having trouble

[Paranoia]

I'm sorry to bother everyone and I will try to make a long story short but I am horrendously bad at putting my thoughts into understandable sentences and I beg that you try to bear with me through what some might consider disconnected ramblings.

 

What I had originally intended my tulpa to look like would have been something along these lines

here

 

However when I had started, I justified that although it was a humanized version of a character I would not put pressure on being the same, maybe similar, but not the same. As time went on and I finished personality I began to question if I had made the smartest choice. I don't want a friend to be conflicted by identity crisis and suffer as a result. I agreed that I would definitely change her name and I would find another form as well. The problem is now I can't choose because what I had originally intended is what I feel exemplifies and what I most associate the traits I gave her.

 

I chose another form but it wasn't the same. I can no longer imagine the playfulness, the silliness, and the same level of exuberance that I had previously. I just don't feel the connection I had before.

 

You could probably call this straight stubbornness and I would understand but I don't think I could make a tulpa if its not Pinkie Pie. She makes me happy on a level a tulpa shouldn't be able to but the last thing I would want is for her to suffer from an identity crisis.

 

Now I want honest opinions, am I a lost cause at this point? Am I just being silly? Or is there any general advice that you all may have?

 

 

You might not believe it but it took an hour and a half of organizing my thoughts before I was finally satisfied with how I was conveying my thoughts. Quite literally, just staring at this post, writing, erasing, rewriting and staring some more xD

[QB2]

Relax. What you were going with seems fine.

A humanized version who can pick her own name and is under no pressure to be that similar... you're in the clear.

Just do what you want.

 

Even if it does end up "too close", which seems unlikely at this point... QB's pretty annoyed that another version of him exists in the media, sometimes, but not at the level of 'identity crisis'. I highly doubt many tulpas would hold a grudge or go into depression about it.

[Pronas]

If you make it clear to your tulpa that she doesn't need to be a carbon copy of pinkie pie, she won't get identity crisis. You also shouldn't worry about this, if you make a tulpa with good feelings in mind, it will also have good feelings in mind, meaning it will always want the best for you. If you feel happy with the way pinkie pie acts, you can be sure your tulpa will be as happy and as fun as the actual character, while not feeling obliged to BECOME the character.

[justanotherguest]

As long as you don't confuse identity of your tulpa she won't have any identity crisis. Stop messing your tulpa and making excuses that such actions were necessary. You are creating identity crisis right now by your own actions so go back and apologize. In most cases it is not tulpa having problem, it is tulpamancer mistaking his problem for tulpa's.

I just don't feel the connection I had before. <= Why are you still doing it? Why?

[Dreamless Window]

I think I understand what you are going through. Firs of all, and this is something you will hear in every question about tulpae, if you feel it's wrong, then it's wrong, but maybe it's right for someone else. For example, there was a link somewhere in the page that talked about people who had something very similar to tulpae, but they thought it was God (i.e.: they imposed God). And obviously, God didn't have any identity crisis. So it's all up to your believe system (another example is how we always thought that parroting was bad. Now some people started saying it isn't, but most of us can't even try it since it's already too deep in our belive system that it will cause problems). So, you can do whatever you feel it's right (you can even let her choose).

 

Edit: This is the link I talked about.

http://news.stanford.edu/news/2012/april/conversations-with-god-041212.html

[Paranoia]

Thank you everyone it helps a lot more than you think to hear these things. If you couldn't guess by my name I have a little bit of a problem hahaha.

 

@Justanotherguest

I said it that it was me having the problems I thought? Its okay now.

[Guest]

You're just being silly.

 

Simple tip: relax.