Me, Myself, and Skies

[Silent Skies]

I'd like to start by saying all this tulpa business in new to me and I'm feeling a bit overwhelmed, so I thought I'd start this thread to both organize my thoughts and get feedback from those of you with more experience with these kinds of things. That said, I guess I'll start at the beginning.

 

I only learned about tulpae last week, but the subject fascinated me so I kept researching a bit about them. Although the idea of having a tulpa appealed to me, I wasn't sure if I was ready to make such a potentially life-changing decision on such short notice, so I decided against trying to make one. HOWEVER, three days ago (I think; things have just happened so fast it seems) I found myself thinking, or daydreaming more like, about what kind of tulpa I might hypothetically create. This kinda led to me trying to mentally talk to the form I had in mind, and to my surprise there were a few answers that, while they still felt like MY thoughts, were a bit...off from what I expected. This carried on for a bit with varying success before I went to bed, unsure of whether I had been answering myself or actually talking with my tulpa. (During this I started calling him Skies. The name comes from my relatively new username because it was the first thing I thought of at such short notice. I figure if he wants he will pick a new name later.) I kept thinking of that advice "assume sentience from day one," but it seemed unlikely that anything would happen after only one night. I told myself I'd keep an open mind.

 

The next morning I tried engaging Skies again, but nothing really happened. I shrugged it off, but throughout the day I kept getting these random surges of emotion. Regardless of what I was already doing or thinking, I would get this strong clenching in my stomach and my throat like I was really nervous or guilty, but without actually feeling the related emotions. I tried asking if this was Skies, but I didn't notice a response. I was a bit shaken up by all of that, and later that day was when I made an account here. I pretty much decided that I wasn't willing to risk the chance of killing Skies if this all was him communicating, so I would just continue helping him grow. For the next few hours I tried better visualizing and...for lack of a better word, just spending time with and talking with Skies. (Is this still referred to as forcing? I'm a bit fuzzy on the meaning.) I wasn't noticing many responses, but I realized it was actually very easy for me to sense his presence in the room with me when I wished and that I thought (and still think) of him as an individual. I even tried to passively picture him around with me during the rest of the day, but I couldn't really keep it up when I would get into another activity like watching a movie with my family.

 

On day three (today: April 25) I had a few more sessions with Skies, including work on a wonderland, better visualization of his form and movement, and some basic personality forcing. Outside of these sessions I tried to narrate to him, but I kept either trailing off or losing myself in other tasks.

 

 

I know everyone says there is no one way to form a tulpa, but at this point I've really become attached to Skies and I already care a lot about him. I'm mainly afraid that I might be hindering his growth with poor techniques or unordered process, and I would love questions and feedback from you guys here to help sort it out. I'll try to keep this thread updated with whatever progress Skies and I make.

 

And seriously, any help is welcome.

[BlackForest]

I'm new to all of this, too.

 

I've learned that the progression thread really helps, so, keep with this. My tulpa is just a few days old, like yours, but I'm sure here we have this awesome community to help us.

 

Welcome!

[Elvode]

Don't worry about your techniques, spend time together and enjoy it, grow a strong friendship, there's probably millions of ways to create and develop a tulpa, do whatever your most comfortable with that way it's a lot easier. :)