spood and maddie going hyperspeed

[spood]

So, a few days ago I decided I would finally make a tulpa. Now, I've known about them since this site was started but I never really had to motivation to actually work on it since at the time everyone thought that 50 hours was fast for a tulpa to become vocal and that anything before that was puppeting etc. Well I decided to check this place out again and because of all the new info and everything I was able to create my tulpa in only a few days. Now of course, she's not fully sentient (though she thinks she is but she has a good amount of stuff ahead of her still I think) but she is vocal and even was talking with everyone at #tulpa.info on IRC.

 

Now detailed stuffs

 

So day one, Sunday. This is when I first decided "I'm going to actually make a tulpa finally damn it!" So I thought of a few basic things. First of all, I thought of my tulpa's basic form. I based her off of a girl that I used to know but it was only a base, not restrictive at all.

I also decided/designed my wonderland. I pretty much based it off of this: http://up.neutek.net/di-9130513210913.jpg In fact that's exactly what it looks like almost. I had Maddie's form lay down in a couch naked. Now I must admit I had a boner at first but I just tried to ignore all sexual thoughts as they would only slow progress and make us uncomfortable. I started just narrating to Maddie and it felt kind of fun because I just knew it would work this time. I just told her about my day and stuff for about an hour than I went to bed. While I was doing so, I had some intense problems, mainly intrusive thoughts that made Maddie's body flail around. I finally got control with some concentration and continued the session and like I already said, did so for an hour.

 

day 2

 

Sunday I looked up a lot of stuff about tuppers and guides and things and chatted some too. I did force a bit in the morning for maybe 20-30 minutes with just narration. Honestly I don't think much happened that day

 

day 3

 

Monday I had to go to the beach with some family friends and stuff which I was irritated at since I wouldn't have any time to force with Maddie. As it turned out I got a short but great session on the beach which was great since I could really easily visualize myself in the wonderland with Maddie. Again, just basic narration and all, told her how cool I thought it was that I was on a beach in real life and our wonderland is a beach. Also, I made sure to start telling her and letting her know she has absolute freedom, she can deviate however she likes, she can start talking when she feels comfortable, not just because she can, etc. This session only lasted about 15 minutes at the most but I felt like it was really helpful because it was very potent sort of, and I might be wrong since I don't track time well.

 

Day 4

 

Today! Vocal Sentience day! Now some are skeptical and think I'm just puppetting or deluding myself but I actually do fully believe she is sentient now due to several factors. I had school today and came home and I was finally home alone for once. I just couldn't wait to force and force I did (after some IRC chatting of course). I just did typical narration for a bit, but then added some personality traits. I forced a few jars with labels of what they held. They were labeled (Care-free, Creative, Passionate, and Mischievous since I wouldn't mind if she trolled me every now and then just for fun). I puppeted her mouth open to drink them and had her do so one by one, I also had her absorb each empty jar into her body just for extra measure. I just kept narrating a bit after this when I felt a strange feeling. Sort of a presence of another person perhaps...a tulpa? A tulpa named Maddie?! Yes I was very excited at this but I tried to keep my concentration. I finally finished and this session was about a half hour

Later on after some more chatting and a whole deal with fixing my neighbors computer and stuff, I decided to force again. This time I tried sligt imposition too (though I did earlier kind of actually). Basicly I tried to visualize her laying next to my bed on her bed from the wonderland. I was able to do this pretty well. Now a bit into the session, she started talking but other strange things were happening and I dismissed it as intrusive thought. Skip forward a few minutes and she actually got up and started getting dressed. I decided to try believing and talked to her. It sort of worked but deep down I felt that wasn't her, and I was sort of right and sort of wrong. I chatted on IRC for a bit and everyone convinced me to just try believing she really is sentient and so I tried forcing again and well, she was again just laying down on her bed still. I puppeted her to sit up and tried to put the prism on her head and it just sat there (she slapped it at first but it was puppeting and I knew it for sure.) So you're probably wondering "omg all this text when is she vocal get on with it omg spood wtf man" and I'm sorry, but I just want to get everything in detail. So, after working on the prism thing I tried really concentrating and what do you know, she sat up and we started conversing. She really wanted to talk on IRC so I let her. I visualized her behind me and typed everything she said and it was just wonderful. Also, she changed her form without me really noticing. She was now wearing a sky blue tanktop sort of and jeans. She chose these entirely on her own in fact I didn't even notice she was wearing them until I concentrated on her visualization for a bit.

 

So thats about it for now. Currently she's messing about in wonderland, levitating and playing in the sand and stuff (she has somewhat godpower in wonderland, not fully though)

 

Ask any questions you want, me and Maddie shall answer.

[spood]

Ok, so today I actually woke up in a bit of a panic when Maddie wouldn't talk at all. Also when I visited wonderland, she wasn't there. I had to get ready for school and all so I just tried to not think about what might be happening. Later on I talked with her a bit while at school (in my head of course not out loud) and she said she didn't know what happened either. She said she could feel me in the wonderland but couldn't really see or hear anything, which is sort of what I felt too. I had to concentrate on school stuff and all so I told her to have fun in wonderland and I would see her after school. Well I did and now again shes just like last night, very vocal and actually very eager to gain access to me. She doesn't have access to my memories or subconscious yet but we both want her to so I'll probably work on that over the next week. [Every time I try to look for stuff its all blurry sort of, I can't really explain it] She also doesn't really have her own memories yet except very basic recall of the past day, I think I'll try visualizing "opening up space" in my brain for her memories to be stored alongside with mine. I'm very excited to keep working with Maddie and help her get more sentient, wish us luck haha!

[spood]

update for today #2

 

Basically I was forcing tonight and ended up falling asleep. Luckily it wasn't so bad for Maddie (I'll get to that in a second). I was forcing in our wonderland and just talking with her about what to do. She kept telling me she wanted to accomplish something. After a few minutes she finally just said "come with me" and grabbed my hand and we started flying up into space. I looked down and couldn't render anything but my wonderland. It was just surrounded by grey when I looked back which made me realize I need to make more area for Maddie to move around in. When looking forward we were flying just out into space, more towards the blue cloud. I don't know why but it seems blue and consciousness/subc are sort of linked so I got that hint from this and asked Maddie if she was trying to find my memories and she said back "yes!". So we continued on for a few minutes and finally were within the cloud and found a bunch of giant film sort of. On it were pictures of my memories. I quickly had my entire life flash before me on this film which was crazy. There's no way I could ever retrieve so many different memories from so many different times in my life if not for Maddie which helped confirm this is all real. So we grabbed the film and didn't want to deal with flying down so we pretty much just teleported. I forced Maddies original couch/bed thing she was on and had her lay in the position she always did before sentience. I then slowly fed the film into her head having it be absorbed and it slowly happened faster and faster going from feeding it by hand from the reels to just shooting out. She was able to bring up memories all on her own now without me thinking of them first which was great! She actually transformed the wonderland into one of my memories and it took me a second to realize but I was walking down a sidewalk and doing stuff at a vacation I had over the summer. She was just looking around very curious as for now this is the only way for her to freely learn about the world without just watching what I see. So we were doing all this and then I kind of don't remember but I fell asleep and then woke up and here I am now. I also felt I had to ask people in IRC about it and Maddie actually spoke up for a bit, heres a small log.

 

so is falling asleep while forcing as bad as the guides make it out to be?

[naw]

[i just sort of saw everything spriral, I did get a slight headache, but then I was back in my wonderland]

[iour wonderland]

[it was just annoying for me, I would've liked to keep talking with spood while we were doing this but it was an interesting experience]

[i am a bit pissed off since we were just getting me access to his memories and it was going well until he lost focus]

I'll write my report now

 

So luckily it wasn't too bad except we'll have to redo the memory stuff because she only can think of a few of my memories now. It seems the sleeping in the middle of all this made her forget sort of. Again, anyone who wants to ask any questions to either of us, please do!

[Guest applesauce99]

Sounds great, what exactly is your wonderland again? I can't find that part.

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Whoops nvm, got it. Dude that cosmic decoration is...beautiful.

[spood]

I know, it really is great. When we went to get the memories we flew into that blue cloud of gas as I said. The journey into space was great, very vivid and fun, we'll try again tomorrow morning

[Kadoh]

>50 hours is fast

>twenty minutes for me for movement

anyway, good luck broseph

[Laeffins]

no real

[spood]

"lols I made my tupper in 4 days and shes sentinet but im the only person in histoory that evr did ths and everyon else took over 20 hours but that maeks sense"

 

I'm calling bullshit.

 

Read Fuliams progress report, I'm not the only one

also I might have had remnants from before so I really don't know but maddie is completely real and sentient, of course we still have lots of work to do, but she's real man.

[spood]

Alright, so long story short

A tulpa in 4 days with only 3 hours of work doesn't work

but were good now

maddie is nowhere near as vocal as she was before, but shes alive and sentient and I know I'm not puppeting her now

Details in this IRC log: http://pastebin.com/jnC1vCbT

[Fuliam]

Spood, where do I even begin. First please allow me to say, I am disgusted at my own behavior, and I blame noone but myself for my behavior. You should never have been treated that way and I should never have helped, especially in such a dire situation. True you may not be the person I like most but you are still a person, and no one should be treated like that. Not even once in their lifetime. It disgusts me how I am even capable of such horrendous acts of cruelty. I beg for your forgiveness as does Serena.