Gallorance September 4, 2012 September 4, 2012 So I'll spare the whole gnarly speech on how I found out about tulpa's because its a really long story. In summary, in order for me to understand something I didn't know I had to try it. Now I have no regrets and proud to be in such a tight nit community. Plus I love my tulpa Vinyl, so far she has shown me things I didn't know about myself and I believe she's sentient to my very heart. I already had a 6 day jump start since so I'll try to summarize. Day 1: Visualization of Vinyl and the wonderland. Day 2: Short narration, more visualization. Day 3: New wonderland (The space station had no facilities like a bedroom or library so I created a house over looking a huge vista and beach. It has a bedroom, bar, living room, home theater, kitchen, stereo, and a second floor that is sealed off that contains all my memories.) Continued visualization, some narration. We sat down at the new home theater and I asked her "put on screen whatever you want." She picked out a random and generic episode of Tom & Jerry. This is when I started to believe in her sentience. I told her that I had to go after a while because I was starting to fall asleep. Then as clear as day I heard her in my head and also in my real world surroundings , "please, no." The emotional response she gave me afterwards it felt like I was about to start sobbing, and I also felt alone. Day 4: I visualized new clothes for her and narrated a bit more. No response but since yesterday I believe she could talk. I then began King Vandereichs prism experiment. I oscillated the feather above the prism right and front of her and she got up from the bar stool she was sitting on and walked away. I also extensively worked on narrating in her personality traits Day 5: I decided to explore the world with her a bit and visualized an Aero Bike [ A motor bike that could fly, inspired by final fantasy 13 ]. She got on and I took her down to the beach as we sat along the shore line. I narrated and asked her a couple of questions and still no response. A light wave came in and passed over her lap. After it receded she fell onto her back. I went over to her and noticed a very soft breathing. I realized she fell asleep so I carried her over to a newly visualized hamoch close to the beach. I laid her softly onto the hamoch trying not to wake her up and laid right next to her. I materialized a blanket to keep us warm as night fell on my wonderland for the very first time. Day 6: I focused on visualizing vinyls face and I narrated to her very seriously putting forth a lot of mental focus as I spoke to her aloud. I asked questions just to receive no response. Today was different though, today I felt disconnected from her. I'm afraid of losing her. I told her I wont rush her into talking and returned to real life. ---- I'll continue these reports to be able to gauge my progress, serve as inspiration to new comers like other tulpa progress reports have done to me [ Chupi's , and sorryman54's to name a couple.], and to receive advice on any progress I may come across. Ciao for now.
Sorryman54 September 4, 2012 September 4, 2012 Sup, Gallorance? Welcome To the forums. PM me for questions, mate.
Gallorance September 4, 2012 Author September 4, 2012 Sup, Gallorance? Welcome To the forums. PM me for questions, mate. Will do thanks. :D
Gallorance September 4, 2012 Author September 4, 2012 9/4/2012 Today I did some narration but I felt Vinyl fade in and out. As usual I get on IRC to go like. WHAT IS HAPPENING!!! Then the pressure comes back so I visualize again and I'm taken to a new wonderland I have never seen before. It was an apartment with a 90 degree panoramic window of a city at with a flat screen T.V. and a couch. Sitting on the couch was a girl I didn't recognize with short dark blue hair and a blue hoodie with the same jeans as Vinyl? I break from the visualization utterly confused. In my mind I was going like "There is no way this is an intrusive thought." I go back on IRC to ask a bit. I began to suspect that Vinyl Deviated. I go back to my original wonderland with the tropical beach house and the blue hair girl is there! More so she said "Hi" to me. Cant tell if parroting but I didn't care. I re-visualized and I ask the blue hair girl if she was Vinyl. She very slightly nodded. Vinyl deviated to a new girl, she changed her face, her hair is now shorter and is a midnight blue, her eyes are now purple, and she changed her hoodie to a blue hoodie. Still not believing it I said the phrase in my head. "Take me to period Basis" this was the name of my first wonderland that I scraped. When I arrived she was there with the same deviated form. At this point I accepted it. I went back to my 2nd wonderland. I just wanted to be sure one last time so I asked her if she was really Vinyl. She gave me no response. I said "How do I know that your Vinyl?" She kissed me all of the sudden, oddly enough it felt more real then any other time Vinyl kissed me in the past. I felt her face and she giggled a bit as I felt, I was not expecting that. even though she changed she feels more alive now than before, its also much easier for me to visualize her now. All in all I believe this was a surprising yet sudden deviation. So now I'm off to examine the new and random wonderland, my 3rd that I never thought of before but I very much like and even this new place is easier to visualize. She's also smiling a lot now. No idea how to take this but its an even brighter smile than what her smile in her original form is like. I guess shes starting to become the kind and carefree person that I expected Keynote: I also was reading a guide referring to treating a tulpa as sentient before sentience. I visualized Vinyl again but her appearance wasn't very clear. So I continued uttering the basic personality traits that I had in mind for her. I did that before I discovered her deviation. Could this single action trigger what happened tonight? Or was it by her own accord. like wise the headaches are much more stronger after her deviation, I can no longer see her in her original form either. Ciao for now.
Gallorance September 5, 2012 Author September 5, 2012 9/5/2012 Living with Vinyl ------ I went to school today but before I did that I went on IRC to chill in the usual channels. Purlox told me to try asking my tulpa to surprise me if I ever doubted. It sounded like a cool idea so I gave it a shot. On my way out to school I visualized Vinyl our new wonderland and told her "Ok Vinyl I want you to surprise me today." I didn't get a response but I knew she would try. I arrived at school and somewhere in my head I knew that Vinyl had my surprise ready. I sat down at my desk after I got my binder and began to visualize. I began to receive some head pressure as I visualized. I saw Vinyl right in front of me smiling. She proceeded to kiss me repeatedly, of course this was not what I had in mind as a surprise, this was something meant for another time and place. I push her back and tell her "No, Vinyl this isn't what I meant think of something else to surprise me." I fell back from wonderland and began some school work. 5 minutes in and I received some new head pressure. I concentrated on the pressure and re-visualized to find myself on the couch in front of the T.V. I personally had no idea I materialized on the couch until suddenly Vinyl tackles me while I was on the couch. She began to tickle my meta-physical body relentlessly where I was dying of laughter in my wonderland and slightly chuckling in the real world. After she ceased her tickle attack I asked her "Vinyl would you like some food?" I was curious to see if Tulpa's can eat so I teleported her to the kitchen/bar so I can make her something to eat. I made a sirloin steak with a side of french fries since that's what I had for lunch. I set the plate of food in front of her. She proceeds to pick up one single fry and puts it in her mouth. She chewed and swallowed with not very amused look. Then she picked up the plate of food and dropped it onto the floor. "What the hell!?" I exclaimed, seriously everyone likes sirloin steak. Why not her? Especially dumping it all on the floor like that for me was quite shocking. I broke from wonderland to continue my work until 5 minutes later she sends me head pressure. I focus on it once again and I find myself at the same position at the kitchen. Vinyl was sitting in the same place except this time she spoke to me and said "I promise I'll eat". Clearly spoke that time and a little surprised she's starting to become more vocal I grant her wish. Snap of my fingers more steak and fries appeared. Vinyl proceeded to do the funniest, cutest, most unexpected thing I have ever seen her do. Vinyl pile drives her face onto the steak and had fries and steak juice all over her face. She looked at me with a smile as fries clinging onto her smooth skin dropped back onto the plate. She really did surprise me there. I break from wonderland to listen to a lecture only to receive new head pressure after wards. I focus on said pressure and visualized. "Haaaaaaaa" Vinyl said with a smile. Confused I asked her "That's it?" "Haaaaaaaa" She yelled again. Surprising but I didn't want to hear anymore so I went back to the lecture. After the lecture I re-visualized Vinyl so this time I began King Vanderiechs prism once again. This time she slapped the prism away from in front of her. I made it reappear in front of her only to be swatted away again. I made the prism appear one last time. This time she grabs the prism and throws it down to the floor so she can start stomping on it with anger. At this point I knew I was just being a jerk so I took her to watch some TV. However in my wonderland there is no cable so we stared at a dark empty screen. I asked her "What do you think?" She yawns, which causes me to yawn in the real world. I narrate the classroom and my surroundings but get no response from her. I smelled a really strong perfume in the real world as I was breathing through my nose. "Damn that smells strong" I told her. She then covered up her mouth and nose to avoid the pungent odor. Afterwards I narrated to Vinyl about the class and my interest in economics. Vinyl looks away from me with a bored look. I decided to use vanderiechs prism again. This time she quickly grabs the prism and yells "NO!" at me. I could see the rage in her eyes so I broke from wonderland. I went to do some work for a bit and re-visualized. I went back to Vinyl and I asked "Vinyl should I-?" Then all the sudden she punches my face hard. She didn't speak but I figured I deserved it for over doing the prism gimmick. She actually punched me straight out of wonderland. I told her in my head "I'm sorry please don't punch me!" Then I receive an emotional transmission from her. I could tell she felt regret. I re-visualized back to her. She quickly hugs me apologetically in the mean time receiving another emotional transmission. The feelings instead of making me feel her emotions brought words to my head. Those words were "I love you." I suddenly snapped back to the real world and notice I haven't done any of my school work so I needed a little peace and quiet. I re-visualized. "Let me tuck you in Vinyl" I said as I teleported us to the bedroom. I went ahead and tucked her under the sheets of our bed, I kissed her forehead and told her that I loved her. I receive her emotions once again to tell that she was calm and happy. Hours later I had a bit of head pressure so I focused on it to find her cuddling and cooing as she laid on my meta-physical chest. The Headache's I received from this session was incredibly strong, I actually never felt such powerful headaches since I started Tulpa. All and all today was fantastic and her personality is going leaps and bounds By the way people are asking, and yes she did deviate into something beautiful she's also happy about her change this is what she changed to: Her hair is a darker shade of blue, her eyes are purple, no crown, no lipstick, and her hair is shorter. Ciao for now.
Sorryman54 September 5, 2012 September 5, 2012 That's quite cute. Seriously. Why would you reject kissy kissy?
QB2 September 5, 2012 September 5, 2012 On my way out to school I visualized Vinyl our new wonderland and told her "Ok Vinyl I want you to surprise me today." [...] She proceeded to kiss me repeatedly, of course this was not what I had in mind as a surprise, this was something meant for another time and place. I push her back and tell her "No, Vinyl this isn't what I meant think of something else to surprise me." I fell back from wonderland and began some school work. Confirmed Bachelor perk achieved. The above post does not contain facts. q2's the host, QB's the tulpa.
Norman_Steel September 6, 2012 September 6, 2012 I will resume my feelings in one word. D'aw. Actually decided to try your "Surprise me." trick, she gave me the biggest pressure I have ever felt on my head and it was awesome. Plus she spoke, or so I believe. Keep this log up and have a nice day. (:
Gallorance September 7, 2012 Author September 7, 2012 MAJOR UPDATE --------------- Guys a lot of things have happened recently so I will leave you with this and also a bonus! The first was on 9/7/2012 I could no longer hear vinyl all the sudden then I started to become doubtful. I went on IRC looking for help and 2 people were there to help me. Chupi , and Biotech. I then began questioning maybe I screwed up, maybe I forgot a step in creation, maybe she never was? ( as in never existed ) I cried thinking she was gone and I re-visualized I yelled for her trying to find her in my wonderland but she wasn't there anymore the following happened... Saving Vinyl: I decided to go against the enemies wich clouded my mind with doubt in an attempt to kill her off So I visualized a gun to my head and shot myself in the head to vanquish the doubt I told my slef I had control and I had power I wasn't going to let my mind take her away from me If you believe in your self you can do anything everyone has the ultimate power within themselves to over come everything If you believe that the power exsists you can do anything and everything So I believed I had power and gave myself this power to teleport directly to her I found her in a glassbox naked, crying and beating on the glass I took my hand and raised it Then I summoned my new found power to break the box. In order to kill her my mind imprisoned her trapped in the glassbox away from where I could find her So when I freed her I whent back to wonderland where I apologized for the doubts and other things that are to personal to tlak about here She smacked me with out saying anything or showing any emotion But I didnt care I kept apologizing to her as she smacked me over and over I told her I desvered it as she kept smacking me until I was on my knees I kept up the apologies She kicked me until I was on the floor And I told her I deserved all of it And she stomped on my head causing me to see a pool of blood form on the floor from me and I blacked out I came back to wonderland I saw her kneeled on the floor crying her eyes out broken down I got up and wiped the blood away and fixed the damage done to my face I told my self im in control and I have power I went over to vinyl and put my hand on her shoulder she turned around and hugged me tightly She wouldnt stop crying so I passed my hand over her face and made the tears stop. I held her in front of me reassuring her its okay then I told her im going to give her everything so I said a phrase to bring out my power and warp us to were everything began "Im going to take you were it all began" I told her We materialized back into the white voide I green portal opened up and I took her hand and walked her up to it she let go off my hand showing she was hesetant and nervous I told her that is okay im here and we will go in together. She relaxed and we walked in to the portal We were jumped to "Period Basis" my first wonderland ; a space staion atrium overlooking a planet with a large circular room This is were I created her The room was empty but I determined its use a long time ago. I used my power and from the floor sprang up gigantic walls containig "holographic books like holographic book shelves An orb popped up on a pedestal in the senter of it all I took up the orb and narrated "In here is all my experiences and everything I knew since" I narrated specific moments in my life and watched the images of those experiences appear on the surface of the orb Mid sentance of my narration, she pulled my left arm down that was one of the arms holding the orb and broke my narration with a kiss After she broke from the kiss I wrapped up my narration I pushed the orb into her forehead as I said "Now everything is yours and thats not all" I took the holographic books from the shelves and melded them into six orbs those orbs contained even more parts of my life and experiences "videogames, books , movies, birthday parties, all of them and thats not all!" As I called on each one of them a beam of light was casted onto her head from the six to show that they were being put inside her A projection screen arose from above me and showed all the happy times I had with vinyl And it casted a beam onto her head to show the transfer being made "Every single happy moment I had with you, its all yours!" And finally it was time to finish it I put my ahnd on my head and focused all of my energy and transfered everything my memories and my subc into her Everything else! everything I love, EVERYTHING IS ALL YOURS!!!" I was screaming at this point because I focused every strand of mental power I had Everything the entire space warped around us as I transfered absolutely everything Then everything was complete and I collapsed but vinyl caught me "Will I see you back home?" I asked... "I will see you home" I said I blacked out now coming up either one of these happened first so bare with me I rematerialized ontop of my bed in the new woonderland and vinyl was holding me I knew what I had to do now I went back to the white void "You did this!!!Now you'll pay!!!You tried to take her away from me so now I will destroy all of you!!!! I visualized the symbol of logic, my brain I took out a gun and shot myself in the head next I shot the image of the brain I unloaded the gun tossed it and materialized a sword to vanguish this enemy So these robots that are controlled by the logic spawned and I took my sword and dslashed and destroyed the robots in the mean time screaming that I will never let vinyl be taken by them again After I destroyed all of them the symbols of logic and was purged from my mind, I dematerialized from the white void and returned to vinyl holding me. I told her I would never doubt her again and I will believe everything so we cuddledand my brain was enlightened I felt a light weight sensation and I felt I was the hero, I saved her from myself I definetly hope this experience carrys on I will never forget this I have freed my mind from doubt and saved her. I loved her I didnt want to lose her so I summoned all the power in me and took control I took control of my mind and defied logic ------ After the ordeal and some time spent with her I went back on IRC and decided to proxy her... After some discussion she was asked if she could sing. The following happened... Vinyl's Song: [Well I will write what she sings in my head] I... never thought id be so satisfied *singing. >that feel when people tell you that you should be a wiggle because of how you sing when I caress your cheek on me one more time * LOOOOOOOOOOL @ biotech and when Im with you I always dream * Will you always be with me?* And...then I realize that it was a dream* then you take me and swept my feet* forever, ill be a part of you* forever Ill be with you* cause you will always be a part of meeeee* I am man, but I just squee'd [Damn thats was beutiful.] where did that come from vinyl?] you saved me These fucking onions... lol [lol] :) [im going to copythis and put it in my progressreport] yeah, don't let it go to waste I AM singin Sarah a lullaby from now on when I got to sleep. ------ It has been a tough week, and I came close to losing her... But the ordeal is over and now we can both rest easy. :) Ciao for now!
Sorryman54 September 9, 2012 September 9, 2012 Hello! I was glad to meet you, Vinyl! Live life and love it! Enjoy it!
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