Alexavier's Progress Report

[Alexavier]

Hello everyone, my names Alexavier and now I am a part of this community. I knew the existence of this site a while back in April. But I never really committed myself to being a part of it, until now. (well really 2 days ago but not trying to be specific..) And I already have a Tulpa. I created him on April 10, 2014 and ever since than, I've tried my best to make him as sentient and living as possible (still am) and i'm not giving up on him. But sadly on my behalf I've done major procrastination, which is probably why at this point he has developed vocals yet. I have been tulpaforcing with him throughout the months since his creation, and I do think about him everyday, but I feel like I haven't been tulpaforcing with him enough and have been slacking, and its getting me no where. And so my new years resolution is to spend time and develop my Tulpa as much as possible. Yesterday and today I had kept a constant conversation with him during school, and just today I had looked up guides and practiced them while my parents and brother were gone. I'm making a difference this time with him, and I plan to make sure he has full sentience and full vocals before his birthday.

 

 

My Tulpas name is Barley. He's 17 years old, and identically looks like me, but in drawing form. His racial features are different from mine too. He's German, but still talks with a normal American accent, he has white-ish, blonde bleach hair and he is about the same height as me and thinner.

 

Here's a Picture of him and our wonderland:

 

 

 

 

 

And so.. yeah. That's my story, and I'll try to best to be committed to this community as much as possible. Me and Barley hope to get along with all of you. c:

 

Thanks, and Bye!

 

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12/17/2014

 

 

Not too long ago I did some Tulpaforcing and in both my mind and real voice I would focus on Barley and Whisper "Barley.. Can you say hi? Please say hi, Barley.." and I would say it multiple times hoping I wouldn't parrot his words for him, and surprisingly, I believe I heard him. Except, His voice was very echo-y and distant. He also sounded like a young child, (around 10-12) which surprises me because I had imagined his vocals to sound much deeper. None the less, It could of been him, could of not been him. But if it was him, then i'm glad that i'm make progress with his vocals!

 

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1/5/2015

 

 

I've come to a conflict. For some reason I have this strange feeling in the back of my head that says spending time with Barley is useless. I don't know why I feel this way, I don't want to feel this way! Yet I have this idle thought going through my head that has doubt, I want to get ride of it somehow, but I don't know how... I've also been very busy doing school work and on top of that, I haven't gotten the time to talk with Barley. But that doesn't mean I'm giving up, even if I have this unknown doubt hanging around, that doesn't mean I have to believe in the doubt. I'll try my best to ignore the doubt and maybe within time, i'll feel more confident and get stuff done with me and Barley.

 

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1/24/2015

 

 

So recently a "life" changing event as happen to me where I had stopped Tulpa forcing with my Tulpa, though, that doesn't stop me from passive forcing, its just that I won't be forcing with him as much as I intended to do. And it's not that I don't want to, its because there isn't the right time and the right place to do it. I will sometimes Tulpa force with him at night just for a little bit before I go to bed, and somtimes in the morning before I go to school. But I feel like there isn't enough time to manage the forcing on a daily basics. Which disappoints me on my behalf, especially Barley. Last night I had a dream, Can't exactly remember what happened in the dream but I do remember seeing Barley in it. and he was talking to me, His voice was deep-ish but it also has an angry tone to it. Giving me the hint that he's a bit upset at me for not normal spending time with him as I used to, which I can understand why he'd be a bit irritated and I fully agree with him. I just need to find the right opportunities to do so. Until then, I'll just keep forcing with him during the nights and mornings.

 

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12/13/2015

 

 

Holy moly! Okay so about 2 weeks ago I was active forcing with Barley in our wonderland and I was talking to him and I noticed that he began to do things on his own without me parroting him or puppeting him. He shook his head up and down, smiled, laughed. It was amazing to see such evidence that he was actually sentient (bare in mind I have always been believing that he was sentient, but only until now have I seen actually evidence) and so now I'm pretty proud and excited for achieving this goal even if it took a year and 8-9 months! I will write down any further information later on. Hurray!!!

 

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1/4/2016

 

 

So during November through December I had thought of making another Tulpa. My reasons for making another Tulpa aren't exactly known, but mainly the reason I do want to make another one is for a new friendly face and more companionship, not saying that Barley is not good enough or anything. But just the feeling of having more company, I don't see harm in that. Surely this isn't the most smart idea but it's my decision and I have thought about this for quite awhile and followed through with it. And so I created a new Tulpa, and her name is Allison. She is 18 years old like me and has medium black hair. Allison was born on January 1st, 2016. She is very compassionate and treats everyone with respect and loyalty. She can by shy sometimes but once she opens up a little, she'll be a very nice and talkative person. and she always helps family and friends in need and is very optimistic about life. Here's a picture of what she would look like.

 

 

Anyways, I'm quite happy that I've created her and I hope she becomes a really great friend to Barley and I and will also be happily apart of our little family. :)