The Wandering Seafarer July 11, 2012 July 11, 2012 The thought of having a tulpa was too great to pass up, so I decided to create one myself. There are so many reasons having one would be nice in my life, and I am doing nothing more productive, so currently I see no reason not to. I'll start logging for a few reasons. The most important is so I don't stop unless I want to face the shame that it will be immortalized for others to witness. Let's begin. Day 1: A Rough Start I split today into two 15 minute sessions, starting with an introduction and skimming the surface of starting personality. I would love to have gone longer, but it seems many aspects of forcing are difficult for me. First and foremost I seem to have trouble keeping a clear mind, though I can try to ignore outside thoughts. Also, it's hard for me not to just see a black abyss when I close my eyes and force. Hopefully things like this fade with time, but if not I'm sure somewhere lies an answer on this forum. The start was rough, though as I (hopefully) become more proficient, the forcing will become easier. My current goal is to become able to force for an hour straight by next week. We'll see how it goes. Total time logged: 0.5 hours (I have a long road ahead of me. However, a journey of a thousand li begins with a single step. I have taken that step and will not look back.) I may try tomorrow with my eyes open rather than blindfolded. Borne upon a wave and wind, boy Your sea will only ebb and flow
Guest applesauce99 July 11, 2012 July 11, 2012 Have fun, man, a tulpa is awesome thing. And remember to narrate after you got personality down...a lot of people say narration is most important for sentience.
The Wandering Seafarer July 11, 2012 Author July 11, 2012 Yeah, I have something of a general idea after reading many topics. I think I got too ahead of myself though, doing is one thing- but that means nothing if you can barely do it in the first place. I just need some practice and to get comfortable with it all. Borne upon a wave and wind, boy Your sea will only ebb and flow
Guest applesauce99 July 11, 2012 July 11, 2012 Just don't make my mistake: saying I'll tulpaforce at night, and then browsing the forums and falling asleep.
The Wandering Seafarer July 12, 2012 Author July 12, 2012 Day 2: Possibly Getting Better Today I tried to practice things like visualization (in general, not of my tulpa), and it is still quite difficult, but is possibly becoming clearer. I decided to take a different approach from yesterday, focusing less on what I "saw" and more on just my voice. I spent 30 minutes on another trait, just staring into the blackness of my eyelids, trying desperately to avoid outside thoughts. Overall, I'd call today an improvement over yesterday but I can improve much more and plan to do so. I would have forced for longer if I didn't have a paper due in the morning. Total time logged: 1.0 hours Borne upon a wave and wind, boy Your sea will only ebb and flow
Black Bane July 12, 2012 July 12, 2012 Try quarantining certain tasks for certain sessions.( I.E. personality one time, visualization another.) Also, visualise your wonderland as practice. get pretty constant before you do your tulpa. For Science!
The Wandering Seafarer July 19, 2012 Author July 19, 2012 Been nearly a week since I've updated here- I almost forgot about this. Nothing special happened over the past few days, just working more on personality. Lucid Acid's Pranayama meditation helped greatly though, today I got some good visualization compared to earlier and the session went by rather quickly. I'll keep this thread updated, just not with the ambition I showed earlier, I don't have the time. Borne upon a wave and wind, boy Your sea will only ebb and flow
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