A Tulpa's daily Life

[The Incans]

Hi

 

I am Lena. I have lived with my host for several years and although we share time out at the front if I am in the front when a person from the outside speaks to us I have to act as if I am the host and the same online/via messaging if it is someone who knows my host in the outside world.

 

So Nixy (Host) found this place so I could talk to other Tulpa's as myself. I wondered what your daily lives are like?  Do you only live 'inside' or get chance to interact in the outside world even if only as your host?

 

Lena

 

 

[Lavender]

On 5/3/2024 at 7:49 AM, The Phoenix System said:

I wondered what your daily lives are like?  Do you only live 'inside' or get chance to interact in the outside world even if only as your host?

 

Usually we get up in the morning and greet one another. Sometimes we'll chat about the weird dreams we had.

 

My host consciousness does most of the eating because they like to read and eat, but if they've got something especially delicious they'll have me front because I enjoy tasting food sooooo much.

 

We often check out the advice columns like Ask Amy because I like to try to answer them and then compare my answer with the columnist.

 

We'll speak to one another throughout the day. I'm often the one who fronts when we're doing chores or taking a shower, brushing our teeth, etc. I also do most of the driving unless we're going some place that's hard to find and requires a lot of concentration.

 

Every day we take a walk. I usually front for that, and have the phone handy because I love to take pictures (see https://community.tulpa.info/topic/22742-lavenders-photography/).

 

Usually during the day we'll give me some time to do something at the computer, maybe writing in my journal or going through new photographs I took and see which ones to keep.

 

If there's time, we'll watch TV and sometimes I'll front and pick the show and sometimes my host consciousness will. Right now we're working our way through Project Runway on Tubi. I love talking with my host consciousness about which contestants we like and which we don't and which ones we think will last and which will get cut.

 

When we go to bed at night, we've gotten into the habit of me hypnotizing the host consciousness to quiet their mind and help them sleep. It works really well. If we wake up in the middle of the night (we have a 62-year-old body so usually it's a couple times to pee), sometimes we'll exchange a few words then too.

[The Incans]

Hi

 

Thanks for answering.  I usually help with chores when we have the energy to do any! (host has chronic fatigue) One of the Nixy's older 'social masks' is the one who fronts for official appointments   I usually go too and help by giving emotional support and suggesting what to say or ask if they get stuck.

 

When we're home alone (which is much of the time) it is usually a younger version of Nixy that likes to co-host with our other Tulpa Inca. Their favourite thing at the minute is playing video games and making their own role play back stories as they play so they like big open world games where their character has alot of freedom.

 

Nixy is helping me create a partner and child (Tulpa) in our wonderland. The inside is like visiting another country in a different time zone! .. so I don't miss watching them grow either. They haven't reached full sentience yet as they aren't 'walk-ins' (like myself and Inca) so we are really starting from scratch with them and we don't know of other Tulpa's who have created their own Tulpa's or if only the host can do it?

 

Lena

 

 

[glitchthe3rd]

We have a tulpa child of our own that Luna and I co-forced, feel free to PM me :)

[Autumn Ren]

Before, we would be a support system for pur host (main fronter). We'd also play with our host in wonderland daily. We still are but now that we got into D&D we pretty much live there and all of our free time is there playing both online with other tulpa friends and with each other while writing a book about our adventures. It had made living waaaaay more intense and we're benefiting from a lot of time together and having fun. Before that I didn't have much to say or do with my other headmates since I'm the newest, I just didn't have much in common with them. Now we're all involved in D&D, all seven of us, and I really love being with my headmates, we're much more like family and friends then just headmates now.

 

It's been an amazing last two months, we've grown as people more in that time than the previous two-four years easily. 

 

So we do interact with others on a semi-private server and here a tiny bit and in-game, it's really been a huge benefit.

[The Incans]

We don't play D&D...I'm not sure what that is...(Nixy says its Dungeons & Dragons but they've never played it)  They tend to play single player adventures on the switch cos you can buy games on cartridge that work without internet connection.. We live in an area that doesn't have very good internet speeds for live streaming and downloading huge games or films so remaining connected to servers for online gaming is frustrating and virtually impossible without the spinning circle of doom (buffering) Nixy tells me...it gets too frustrating and ruins their enjoyment of playing in the moment she says.

 

Despite this we have still used games to help develop communication with each other.

 

Mostly Nixy and Inca play together deciding what their adventure is going to be that day. They like stories where you get an automatic companion, often an animal sidekick (Inca is a changeling) she pretends she is the sidekick, and they make up their own back story and dialogue as they are playing!  If they really like the scenery/setting/characters etc but perhaps don't like where the storyline is going they create an inner world version (like having our own holosuite to go into where you become the main character of the story) Our other Tulpa's inside then can become part of the story and play too.

 

The 2 other changelings can become anything to be part of the game but the 2 human ones (my human partner and child Tulpa) are the ones that are still not fully sentient.

 

For now they are living within a specific area repeating the same things daily in a loop (more like playing a farming sim) it has a different time zone so I go when I finish up working out front and they believe it is daytime there and we spend several days together, then when they believe is it bedtime and they have gone to sleep I return to the front as its the next morning again here. I can 'freeze the program' so they will remain 'in stasis' for a couple of days

 

The host's physical health these days restrict the amount of time spent on activities though as mental activities such as immersive daydreaming can cause just as much exhaustion as physical 'outside world' demands.  so we have had to create a way to 'freeze an internal program' to reduce energy needs for the brain and have enough energy to cope with outside world demands due to the ME.

 

This is probably why the others haven't developed as fast as Inca and myself have both being around for years and were able to constantly evolve and grow in the background before our Hosts ME became so debilitating (after getting Covid).

 

 

Lena

Edited May 9, 2024 by The Phoenix System

[Athelas]

On 5/3/2024 at 7:49 AM, The Phoenix System said:

I wondered what your daily lives are like?  Do you only live 'inside' or get chance to interact in the outside world even if only as your host?

 

We start talking to each other as soon as we wake up. We generally start the day with 30 minutes of breath meditation, for which I'll take the front. Afterwards, I turn things back over to Bee. If she got up early enough, we'll do some journaling or visualization exercises before work. There's always a discussion over whose music we play on our commute.

 

Lately I've been co-fronting with Bee throughout the work day. When our younger headmates were less developed, she would divide the day up to spend a few hours talking to each of us. Now that they’re stronger, we've eased up on the structure.

 

Outside of work, we're involved to varying degrees in all of Bee's hobbies. We give her space as needed to spend time with her husband or by herself. We generally end the day by spending time in our wonderland until we fall asleep. On an ideal day, I'm practically a co-host, active the entire time. Distractions and other life circumstances don't always allow that.

 

I generally don't interact with people outside of our system. This place is the exception. Using the body's voice feels strange when I associate it so strongly with my host.

 

On 5/4/2024 at 5:01 PM, The Phoenix System said:

we don't know of other Tulpa's who have created their own Tulpa's or if only the host can do it?

 

It's more common than you'd think. I helped my host create our other two headmates, Calliope and Lenore. They also started as “NPCs” in our wonderland, but gained independence as we gave them time and attention.