im giving up

[Radio Hiss]

Maybe this is a conversation for PMs?

[Prochoros]

Maybe this is a conversation for PMs?

 

I wish he could just simply PM me and tell me what's wrong. But apparently he knows better... As he said "Helping is none of those things. I'm just not going to unignore you based on what I know about you." So yeah. I don't think he would PM me.

[tulpa001]

Well, given that this is a serious question:

 

Don't fall into the same trap I do, where I focus on the parts of the experience that provide really poor evidence of sentience and ignore the parts of the experience that provide really strong evidence for sentience.

 

Though I do agree. If you can't find solid evidence of sentience, then you may not have a tulpa. Possibly a good start on a tulpa, but without sentience, or a mind of their own, they are not persons.

 

If the experience is too difficult, you can stop. It is also possible to reinterpret the experience as entertainment, though some are not well situated to see it this way. It is also possible to adjust your schedule to force at more convenient, or peaceful times. It is also possible to stop and return later.

[revsophie]

My advice? Try a different way to do the work.

 

I write about mine. As in, 3 of my tulpas are from a novel I wrote. Not that I knew I was creating them at the time. But after sentience, I can't write about them without their input.

 

Another possibility is RP. If you do DND or Gurps you can make a character for them. Think of them as you play that character. Do things how you think they would do.

 

If you visualize your wonderland, bring them with you and monologue whatever you're thinking to them.

 

Teach them to cook.

 

But it sounds like you're not entirely happy with your tulpa. So I'll give you the other side of my advice. Try to break the mess of emotions and such down. Where do they come from? Why are you displeased. Is it their fault or yours.

 

Could you relax your expectations, can you deal with them growing with you and changing themselves.

 

My reasons for tulpas is a lot to do with dealing with trauma for me. I've a lot of it. They're there and they have my back. Even after the things I've done.

 

But, let's say I'm talking out of my ass for a moment, and introspection won't change a thing.

 

Take responsibility for your actions and do it. And do it right. If you're going to kill them, make sure you completely remove them with no trace left. Spare parts are a good way to end up with a surprise tulpa.

 

Or there's cryo, or storage. It's an inactive state that minimizes damage over time. I use cryo because we're all SciFi fans.

 

I've had 3 tulpas survive 20 years of shit because I put them in cryo. They wouldn't have made it otherwise. They've seen better days, but we're getting back to health.

 

I wish you the best.