Obsessive thoughts

[ohh]

So, yeah, hello fellow tulpa-ers. Glad to have my account finally activated!

I'm actually 6 days into tulpaforcing. Recently I started to have an obsessive thoughts, e.g: since I'm forcing mlp:fim character, it's quite predictable that I could have some merch related to it. Not that I'm big fan of it, but why not? (It's 2 figurines if anyone cares) Yesterday, an sudden idea came to my mind (I wasn't tulpa forcing at that moment) - that I should hide it, because it won't feel right to her. And I've gotta admit, if someone actually had some merchandise imposing me - I couldn't felt good either. Generally I'm modest person, maybe that's why. And today, while daytime tulpaforcing (working on visualization now, but I try to combine when I feel like it) suddenly I felt like she asked to go for a walk - since I do enjoy walking alone from time to time,weather today was just beautiful and I have plenty of free time, why not? Not that was like an 'order' from her, but I just wanted to make her happy. If that's important - she's non-vocal yet; I do talk with her, but yet it looks more like I talking to myself. So it happened completely inside my mind.

And here's a question - was it me or...her trying to contact?

[Purlox]

First, having merchandise of her doesn't have to be bad. The response to it is different from one tulpa to another, but generally they don't think it's a bad thing. Hiding it could cause more harm than good imo, because this would imply that you have something to hide from her and it could result in at least slight trust issues between you two.

 

Second, what you describe seems like your tulpa trying to communicate with you.

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Well, forgot to write that the thing is that she 'asked' for that too. I was never embarassed with my merch before though. She knows about it, just preferred it to be hidden. Hope that's just temporarily issues.

[Purlox]

If she asked for it as well, then consider doing it and talking about it as well if you would prefer not hiding it.

[NED]

Whatever you believe in your Tulpamancing journey will be true, if you really believe that the figures are bad for your Tulpa, then they are. If you believe that It causes no harm then it will cause no harm.

 

Many people have caused themselves and their Tulpa to get issues such as 'help my Tulpa died' or 'Tulpae rape me every day I'm gonna diee'. This is caused by believing bad things can actually happen, I too used to do this, I used to believe that silver kept failing and other things; now I simply do not believe bad things are possible nothing bad has happened, it gives me freedom to what I like and have more fun.

 

I have not forced in weeks, that makes lots of people go 'oh no she will die! Quick you must force!' Well actually she is perfectly fine because I believe she is. It is actually possible to do what the hell you like and maintain a healthy Tulpa, even believing that shitting down their face as a sacred ritual will help if you truly believe.

 

TL;DR Do not believe you can harm your Tulpa then nothing bad will happen, it's a technique not many people follow and it needs to change.

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Thanks a lot for response!