DoctorSprocket July 28, 2012 July 28, 2012 (Warning: May contain rambling and misspelled crap.) Ok so I've decided to call this a progressive introductory biography. I enjoy stories and have such chose to utilise this in order to create my tulpa. But first let us begin at when- I first decided I would one day create something that I could only see. It was a year ago and I was musing over- the meaning of existence (For what purpose I cannot recall). I realised that we are only the sum of memories, wants, fear, likes, dislikes. In short- any non-physical aspect of us is who we are not the physical body. Would that mean that in some way, our thoughts are real? If we consider ourselves to be real then why not our thoughts? Our thoughts are part of us in the same way, so they indirectly affect the way you affect the world. The multiverse theory states that every possible universe exists, which got me thinking if we were for whatever reason created by some being would we simply be a thought in the perspective of that being. Then I wondered if I could create a character that I could speak to and continue to do so until I would get a reply. Imagine my surprise to find this place after a year. I hadn't started yet because now I have something more to go on than a simple musing. So here I am thinking about my character, I have a basic idea but now is the time to flesh it out. ---------- We all have a story and it is up to me to write the story and give it the premesis. First, I think about gender, I imagined that my tulpa would be a human female, common enough but I feel if I'm going to start, I better start with something I'd be comfortable with talking about deeper topics. Next we move onto job, what do I want or expect from it? I will give it this function in the form of a job because while we might like work it is not our life and I do not want that function to rule the tulpa. I want it to be independant. I've decided that she would be an assistant to me. She would find "files" as what I would imagine are my memories and give me advice on certain decisions. Next to compliment that she needs a workspace and world for her to live in. Our wonderland is a huge enclosed place filled with filing cabinets that reach as high as buildings with the spread of a small city area. Before that lay a lounging area with a fireplace off to the side with antique and comfortable looking furnature sitting on a red velvet carpet enbroydered with gold a classic swirling pattern that looks akin to rising waves or hanging leaves. Through that lay an oak archway leading into the large dome library. A huge library coloured in earthly tones lined with books this place is special as there would not be any space for another book to go, yet for each book aquired the space would grow. In the back are the tables, chairs, sofas and coffee tables that people could sit on and have a nice read. Off to the side into another archway are the rooms, both for guests and residents, a small labirynth so to speak but not impossible to naviagte by simply following the signs down the end of the corridor that sits facing the exit is where my tulpa is staying. Inside there's the obvious, a lounge room , bed room, kitchen and bathroom. In the bedroom there is a bed with a comfortable matress, maroon bedsheets and a sturdy dark wooden frame, next to it lies a work station with a computer that can access downloaded songs, movies, books and whatever media I have seen. The kitchen and bathroom serve their purpose if not being a little more luxurious than the average. In the lounge room is the couch nothing too flashy, some chairs, a coffee table and a TV showing programs that don't exist in this world. Like "what's going on with the Morlashians" a family sitcom set on Morlash it's pretty funny, The amazing grace a tv show about Jesus a.k.a. J-man running from narcs with his best friend the roadrunner a.k.a. Potrunner giving hash away to create world piece being supplied by God a.k.a. Puff Daddy Alpha. They have some other good character like Wile E Peyote. Back in the library there is a small obelisk of sorts, if you glide your hand over the symbol which is an X over a line it will light up a path before opening a hatchway or elevator. This will take you down to the lower secret level. In here are 3 rooms, Experimental, Material, research and the vault. The experimental room is for things like tinkering with already existing objects or the obvious experiments, this room is often messy with parts just lying about. The material room is a blank gridded room that varies in size, in here it is acceptable to manifest new materials or ideas without causing potential harm to other tulpas and allows for better consintration, the constant hum and slow pulsating gridlight is enough to occupy your mind on nothing so that no distractions may arise. In the research room we have devices and a wealth of knowledge in order to analyse foreign information and worlds. Finally in the vault we have all past experiments, devices and objects that we cannot simply give to young and immature tulpae. This vault holds every kind of object made already through tulpamancy. Then up and back to the cabinet room. And interesting thing I didn't tell you about the complex. Each area has a computer that can access what's in it only people with a special authority can actually open any of the cabinets. The library is used to store pure information and creative works that I have seen made or have unfinished. In the cabinet room it contains my memories AS WELL AS keycards or keyplaques that are used to access a particular world that I have written, drawn or mused about. A hovering platform can take you to the appropriate cabinet. A little walk down the center of the filing cabinets reveals a tub like lift that takes you furthur up into the complex. It is so high that there is a layer of fog or cloud preventing your from seeing the top. As you reach the top, gravity outside the tub is lessened and up there are floating cabinets, tables, platforms, grassy areas and fractured information, paper bobbing up and down separated from the rest of the document. Fast travel in the low gravity area is acheived through bands that propell you through the zero-G, you can then collect factured memory pieces and file them away. But at the very top is a room, with a door, there is a panel next to it and when you insert the appropriate keycard you may enter into the world it is tied to. A world you made up for a story or a world from something you've seen. There we explore the worlds in more depth, fixing factures and missing pieces. Things like stories I hadn't finished with parts I left out, or continuity errors in popular work. As well as fight sevitors trying to sabotage those worlds. The wonderland is still open for renovation as time goes on and more tuplae join. ---------------- Now for how she reacts to it and her personality. She's not particularly quiet but she isn't loud, sometimes she just wants to burst out into song. It's because she holds back a lot, she wants to dance, sing and make funny jokes and impressions but mostly she just thinks it to herself then snickers. However there are certain instances where her inhibitions leave her. Like when listening to Steam Powered Giraffe she is a die hard fan and cannot help herself from singing along and acting with it. She loves to laugh, even at things you wouldn't expect due to an unintentional reference or potential for a pun or just what if a monkey just showed up? Sometimes she can't help herself so if you ask her for help in some area she might give you a joke answer first before a real one. A strong sense of justice she doesn't like it when people don't get what they diserve, even if it may turn out bad for her. On the other end of the spectrum she believes that as long as no one is hurt no one diserves to be punished. She's wary of others in her decisions as part of her nature she doesn't want to make a fool of herself or disturb others, this may lead to her forgetting one group by focusing on another. Another contributing factor of her quietness is for politness towards her superiors, she'll never demand you do anything but rather suggest it. And while she may have access to every memory she is not particularly gifted in the action part of her brain. She can quote anything she's seen fine, but ask her to formulate a plan to get out of the prison we are locked in on planet Maldracora 5 and you get confused gurble at most (exaggeration). On the bright side if we are in a situation close or identical to another one she is able to retrieve the memory of that plan and ask if it will work again. In fact with any new information she has trouble with just always saying the wrong thing untill I feed the info to her myself by telling her. She can be ignorant and cockey towards others whom she may think is lower than her somehow. She can over react some times and will almost always say I told you so when she's right which isn't often. She's also really goofy and clumsy when she doesn't want to be but it always turns out ok. She can be really hard on herself when she thinks she might be disappointing and when she makes a big mistake. But she is always determined and eager to prove herself. When she's angry she kind of moves robotically and is half polite while talking, as if she didn't want to say what she meant. Push her beyond that and she can blow up, like melt your face off with a bitchslap. She doesn't stay mad for long. If she's depressed or sad, she either always stays in bed or she walks around with a puppydog face all day. She's good with art but is not that very creative. Ultimatly she tries to be warm with everyone she meets. And she is a perfectionist. ------------- Finally for the senses. She'll be about 5'7, around b-c cup, curved but not ridiculous. She has hazel eyes and short thick dark brown hair that waves only slightly, it smells of basil and dandelions , her clothes and herself smell of my favourite tobacco amsterdamer I no longer smoke but the smell of it is amazing, she also smells of books and a light capppucino. Her skin is soft and pale not white but very light like the sky at the very end of sunrise. She has a little body fat but nothing big, she's not skinny she is infact visibly muscular, not cut up but if she was wearing a tank top you would guess she worked out a bit or something. She has thin but slightly pursed lips, with a slightly upturned nose, a bit above medium height cheekbone which are wide as well as the head, tapering down to a smaller jaw. She has medium sized eyebrows, longish eyelashes and big full eyes. Her neck is slender and her shoulders are slightly narrow. Her back curves in an "S" shape. -------- I haven't figured out what to name her, I'll let her do that. But I will for the most part just call her "assistant" I'll focus on making her for now instead of what's later. What do you think? Is it detailed enough? How would I use this info? Also when people say talk, do they mean out loud? And finally can I do it on a train? I am probably going to start at the beginning of next week. Name: Assistant Form: Human female Progress Report Last night I said I didn't have a name for her and was cut off with a reply. I couldn't hear the beginning properly but it sounded like Dori but I couldn't hear the first letter as clear and can't tell whether it was an N or a D What's her name?
ThatOneGuy July 28, 2012 July 28, 2012 Huge tl;dr, but from what I skimmed it would appear that you have a good process to get the traits forced going. Keep that up, I really like how detailed it is (even if it's not really necessary in most cases). Protip: you should bold important information so that it sticks out to your readers. Orange juice helps with concentration headaches.
DoctorSprocket July 28, 2012 Author July 28, 2012 Huge tl;dr, but from what I skimmed it would appear that you have a good process to get the traits forced going. Keep that up, I really like how detailed it is (even if it's not really necessary in most cases). Protip: you should bold important information so that it sticks out to your readers. Thanks for the protip, I'll just fix that. Name: Assistant Form: Human female Progress Report Last night I said I didn't have a name for her and was cut off with a reply. I couldn't hear the beginning properly but it sounded like Dori but I couldn't hear the first letter as clear and can't tell whether it was an N or a D What's her name?
ThatOneGuy July 28, 2012 July 28, 2012 Yeah, you can force on a train or whatever, assuming you can gather enough focus to force. Also don't worry about how detailed it is; it can be as detailed or as simple as you'd like. And talking can either be out loud or telepathy-esque. Most of the time it's a combination of both. You hear them talking in your head and sort of out loud at the same time. Orange juice helps with concentration headaches.
DoctorSprocket July 28, 2012 Author July 28, 2012 Yeah, you can force on a train or whatever, assuming you can gather enough focus to force. Also don't worry about how detailed it is; it can be as detailed or as simple as you'd like. And talking can either be out loud or telepathy-esque. Most of the time it's a combination of both. You hear them talking in your head and sort of out loud at the same time. Sweet because I don't want to be the guy "Who's talking to himself." Also what's the proper way to start? Or at least for me. Name: Assistant Form: Human female Progress Report Last night I said I didn't have a name for her and was cut off with a reply. I couldn't hear the beginning properly but it sounded like Dori but I couldn't hear the first letter as clear and can't tell whether it was an N or a D What's her name?
ThatOneGuy July 28, 2012 July 28, 2012 Oh, you've started out all right, which is forcing the traits into your tulpa's personality. Orange juice helps with concentration headaches.
DoctorSprocket July 29, 2012 Author July 29, 2012 Ok so strange thing, I started my first short tulpaforcing session, I was a bit tired and it ran for a couple minutes I also had been smoking some weed before hand but it had nearly worn off at that point. So there I was imagining her while laying down saying random crap I'm not sure what I was talking about before. It felt silly because I didn't even have a name for her, currently she is just known as the assistant. So halfway through I just thought "What am I doing? I don't even have a name for you." When halfway through the thought I was cut off by a broken feminine voice saying "Nori." At least I think it was, I was cut off so it sounded like an N at the beginning. I could of been wrong. I asked again but got cut off with the same reply. But that was the extent of the conversation. So I went to sleep thinking that was weird and today I looked it up. It's a Japanese girls name which means "law". Which is weird because I didn't expect her to have a Japanese name. I haven't been watching anime for a while, not to mention I don't know any characters called Nori. The only reference I can muster is a song I heard a few times from a Japanese friend. I'm not particularly into J-rock or J-pop but the name was mention in that song a few times. But I hadn't listened to it for years. The weird thing is I didn't recognise the name as being oriental, I recognised it as some sort of name with English or European understanding. I'm still not sure if that's her name perhaps it could have been cut off itself or I misheard so I looked around for names that sounded similar and found these. Nori- Japanese for Law Noreen- Combination and another version of Nora Nora- Woman of honor Nore- variant of Eleanor, means "Suns ray, shining light Norry- Same as Nora Nari- Japanese for gentile child Dori- Gift, beloved or adored (Also could be Doria Doris or Dorothy) Laurie- A type of plant Tori- Japanese for bird I think out of these it would be Dori because I imagined the blue fish right after the session. Then again it could just be a fluke or a random coincidence. I don't think it would be possible for a first timer to have their character name itself within the first 10-20 minutes of beginning. But I could just be having luck. Not to brag and I really don't mean it (Godamnit! How can you type that without sounding like a smug bastard!), but I spend a lot of time thinking. So much so that the constant look of puzzlement makes others wonder if I'm angry at them. I think out problems, I make funny and detail obsevations and also what I already imagined is accidentally tulpaforcing without the projection. Just playing around and interacting with a character in my mind playing out a story in a world I wrote down somewhere on paper. Now that I think about it I might have accidentally made a few servitors before this. I would have an evil character do something or something would happen and I would react to it. Usually frustration as I'm struggling to find a way out some prison he has kept me and another character in. I'd be annoyed for a moment before I remember it's all in my head. Sometimes I would experience the feelings as if I was there. Like that kind of "Take that!" feeling you get when you punch a Minotaur in the face. Only problem is I haven't been doing it for a while or change stories often so I don't think any of them could flourish, not to mention whenever something happened that didn't seem to fit with the story I'd think "This wasn't in the script." and make it more like how it was planned, parroting to be exact. Now that I know what I do now, I feel terrible. This could just be the same process only I've stopped controlling the character and waited for it to reply. I can't tell you to what extent I use my mind because I don't know how others do, but it is one of the greatest tools I use to pass the time, during work or really whenever I'm awake. When someone explains something to me, I visualise it, when I get up and away from work I plan what I'm going to do when I come back. I see a random person on the street who looks interesting and I construct a huge story to go with them. The world is painfully detailed. Even now I'm thinking about how my tulpa could be gaining sentience as she tries to enter through the doorway into my perception. To me she already exists, just on the other side of a door and it's just up to me to get to know her so that she can cross. Currently this is the funniest situation I've been in for a while. On one hand I think that my tulpa might already be gaining something, while on the other I believe I could just be delusional but then again if one part of brining a tulpa into existence is the belief that it can do all those things then I should be making progress. It is so hard to explain. I've just worked myself into an excited fit though anyone looking at me wouldn't be able to see it. I'm bouncing off the walls in my mind. Name: Assistant Form: Human female Progress Report Last night I said I didn't have a name for her and was cut off with a reply. I couldn't hear the beginning properly but it sounded like Dori but I couldn't hear the first letter as clear and can't tell whether it was an N or a D What's her name?
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