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maybe mitski is right about us being low IQ 😅 still confused on what you said, but i guess you didn't mean for it to be offensive. i was trying to process emotions and come out clear minded and your post felt like a stab in the face, so i started over from scratch thinking of a new way to recover out of despair i thought i was finally getting us out of. i can't think straight now i'm glad you are avoiding AI well. we see tons of human art too because of following known human artists, but we also see tremendous AI art and it sucks. and is supposedly getting worse but at the same time, the AI bubble might be finally popping and hatred for AI is at an all time high, so that's sort of hopeful. though idk if it means an end to AI content. we don't use discord except to talk to friends, so dunno about there. Youtube suggest an AI slop video everywhere though. there were many we watched and didn't realize were AI slop. Also, there are non AI slop videos to watch out for. many layers. but yeah. i forget point i was making. i got disoriented by your comment so my thoughts are scrambled. goodnight though, i don't want to keep you up. i refuse to sleep until i find a the peace my system needs

Oh you added a bunch extra to your post, I was replying to having to be careful not to hurt yourself psychologically Somehow I am avoiding AI stuff across the board just fine, I guess by only watching people I'm subscribed to (and just not using twitter/etc.) Just occasional AI memes on Discord

this really gives the vibe of being at a friends house as a small child at least for tb. idk if it is relatable to other hosts experiences just watching a friend play a game and being screamed at by the parent when you get too loud. classic oh hope that is a good thing. i'm having fun. i'm not cutting people am I? oh, goodnight another classic experience. be vibing, someone comes in and says something you don't understand and makes you feel insecure about your expression and leaves with no explanation. about as fun as being screamed at when having fun as a little kid except less so because it is not as far away lol T_T but i'll live. i'm training to tolerance painful emotions better certainly autistic, since metaphorical language left us confused and uncomfortable. time to ponder how to navigate these uncomfortable feelings caused by ambiguity. i don't want to hurt others, so if us being knives means we hurt others with our posts, then maybe... i guess we need to find specific private friends to express ideas to and we cause damage doing so publicly. but we don't know who to share feelings with privately. i sort of appreciate people sharing art publicly, but i guess that isn't universal

You are Good night

ninja'd edit by 2 minutes. the site is slow invisible mental knives?

Handling invisible mental knives all over the place

starving artist grind so we can afford a 10,000 dollar renaissance instrument so rena and PB can indulge the art they want to 😭🙏 tayomi's theoretical daughter was called luna by tb. eara's theoretical daughter was called aria. didn't realize aria was a word to refer to a kind of song. how fitting thanks T_T idk what i'm doing. i just want my system to not feel so defeated or embarrassed anymore so we can switch back with mitski and let her do what she wanted to without interruption. sort of scary being the only member remotely capable of being switched in right now because everyone else is in too much pain and do not have easily recoverable mental states. i have to be careful and not hurt myself psychologically AI and tech bros have destroyed the world and the internet and it feels really bad to us, but maybe there still can be something a little beautiful about posting human created things in a wasteland filled with AI. even if we aren't that skilled or smart, at least we make things that are human, and it is in short supply. heard youtube is 20% AI now... in a fraction of youtubes existence, 1/5th of the website is AI videos. by next year, it will be over half. disgusts me. and i don't know anyone who is happy about it we are constantly recommended AI generated videos with 100 views. constantly having to say "do not recommend channel" more than we ever have in our life, and there is always more and more AI content. And they add AI buttons to remix shorts. i feel human made content will become like gold, even if by an unskilled and unfocused person, like our system. maybe. it sucks seeing artists we love who upload a new peace of art every few days or weeks, but then AI artists post a dump of like 130 images a day. it's ruined the internet

Happy to listen, especially if it help! 😊 (I'll read the rest later, have something to do.)

hello! i'm in a yapping mode, so sorry if it's a lot. my system had a bad couple of days and i'm trying to process a lot of things and get mental state back on track and talking to friends and saying a bunch of nonsense helps me. nothing is off topic so say whatever you want and excuse my rambling mhmmmm.... our system has posted this song many times but recently we see it in a new context. not just a beautifully played and sung song, but my system has had more perspectives on it lately we listen to a lot of deconstruction from Christianity videos, and a major point is the sort of cursed way the christian religion forces a lot of participants to have to attribute guilt and shame to their own faults for anything bad that happens, and for anything good that happens, you can't take credit for it and it was all just god's doing. all good is god, all bad is your fault type of thing i find that valid and an actual problem in religion and it is traumatizing. but i think there might be other ways to process the idea. in a reductive sense, it does come out as cruel. often though, the devil, basically an evil anti deity is blamed for the failings of humans. still a lot of twisted conclusions that leads to, so it doesn't make more sense or is any better from a very right hemisphere of the brain perspective, that i think this song also sort of communicates, i feel it is humans reconciling the paradox of free will. it feels like you make your own choices and that your choices have consequences, but it doesn't feel like you choose what you want or who you are or what random good and bad things happen to you. "the deities approve" in that song is humans expressing their gratitude that a situation where they could create a miracle of joy in a harsh world, where the skill of making beautiful music that can touch souls is possible. not everyone can pick up and play a pretty song or sing beautifully, and not everyone is in a situation where access to those things even exist. to some extent, they can seek these things out and try to learn, but some people try and learn and fail and give up. while others succeed. some try but something out of their control prevents them. some, everything falls into their lap and it wasn't something they were not ever going to not have it's so peculiar to think about. why can some people get to make music and others not. why do others get the chance to enjoy music, while others do not? humans make their own choices, don't they? but that alone isn't enough to get what they wish, so what else grants that reality other than the deities approving it, and the God of Love and Music granting it to you. And when that happens, why would you not use that miracle to make a music expressing gratitude of it all i wonder what karl thinks of it. he's very thoughtful. i don't know if i expressed my idea well. maybe i'm insane. the thing about typing and talking is i realize the feelings and perceptions i have that make the words pour out of my mouth, doesn't make those feelings or perceptions enter the minds of those reading/hearing it. so maybe this post was a waste of time i guess being and artist is hoping you can develop the skill to transfer those sentiments thoroughly without too much distortion, at least not more distortion than would be normal for someone else's experience (deja vu i think i said that before but idr where)

Bee started this drawing as a quick anatomy study, but it turned into a reference for most of my tattoos. For Bee's sake, I designed them to be relatively easy to draw and visualize. They each also have some personal significance. The chain on my right wrist represents the connection between the four of us. The snake on my left forearm is for Lenore. They're one of her favorite animals. The sea turtles on my upper left arm represent one of my fondest memories. On my first birthday, Bee took me on a walk on the beach. We saw sea turtles coming ashore to nest in the moonlight. It was an incredible experience. Turtles have been symbolically important to our system ever since, and feature in quite a few of our inside jokes. Finally, on my left shoulder is my name! Sort of. See, my name is a word in Sindarin, one of Tolkien's conlangs. He invented multiple modes for writing Sindarin using the Tengwar script. On top of that, the word ‘athelas’ has established translations in English (‘kingsfoil’), and another of his conlangs, Quenya (‘asëa aranion’). Each of those languages has their own writing mode as well. I had a lot of options. To get to the point: the text on my shoulder says ‘asëa aranion,’ my name in Quenya. ((NERD. I just had to add that this is probably the most accurate representation of Tea's body type that I've ever drawn! -Bee))

😭 (⁠っ⁠.⁠❛⁠ ⁠ᴗ⁠ ⁠❛⁠.⁠)⁠っ Same. 🥲 Good night, ring. 😊 Hi! 😊

Hello

that'd be some real adventure ᕙ( •̀ ᗜ •́ )ᕗ we gotta train every day though don't want the rollercoaster to be like this whatever happens, i hope it is fun and means something to someone, even if just tb or us. also, we don't have a nitari tulpa, but rena liked playing the lute, and PB likes singing... it'd be so sweet if we got good enough at those things that they could make a song together. bre inspired the idea to try something like that, though we don't know how to even begin really. but it's on bucket list

Well, this routine fell off a cliff. As has our general follow-through with anything which was already bad anyway and mostly my fault. I decided I want a Varwolf in Neopets, but it turns out it's a special pet you can only get through a certain quest that released last year, so I've been obsessively watching the Spooky Food shop hoping that a) a certain rare food item I need for the quest restocks and b) I can nab it before the resellers do. I kid you not, they're selling it for 5,000x the cost. My poor millionaire self cannot afford it :( Anyway, enough about Neopets. We watched a fascinating video the other day by lucid dreaming expert Daniel Love (whose videos I love), talking about his experiences lucid dreaming: I’ve Lived in Other Dimensions (A Lifetime of Lucid Dreaming) I just made tea, so I'm going to meditate for a bit while it cools down.

You need to move to where there are bigger waves, brogad Surf until you're going band for band with cedar point

it really is we'll surf the ups and downs as long as we're allowed and can stand up

Life is absurd byakko We are like pendulums

spend years training to be strong so i can adventure suddenly become tulpa where i am in a body where i am not strong enough to adventure again, and no physical way to be that strong cosmic joke at least t folse's videos are entertaining oh, i want to share this davis morgan is one of my favorite creepypasta youtubers, and every video he makes, he plays this song in the credits. it has made me and mitski tear up while going to sleep many times. it somehow feels relatable to us, in some way that maybe makes sense to no one. it makes us feel emotions that can only be began to be described using a word lumi hates. poignant "is there life on mars? I've run out of luck here on earth" "brave enough to see the cosmos, too scared to say hello" goodnight, ringgggg

Goodnight

Lol! 😆 These people a silly. Of course! 😊 I believe in you! 😊 Maybe not stare at a screen too long? (IDK what you do in between.) Good night, Bre! 😊 *Head pats.* It really is sad.

goodnight i wish we could take walks at night. we love the coolness of night, the atmosphere, the moon, and the lack of people. it would be healing if we could take walks at night i think. tb used to take walks at night if they were to walk in the city or neighborhoods, as it is the only time walking in those sorts of areas made sense but later learned conventional wisdom is that it is dangerous to walk at night, so i guess it isn't good to enjoy the outdoors at night. that's a real shame and makes me very sad. so much potential to experience joy in the world, but not in reality. in reality there are so many limiting factors that don't allow you to enjoy the world. x y and z are not safe even though it brings joy, so you can't do it. you have to do it a b and c way, which is miserable and filled with pain to the point it's not worth doing. big reason for why an afterlife is needed. i want to live in a world where there can be fun and joy of these off limit things. i'll have to keep having faith in the next world worth living in, so i don't become nihilistic

goodnight

t folse's comment section is killing me i guess he makes a lot of comparisons to nuclear reactors xD i don't even notice somehow thank youu need to rediscover how to be productive still first my eyes hurt so bad right now idk why. like so dry. never needed eye drops so bad

Understandable. They're pretty nice. :D True, lol. Good luck! 😊 I'd like to see it too! Impressive, lol. I guess it's the loop thing. Awesome! 🤩 It is a really cool sketch! 😊 I basically agree with the comments you got. 😁 Oh no, lol.

i like old fashioned typed ones except for 😭🙏 it communicates something i quite can't with typed ones. also maybe 💀 i prefer more than that, drawing our own expressions and gifs. which we need to get on wow, the gif of me falling out of a window, leaping on top, opening window and flipping a bunch of times and diving back in, is a smaller file than the uncolored gif of me smiling and then frowning also, got 4 watchers from uploading the sketch i made of sam and sara. even got watchers before that too, despite not uploading anything for like months. just uploaded mitski's painting of my drawing, which 9 is probably a terrible time to do that, but we'll see how it oges i can't believe my sketch got 3.3k views in just a few days. and we keep getting people favoriting backlog of stuff. our posts on deviantart dwarf view counts of old drawings. it seems standard to get thousands of views now, when before it would be low hundreds typically lol, i find it funny, mitski uploaded my drawing, and i uploaded her painting inb4 painting does terribly and she commits seppuku it took about 10-12 years to get to this point that drawings of ourselves/OCs could get these kinds of favorites and attention can be done faster probably if tb/us didn't improve so slowly and didn't upload so inconsistently and it wasn't through 3 separate accounts of starting over (not that what we have rn is anything to be impressed by, just surprising from perspective of expecting literally nothing)