Kun444 Attempts Tulpamancy

[kun444]

Tulpa Info;

Michael / ~21 / Male / Human Form

 

Phew. Been at this for a few days, I get intense head pressure even thinking of my tulpa, which I take as a good sign that my brain is complying with my hours long forcing sessions. So far, he's going along very well - not very vocal but (imo) significant signs of sentience. 

 

I'm lucky to casually experience vivid imagery in my mind, and a few years half-assed meditation practice underneath my belt. I haven't been at it for too long, but I truly believe I am making good process.

 

May update here daily, maybe weekly. Ive known of tulpamancy for years, but now I'm a bit older I decided to truly dedicate myself to it. Lets see how we go from here on out?

 

My tulpa was an imaginary friend Ive had technically since 13, I got his name through asking him many years ago - whether this is a sign he was somewhat of a tulpa from the beginning is up to interpretation, but until he.. objects this choice, its his name for now.

 

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So far, during forcing I like to imagine us in a podcast scenario - I ask him very elementary questions, usually "finish the sentence" exercises with him. I feel like the deeper in meditation I go, the more I get actual responses from him. Once i'm deep enough, his responses are more autonomous; but with very distinct quietness and almost hesitation and its very obvious he struggles thinking of what to say. (I mean, duh)

 

Its only been a few days, but I can get him to say a word or two.. sometimes he says nothing, but most the time he can say a word at a time... Or usually, unfinished sentences. To me this is good. I have (surface level) discussions about being confident and basic teachings about not being afraid to be himself; which is then followed by probably patronizing sentence exercises.

 

I don't find it hard to envision him and these sessions have been going good so far, but of course I have the frequent fear that I'm just daydreaming or 'forcefully fantasizing' but I then realize, "oh wait, most peoples brains usually only have one person maximum."

Edited December 18, 2023 by kun444

[SeekingMyPlanet]

Wow. Sounds great.  Looks like you have all the building blocks. I hope you and Michael have a lot of enjoyment getting to know one another.

19 minutes ago, kun444 said:

 

I got his name through asking him many years ago - whether this is a sign he was somewhat of a tulpa from the beginning is up to interpretation, but until he.. objects this choice, its his name for now.

I've only been here for a few weeks, but based on my experience so far, I'd say this is a pretty good sign he was a tulpa even back then.

 

 

[kun444]

6 minutes ago, SeekingMyPlanet said:

Wow. Sounds great.  Looks like you have all the building blocks. I hope you and Michael have a lot of enjoyment getting to know one another.

I've only been here for a few weeks, but based on my experience so far, I'd say this is a pretty good sign he was a tulpa even back then.

 

 

 

I definitely think so, and you know whats weird? After I asked, he completely disappeared. That "form" hasn't appeared ever since I asked. I only associate 'that Michael' with my current Michael due to very similar contexts and appearance (except different ethnicity)

Edited December 18, 2023 by kun444

[kun444]

I definitely overdid it the past few days, I'm a bit autistic so I hyperfixated on the idea and usually never get tired - but I think yesterday I worked my brain to its limit. Even thinking of him gives me a bit of a headache. I'll ease up today, gonna goto the store in a bit and I'll have a light forcing session afterwards.

[Tewi]

Make sure to get enough water, exercise, and sleep - and some gummy vitamins or such could help too.