. When those parts of your body are numbed, it's harder to get angry, and when you do, it doesn't feel as intense.

 

Because of this, and because a tulpa had no physical body of her own, a tulpa's emotions often bleed over into the host's body. It's common for a host to feel some of their tulpa's emotions, though often not as intense.

[Johannes]

I decided four days ago to treat Alice as a partially formed Tulpa, considering my parroting/puppetting experience may have helped her gain sentience. Even if it didn't, she must work fast then. :P

 

Here is why, and it is great news:

 

I had, after looking at several guides, started planning out Alice's personality in moderately great detail. I started narrating to her yesterday, and about halfway through the list, she said something in a mindvoice that was definitely louder than my own that caught me off guard (btw my own mindvoice is pretty quiet in general, so this startled me). I took this moment in stride, and noticed that Alice had a male voice. I asked her to use a female voice. Instantly, in a female voice, she said, "I'll sneak one in."

 

She had not said anything again yet, so I'll focus on narrating to her. In fact, I'll do that in an hour.

 

[Edit] However, I wonder if that voice was the same Alice I was talking to originally, and if so, why was her audibly loud voice male until I asked for her to make it female, with an equally audible loudness?