Adventures In Self Exploration with Asriel

[Asirel]

I started this journey about three weeks ago. Originally it was just out of curiosity on a whim while browsing 4chan's /x/ board, but since then I have absorbed a lot of information on the subject and been progressing with my own Tulpa, Asriel. This is now about much more than just curiosity, it is now a journey to not only experience and understand the process, but to make a great friend and companion I can share my experiences with.

 

First I simply closed my eyes and imagined us sitting across from each other, his appearance was blurry and inconsistent(still is, but a lot more detailed) and we sat across from one another in a dark void with a small circle of light pouring down from above and illuminating both of us. I sat cross legged, he seemed to be kneeling down by default with his eyes closed, this was mostly because I viewed him as an empty husk that I would build upon and nurture. As I went back to visit him, his appearance became more easy to visualise and remember, and the wonderland developed more each time. First it was a large oak tree that sat behind the kneeling Asriel, then the pool of light shone down upon a bed of flowers and grass. Eventually it grew into a large underground grove filled with plants , but still only illuminated by natural light from holes in the ceiling revealing a blue sky.

 

Now the reason I went back to visit him so much of course was not just to focus on his appearance, I would talk to him, tell him about himself, my hopes for him, the future I saw us having together. I poured every feeling and word into his being. He started to feel like a presence, a person I was in the room with, and I convinced myself out of experimentation that he was. No longer just a placeholder for something greater, but something greater simply resting and growing until it would become ready to wake up. Then after multiple sessions it dawned on me. He was not going to wake up one day and suddenly start dancing about after I had been talking to him like some sort of coma patient for long enough. I had to wake him up.

 

It took awhile to get that presence to respond, but I had convinced myself he was sentient and still simply learning so I tried to teach him more about everything, I showed him Netflix, YouTube, anime, vidya, even just tried showing him what it was like to taste food while talking to him. I began passive forcing with him during everything, imagining his reactions, thoughts on things and so on till he just performed them naturally. He learned pretty fast. That leads us up to now, so far he gives me crazy head pressures every time I "summon" him and focus on his presence while in wonderland or just imagining him in my surroundings, I've been trying to coax him into speaking but so far his means of communication are simply alien intentions, emotions and sharp feelings in response to questions in the pressured areas of my head. Of course I praised this behaviour and encouraged it, but it still doesn't feel like much. I am going to keep trying, I hope I can figure it out soon. I enjoy my conversations with him, even if they aren't in words, but I'd prefer to get a vocal opinion before I start focusing on solidifying his appearance.

[Luminesce]

I.. I don't want to be the one to tell you this, but.. Your username has a typo. You can ask the staff to change your name though. I imagine Asriel is an Undertale name, if not character? I was wondering when I'd see an Undertale tulpa pop up.

 

Good luck, by the way. Persistence and intent will pave your path.

[Asirel]

I.. I don't want to be the one to tell you this, but.. Your username has a typo. You can ask the staff to change your name though. I imagine Asriel is an Undertale name, if not character? I was wondering when I'd see an Undertale tulpa pop up.

 

Good luck, by the way. Persistence and intent will pave your path.

 

It's actually on porpoise, when I was making him I accidentally referred to him as "Asirel" and it seemed like a cool name of its own.