Am I doing something wrong?

[Neon_Spark]

For a while now I have been using the JDBar method but instead of stopping about a month to let my tulpa do it's own thing, I have continued for a few months and I've had my doubts... I don't think my tulpa is developing properly, I haven't felt any signs of sentience as far as I know and I'm getting worried. I've been doing this for over a year and have been using different methods and have been having focusing problems.

 

What am I doing wrong?

[Linkzelda]

Maybe it’s not what you’re doing is wrong, because how people find assurances in their tulpa being sentient is dripping with circumstances. Maybe you just had a tendency to follow the methods militantly to where you reach a certain stage where they may suggest that you stop, and presumably in theory by the guides’ presumptions, that your tulpa would be able to express themselves more.

 

It reminds me of how people normally followed the hours count, and expected a certain threshold to be unlocked after devoting a certain period of time, except this time, you did things for months while trying find the fruits of your labor through expectations that guides seemed to have been your basis of validating your tulpa’s sentience. So even if you did a lot of methods throughout the course of those months, and even a few years, the focusing problem seems to be the one that’s maybe dependent on your mood. In other words, because you seem to be worried, and you can’t seem to find methods to satisfy your quest to see if they’re sentient in your perception, what you’re doing wrong is probably seeing if there’s an end-all be-all way of doing things.

 

It just depends on how much you want to continue that strive in treating them as sentient despite breakthroughs not coming periodically, or in expected stages because how your mind works may not resonate for someone else that may have wanted to follow a method you probably could’ve made in a guide. For me, I try to go for longer sessions, but that’s just for the sake of having fun, and to continually enjoy what’s going on in my imagination, but everyone’s different. It's me dodging your question most likely, but it's just one of those where I would think that you just gotta keep going through the motions, and get used to that periodical doubting that comes along, and maybe continue imagining a future where you will succeed with validating their sentience.