Maat and Me

[Ignatz]

First of all i want to excuse my bad english. I hope its enough so anybody can read along :-)

 

I'm currently forcing on Maat since about two or three days. Mostly passive becouse i hadnt the time and energy for active forcing. And i have the fear that my Disbeliev will ruin all this.

 

But okey. lets start at the beginning.

 

How has all this started?

 

I heard from an friend of tulpas. I alreade did a lot in my past with hopnosys and lucid dreaming, so i had no problems with beliving in this.

I Thought a few days about it, and i already started passivly creating and forcing a tulpa. Not that i wanted to do so. I just cant get it out of my head...

 

So after a few days i was sure, i will make an tulpa.

 

I already read the Guide for tulpas from Kia.. something.. the white on black guide. I Think all of you know this ^^ if not, i will post it later.

 

So now i'm forcing passivly with narrotion, and want to force activly in my wonderland..

 

My big problem at the moment is, that i fear that my disbeliev will ruin all that... not that i dont believ in tulpas. i am 100% sure that this is possible, but somewhere deep in me is a bit desbeliev. i dont want it. but its there, and from day to day my fear grows that this disbeliev will deny me to make a tulpa...

 

I'm always saying me "i can do it, its a true thing"... but i cant get rid of this feeling..

 

so maybe some of you can help me a bit with that. did you had same problems? How did you get rid of it?

[Glow]

I Thought a few days about it, and i already started passivly creating and forcing a tulpa. Not that i wanted to do so. I just cant get it out of my head...

 

If you're anything like me, the only advice I can give you is: try not to overdo it. Creating a tulpa can (and should) be very exciting work, but don't forget that you two got a whole life up ahead. If you strain yourself too much in the beginning stages, you might end up exhausting your own mental capabilities and eventually lose interest.

 

I've seen people getting so worked up over questions that all boiled down to "this can't possibly be real", they completely missed out on all the fun aspects that come with every tulpa journey.

 

Just wait and see. Give your new companion a chance to grow and learn with you; and forget about those worries. There's no shame in being laid-back.

 

After all, what is there to lose?