Trouble with Tulpae

[Anon_Ymous]

What you are about to read is my dilemma and everything I believe pertains to it.

 

I'm new to this site, if it wasn't already clear. I'm very interested in tulpae and want to create one myself, but I've run into a very troubling snag. I can't really explain it unless I go back to give some background.

 

Five years ago, I had moved to a completely new state and had no contact with anyone I knew. I was extremely lonely and wanted something to occupy myself with, so I started to develop a superhero I made up a while beforehand. I gave him a mindset, personality, everything that you would give a tulpae. I had no clue what a tulpae was at the time. I just thought I was rigorously developing a character. A few months after doing this, I started to get violent cold chills down my spine, which I wrote off as nothing. After I was very confident that I given him everything he need, with the exception of a definate form, I believed him to be finished. About a few weeks after that, I started to feel a mental pull and started to feel "torn." This continued to happen until I could nearly feel something like two different beings inside myself. The cold chills down my spine subsided, but my mind started to be at odds with itself and nearly ruined my life last year. A few days ago, I had read about tulpaes and wanted to create one. I tried to start, but halfway through personality, my mind refused to cooperate and stuttered. And now I've been feeling the same cold chills down my spine as before and having persistent headaches.

 

If you're still reading this, I would really like some help to find out why this seems to be happening. I would graciously appreciate any help given.

[GreenCore]

I tried to start, but halfway through personality, my mind refused to cooperate and stuttered.

 

Please explain what you mean by refuses to cooperate, Do you mean by it wondering and thinking of other things, If this is the case then try to get into more of a relaxed state and then start somewhat "daydreaming" about your tulpa until it sort of turns into a state of concentration. If you do this right your mind should keep from wondering, atleast until you get started

[Chupi]

Can you talk it over with your superhero guy? Do you have any way to communicate with him? He sounds exactly like a tulpa minus a few aspects you didn't develop yet.

[Guest Anonymous]

Seems like you half-way completed a tulpa, but failed to give it a form or consider it anything more than a fictional character, which would no doubt give your half-tulpa grief if it developed beyond a fictional character. If you plan on making the superhero your tulpa, I'd just work on narrating to him whenever possible and convincing yourself he's a sentient being. If you plan on making a tulpa of something else you need to completely forget about him or use one of the guides floating around for getting rid of a tulpa.

 

Otherwise you'll be stuck with some kind of mentally retarded fetus in your head that you perpetually feed only to have it try to destroy you from the inside out with it's infinite rage and hatred for you.

[Anon_Ymous]

Tonight, I feel reinvigored. I decided to talk to my partial tulpa. I apologized for not giving him what he needed, I might have cried a little, but in the end, I promised him that I wouldn't allow him to exist in this half-life he'd been living for dive years and that I would complete him to my fullest extent. Then it was if my mind was somewhat clearer and refreshed like it hadn't felt in forever. I have the feeling that he is the cause of it.

[Citizen Anon]

Tonight, I feel reinvigored. I decided to talk to my partial tulpa. I apologized for not giving him what he needed, I might have cried a little, but in the end, I promised him that I wouldn't allow him to exist in this half-life he'd been living for dive years and that I would complete him to my fullest extent. Then it was if my mind was somewhat clearer and refreshed like it hadn't felt in forever. I have the feeling that he is the cause of it.

 

Well then, congrats. Not only have you already gotten started creating a tulpa, but you're a good portion of the way done