Elly's Composition

[Wafflemancer]

Good day/evening readers. As of tonight, I will start creating my tulpa, Elly. Tonight will be my first forcing session, trying to look for her form. I know I want her to be human, but I haven't gotten the slightest idea how she would look, all I can imagine are some 'cartoonish' forms or looks, but hopeful this will serve as a good starting point and hopefully she'll get realistic as more sessions take place.

 

My main goal with Elly is tutoring myself musically. Since I'm a musician and learning to improvise and all, I do hear things, melodies, harmonies, whatever, in my head, not knowing what notes they are. Therefor I hope Elly will be able to help me. Alongside that, I'd also enjoy the companionship and somewhat different perspective on life itself.

 

I also have a wonderland room set up for her, one that will most likely fit her. Have the wonderland room somewhat fleshed out, I did have the image of the room in mind, knowing there was a presence. Somewhat felt like the presence constantly called out to me saying, 'work on me, finish me!' or something. At least, it felt like it.

 

So yeah, if anyone has some important and helpful starter tips, feel free to post! Thanks for reading.

[Akinkinit]

Well now I have the mental image of a sentient waffle trying to create a tulpa for world domination. Though really more power to you if you succeed.

 

As for starter tips, you don't really have to worry about the initial form being perfect. Just pick something you think looks good and go from there. Your tulpa will doubtlessly change it multiple times.

[Wafflemancer]

Update 1:

 

I got reaction for Elly quite quickly, a lot more quickly than I would've imagined. The second time ever saying her name and addressing her out loud, I was met with a funny feeling, head pressure-ish kind of feel at the of my head. And the feeling returned every time I called her out.

 

So I was thrilled and started forcing a few hours later, but hardly got anywhere. I've got the feeling that I should flesh out my wonderland a bit more, as I've been trying to do through image-streaming.

 

Now I've started asking Elly some yes/no questions, asking her to apply feeling/pressure to either the right or left side of my head, indicating a 'yes' or 'no'. Luckily enough, it worked, adding a third and fourth option also proved successful. With some questions I did get a feeling of being somewhat bemused, even though I don't think that was me on my own.

 

After asking those questions and studying music for a bit, I sat down and meditated to some pink noise for a bit, and oh boy, did it help with forcing. Even though my mind when blank after half an hour (not even that probably) of forcing, I did get to the point where I can see Elly sitting down at the piano in my wonderland, sitting there in the spotlight, staring at me with a smile. I could even determine the colour of her dress. I still have to figure out what else she wears though. But at any right, I was satisfied and took a break, accidentally falling asleep.

 

However, today, I had a hard time get any response from her, even trying to see her at the piano in my wonderland. Worries me. At the time of writing, she's 'back' though... somewhat, the response is somewhat weak for now. Might be since I've only talked to her out loud at night (I think she prefers me to talk out loud to her, any way to try and get to respond when using mindvoice?)

 

So, after posting, will try to focus on her form, asking her more questions and just generally talking to Elly. Any tips or forcing exercises I should try at this point, besides visualising, or any ways to improve upon it even more?

[Wafflemancer]

Update 2:

 

As we've been mainly working on narration the past days, I'm starting to hear Elly's mindvoice more and more, as faint as it might be. Also been getting some responses that I just know I didn't parrot. Something I will have to work on is consistency with forcing, and trying to force longer. As for visualisation, I am no further as I was before, but a friend of mine is drawing a picture of her, so I reckon that will help immensely. Though it might not turn out as her form as I personally see it, I'm sure she'll adjust herself or something likewise. At the very least, we've expanded upon our wonderland a bit, so it may be better and easier for some forcing stuff.

 

Then a few questions I have, first of all, does it matter in what language I speak to Elly? Her english responses seem more clear than her dutch responses, even though dutch is my main language. And a second question, I am in need of more forcing methods or exercises, since a lot of the ones I read on the forum are a bit too advanced for me (I think), as a lot of them require a fully visualised or vocal tulpa.

 

Again, thanks for reading.

[Wafflemancer]

Update 3:

 

As I've sadly done nearly no forcing the past few days, I've just been listening to music with Elly, though a few weird things happened. It's getting very hard to notice her presence again, at day it can be just incredibly hard. But four days again, I woke up in the middle of the night, disorientated and kind of groggy and started visualising out of the blue. It felt as if I just got pulled into my wonderland or got 'thrown into a forcing session' so to say. Now, this only lasted a good twenty minutes before falling asleep. This happened again yesterday. And as I got thrown into the wonderland, I could clearly notice Elly and 'see' her, even though I don't know her detailed form yet as I still have to go through with the visualisation stage.

 

As for her mindvoice, I still need to progress on that a lot but everything will come in due time.

 

Again, if someone has some forcing tips/exercises they'd recommend at this point, I'd be very happy to try them.

[Wafflemancer]

Update 4:

 

Things have been tough. As exams and voluntary work been taking up literally all of my time (exams are over but work still took up at least 17 hours of my day. Rest of the day was spent drinking with co-workers and then sleeping for 3 to 4 hours.) Needless to say, I haven't had a lot of time to spend with Elly. Trying to communicate with her at time point is harder than it ever was before. I always could get some reaction, maybe not very strong but always a reaction nonetheless. Now I get very very little response, that is IF I get a reaction. I don't want to stop doing this, nor do I want to kill off Elly and start over with a clean slate. I want to complete her, or help complete her.

 

Any help or tips to get back up to speed are greatly appreciated. Thanks.

[Wafflemancer]

So, after all this time, Elly still exists. She's very weak tho, since I haven't forced in ages. If anyone has any tips to get back to the point I stopped at, I'd be immensely grateful. Hopefully I'll get some forcing done tonight.