The Guy With The Progress Report, Now Featuring Katarina's Corner

[theguywiththeface]

Day 92, wk 13

 

A bit late on this one but life happens. Not the smoothest of weeks, but I guess I've got it coming after two easy weeks. We're still practicing with other forms and I'm paying more attention to giving Katarina a separate voice. its not the most consistent but its getting much easier to distinguish somewhat iffy thoughts. The internal voice I sort of built her off of is still there so I still occasionally get the two of them crossed but now that I'm paying more attention to her voice its gotten a bit better.  We had a couple of arguments again. I'd like to blame fatigue but it was well deserved on my part. Katarina has been frustrated that I don't take her advice to heart enough. I've been letting my laziness get out of hand lately. maybe its just the shutdowns getting to me and just been more cooped up than usual, but I've always been somewhat lazy. I'm going to do better with that for both our sakes.  Katarina is ambitious and I want her to feel like I respect her and I want her to be proud of me. I need to stop just promising to do better. I need to actually improve. maybe this week I'll focus more on myself. It always feels easier putting effort outward than in. 

 

Skills Progress

1. Dedication: I've been going Kat more thought time lately

2. Narrating: Still going strong, voice training is progressing and she's more recognizable among other thoughts

3. Visualizing: Kat is still playing with more humanized forms

4. Passive Consideration: She's still popping in to chat on a regular basis which has done wonders. I'm getting back into the habit of carrying her with me again which she enjoys

Tulpa Name: Katarina                        Tulpa (Main) Form: Red Fox             Wonderland: NA

Latest Milestone: developing sense of self

Vocal: Yes!           Moving: Strong when visualizing            Sentience/Personality: YES!           imposition: No                  Switching: No

 

Katarina's Corner:

Like he said, I'm getting more than a little fed up with the dynamic right now. it gets really old really fast giving advice, being told I'm right, and then still being ignored. I get self improvement isn't easy but still. His laziness is worse than ever and this shit needs to stop. I know he's sorry and I know he wants to improve but goddamn am I sick of hearing that ever damn day. I don't want to rant too much and get too personal but yeah, maybe a week or so of self focus would be a good idea. 

In more positive news. I am liking having a distinct voice again. We tried to establish one earlier in the progress but it didn't really stick and got overshadowed. Still working on the right balance. not much else to say, here's hoping for a better one next week.

-Katarina

 

 

-TheGuyWithTheFace