Dipping a toe in the stream

[TMatherne]

So I started forcing last night. Decided to create a tulpamancy for the sake of a bit of companionship, but more importantly, as a life coach and assistant to keep myself on track.

 

The first night, I just got the form and such down, although outside of actual forcing, ive actually been working since Friday on getting the ideas on what I want out of my tulpa. I think that sped the process greatly. Starting from the first session, I've been getting emotional feedback, a bit of confusion and some curiosity as I explained to "Alan" what his purpose was for being called forth.

 

Tonight, during what is essentially the third session, I got a surprise. He talks! He's let me know "Alan" won't fly, he is Frankie. He also didn't like the conservative style clothes i put on him, and changed to shorts, sandals, and a polo shirt. He said that I'm looking to gain my own success doing things my own way, so I shouldn't be looking for a coach that fits the old molds. In his words, if you want to build a life like Richard Branson, take it from a guy who looks the part on how to get it done.

 

Accordingly, he's also walked me through the basics on what I should do to answer an email interview I'm being put through right now with a tech shop for remote work. He's suggested a few next steps that I can't ignore, because they're good.

 

He can't move, and talking to him outside of meditation doesn't happen yet, but I'm amazed by the amount of progress I've made. To be fair, I'm also a person with a metaphysical bent, and I've been working through meditation and astral travel for quite some time (24 years), so I think that's a huge part in the assist.

 

This is honestly exciting. I've never had something astral (yes, I subscribe to the metaphysical philosophy of this) work this quickly or potently.

[KarlYoshimura]

Welcome to the land of the living, Franklin. Nice of you two to stop by here.

 

If either of you need something particular, make a thread about it in questions and answers or shoot me a message.

 

Best wishes.

[Guest Anonymous]

That's great to hear.  Just do me a favor.  When, at some point in the future, you begin to doubt that your tulpa is "real," don't give up on your tulpa and leave the forum.  Whether or not your tulpa is actually real or a mental illusion is irrelevant.  All that matters is that to you, your tulpa is a person and important.  The practice of tulplamancy is really a cool experience and it is exciting.  Please don't ruin the ride, like I have seen so many others do, with excessive pointless worry about something that doesn't even matter.

[TMatherne]

Like I've said, 24 years of magic, lol. That's trained me in believing experience more that exterior logic.

[Guest Anonymous]

I have a tendency to really like the magick practitioners (if I am saying that right, maybe it is "magician?").  I have yet to meet anyone with a supernatural or spiritual view of tulpas who comes off as an elitist know-it-all.  Yet I have seen it many times in non-supernatural side.  Not to start drama with anyone I am just saying it. I speak my mind.  I think you guys are more open minded in general.  That is just my impression from a year and a half on this forum.  Twenty four years practicing has to have taught you a thing or two about how the mind works though!

[TMatherne]

It helps. I had the good fortune to come from a family that taught magic (Louisiana rootworkers), and then got disillusioned with the church, got involved with gnostic theology, the only thing happening there in New Orleans was Crowley's OTO, I was about 20 then. They were huge on training that you have to make sure you're not fooling yourself with the work. Imagination is powerful, but it isn't magick. So that training pays off on running everything through a bullshit filter until Occam's razor has no other answers.

[KarlYoshimura]

What conclusions did you draw from Gnosticism?

[TMatherne]

Well, I left the OTO after realizing they were full of the same egotistical crap as every other church I'd been to. Since then, I've read and practiced within the bounds of Valentinian, Sethian, and Hermetic gnostic traditions. The one thread moving through all of them from my POV? There is no separation. God lies within and without, as do our own souls. Clergy aren't needed, peace and contemplation is. Other than that, ask if you have any specific questions.

[KarlYoshimura]

What can you tell me about these several branches of Gnosticism?

 

While I do have a profound interest in the occult, I am not one to practise magic. If my studies have given me any inkling of who or what to avoid, it is Crowley and his ilk. Something went very wrong with him after he stepped outside of the circle during one of his experiments. Or rather, it forced apart the cracks and seams that surfaced during his childhood. As a history nut, I am intrigued with his experiments regarding the cabin in Italy, where he and his acolytes tried to eschew identity - one was punished when they used words like "I" or "myself" and shewn any sign of individuality.

 

Could you share your conception of what God is? Or rather, expound upon it? Does God have any relation to your adventures in sorcery?

[TMatherne]

Actually, what you quote about Crowley is largely propaganda, honestly, a lot of it originated from Crowley himself. The punishment about saying "I" is actually not something instituted against one by anyone other than the person themselves. In Crowley's original workings, to control your mind, voice, and thoughts, the idea was to choose a word very common to your speech. "I" is frequently cited as it is the most common English word. If you catch yourself saying it, you are to give yourself a sharp cut with a razor to the arms. Today, this practice is rarely followed, and in the OTO, it was recommended to me that if I wanted to try it, so something less drastic like snap a rubber band against my wrist.

 

As for the "magickal operations gone wrong", a lot of it boiled down the a double standard. At the time Crowley was writing about his magic practices, Victorian law dictated that you couldn't write about sex openly, and Crowley was a sex magician. To get around it, he couched innuendo in blasphemy. For instance, his famous claim in one of his writings to sacrifice a child, and later in the same text claiming to have, in one year, sacrificed as many as 100 children in the very rite... He was using "child sacrifice" as a euphemism for masturbation and/or homosexual union, acts that result in no chance of conception, thus the orgasm is sacrificed. Lots of the more lurid deets of his writing are similarly rather plebeian.

 

As for my own outlook on God, and how it relates to sorcery, it boils down to perceiving the monad as separate entities for the sake of easier comprehension. For instance, in Valentinus Gnosticism, the creation goes that God, true God, became self-aware, and created within himself different personalities, much like we do with tulpas, called Aeons. Some of these Aeons forgot their integration as part of God, and became the Archons. The most important Archon was the Demiurge, who decided he was God, and created the physical world we know. One of the other Archons remembered her fusion to the true God, and was dismayed at what happened, and came down to try to correct the mistake by awakening the emanations lost in physical creation to their divine birthright. This Aeon turned Archon turned Aeon is known as Sophia, or Wisdom. She was the tree in Eden, her shadow possessed the snake, awakened Eve, and caused the Fall, which is read in light of Gnostic cosmology as the moment man realized we are within a dream of a lesser God, the Demiurge, and must break free to reunite with the true God, beyond the Archons, within the Pleroma, or Fullness, or true Creation, which is a verb, and not a noun.

 

This is all very over simplified, boiling down into a couple of unseperated paragraphs what consists of several non-canonical biblical writings within the Nag Hamadi Scriptures, but it serves as a summary.

 

How it relates to tulpas, I think is readily apparent. How it relates to sorcery should be as well, it's the practice of Creation rather than the living in creation.