Mind voice, thoughts or audible hallucinations

[Megm114]

Jakob is a year old now. We've worked a lot on his speech however I recently discovered that hve been forcing myself to hear an auditory voice from inside my head. After discovering that I have been doing this, I stopped. Now, sometimes, I'll think something and just -feel- as if he said it, or I'll think something to myself however I will refer to myself in third person and then stop and wonder if the thought came from him. I have also tried asking him a random maths question (e.g 32+28) which I could work out with a small amount of time, however ask them ti see their answer. A number popped into my head when I asked Jakob and the number was 1 off the correct answer. Is this hkm communicating with me? I don't know if I should believe that it is. And how do I hear him clearer or better? Are there any techniques I could do to hear him? And finally, how do you hear your tulpa, with your/their mind voice, or audicble hallucinations? Many thanks, ive been stuck on this for nearly a year

[Rengrin]

Fascinatingly, what I've noticed with my personal experiences Is that often times voices more directly connected with my self persona will often attempt to block out my children's attempts to talk with me. It could be possible that there is some sort of interference between yourself and your Tulpa when you attempt to communicate. I have the notion that learning how to quiet my own thoughts would greatly aid in communication. Something as simple as meditation for example.

[Megm114]

It could be possible that there is some sort of interference between yourself and your Tulpa when you attempt to communicate.

Thank you, I'll be sure to try that. Is there anything else you've tried to encourage them to speak?

[Chupi]

A number popping into your head is inconclusive, and this gets to be a major problem when pure thought is the only way your growing tulpa is able to communicate. I would ask how it compares to how you normally solve math problems, but that still doesn't rule out the possibility that you solved it yourself but subconsciously.

 

Pure thought can be really nice and convenient, but you need to get used to telling yours apart from his. This gets a lot easier when you have another way he can talk to you to so you can ask if a questionable thought was his, yours or a mix of the two.

 

There are a few things you can do to work on hearing him better:

• First and foremost, just force more. If you're not doing active/meditative forcing, try it. Getting yourself into a light to moderate trance can make tulpas a lot easier to hear.
  
• Choose a voice that fits him from some recorded audio or video. He can probably help choose; easiest method is present some choices and work out some semi-reliable thought or emotion signals with him for yes and no. Pick a short phrase to start with and listen to it over and over with him. (Use a media player with a "back some seconds" shortcut, or select the clip in Audacity and shift-click Play to loop it...) Then stop it and ask him to try to reproduce the phrase as best he can in that voice. Don't be discouraged if it's like a vague mental echo at first. When he gets better at that, try other phrases, then longer phrases, then things you make up and ask him to repeat, then answering questions in his own words with that voice.
  
• Similar idea but more freeform and without the reference recording. Ask him to say something, or if he's said something in his own words use that. Send back to him how you perceived his words, like a mental snapshot of the experience. Give him tips on what to work on improving about it -- deeper, higher, more oomph, etc.
  
• Or of course you can combine pieces of these based on what seems to work for you.
  

 

My tulpas use a mix of mindvoice and thought. Sometimes with thought I end up translating it into a just-slightly-different-from-my-own mindvoice depending on my own state of mind and how easy it is for me to "read" the thought without doing that.

 

By the way, when I was reading your post I gave your 32+28 to Lyra to see what she'd do. Instinctively I started doing it myself too the way I typically do mental addition, like 30+20 is 50, 2+8 is 10. It's simple and quick but during this I got a thought from Lyra, something like "move the 2 to the 28, 2 30s is 60" but the raw concept of it rather than words.