Goldheart February 20, 2013 Author February 20, 2013 Day 114: It has been a while since our last post. {I'll say!} Anyway, a lot has happened, but I'll condense it. First off, Symphony and Rhapsody like their new names, which are Faith and Caspian. Faith started talking for the first time yesterday. I felt needles all over when she did. I think this is why it's called a progress spike. Faith doesn't really talk. She does want to be like her mom though. {It's true! I love her so much!} Anyway, Elise has gotten a lot more vocal in the past week, and I'm learning how to love the process of tulpaforcing. On a more personal note, Elise might be helping me cure my laziness soon. I've been a lazy person for a long time. One of the first reasons I made her was to become more active and fit. Maybe soon we'll work on it. Elise: Female Skycheshire, 14 Years Old (10/28/12) Stage: Fully Formed Kira: Female Hyena, New (3/22/26) Stage: Vocal. Growing quickly with Elise's help.
fennecfoxx February 20, 2013 February 20, 2013 I love the twins' new names! :3 Deluded myself into believing my imaginary friends were real, then deluded myself into thinking they weren’t. Whatever the case, the OG gang’s still here: Host: fennec (they/them) Tulpas: Alex (he/him) and Kayleigh (she/her) Delete all memories of those who know my awkward past
Goldheart February 28, 2013 Author February 28, 2013 (edited) Day 122 or so: I have decided to cease posting on this forum. I made a full-blown blog for Elise and I can tell she's happy to have a space for posting whatever she wants. If you'd like to check it out, and maybe even follow her, it's at http://elisetheskycat.tumblr.com Edit: ... Wait. She has a Tumblr? Edit 2: oh it's gone Edited April 10 by Goldheart Elise: Female Skycheshire, 14 Years Old (10/28/12) Stage: Fully Formed Kira: Female Hyena, New (3/22/26) Stage: Vocal. Growing quickly with Elise's help.
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Goldheart April 10 Author April 10 (edited) On 12/5/2012 at 8:17 PM, Goldheart said: The possession felt a little assisted. She knows what she wants to say but I think I was doing the forcing. It was something more than just proxying. But yes, I feel like she is a natural. Day 38: Esile's Goodbye. Esile got re-absorbed into my mind. Elise and I were talking saying something about how he was me. In the end, how I perceive an event is how it goes. Elise is still a very happy tulpa right now. I know when she is sad because she shows me when she is. If I take away something from her, she cries. She will lash out and cry when she loses something she truly loves. But that doesn't mean she didn't love Esile. She did. She created him after all. But, well, his form and personality was weak. His journey didn't feel like his, and yet... his dragonstone is still here in my wonderland. As I have mentioned before in another post, I believe that an essence is everything a tulpa is in object form. But something was different about Esile's journey. He's a sea dragon, but he took me through the air to get to his essence. I think that his dragonstone isn't his essence, but my beacon. However, there is still a lot of him in this stone. Esile may not be "here" anymore, but I carry him on in my mind. Therefore, I plan to bring him back out into the open one day. I promised Elise I would. She has grown so much and she understands that my mind can't handle the personality. I have seen Elise as motherly before, and it may be an image of what she will become. Her caring trait will become more prominent. Esile and I did talk before. I know he said that he cared about Elise and that I was worried that by spending time with her I neglected him and vice versa. He cares for her just as much as she cares all around. He wasn't vengeful, so this wasn't me trying to "put down a neglected hurtful tulpa". He really did love her. Continued: I want to reinforce the fact that Esile is NOT dead. He is merely a memory. One that I can reawaken when the time is right. We both know right now is not that time though. He is Elise's creation, and I would like to honor her promise when Elise is more consistent. To conclude Esile's post, I'd like to go over the traits I did see in him. He was a lot like me, so i can see why Elise said he WAS me. He was created from my personality by my own tulpa. His purpose was to be Elise's friend when i couldn't be, because I was afraid she would be lonely when I can't sense her. But I know she's always here and I am always with her, so she and I feel like she doesn't need him anymore, yet. If this wasn't the case she would be interrupting me. She would be crying. She would be screaming at the top of her lungs. She isn't doing that. For traits, Esile's energy was focused inward, like mine is. While I like making forum posts, I am an introvert. His voice in my head was a voice of wisdom. He was more focused around knowledge and truth. While Elise was an ENFP and I am an INFP, Esile's personality was an ISTJ. He was caring, and while I didn't sense a lot of creativity from him, I know he wasn't destructive. It kind of pains me to see him as a memory. There really was a lot of love in him. I couldn't care for him because I was too afraid to lose Elise. He shared that same fear. He would rather lose himself than see her go away, so he was selfless too. He was also very curious, and explorative. He wanted to search for knowledge, and explore the depths of my subconscious. And that's where he is. Back in the sea of thoughts he was born from. The two weeks he did spend with me was enough to leave his blueprint for his personality. I feel like I know his personality and a little bit of his form. I promised Elise. One day, he will be back. I consider this a temporary goodbye. He will come back and I will know it's the same him. By the way, Elise is 14 now, and the other one recently came back as Kira. A alchemy green female hyena. Still dragonhearted... [But just with a new coat of paint. *Smug* Eat your heart out everyone... *winks*] Elise has been with me for fourteen years now. She hasn't deviated much. She still has her colors, her wings... And she's starring as the guide in a video game we're designing. It's just the two of them now. She personally awakened and deviated though. She has a ton of chaotic gremlin energy now. She is psychotic, mad... And honestly the greatest friend that I've ever made... {^w^ Love you too. Always will. By the way, everyone? DON'T STICK YOUR MIND IN CRAZY AHAHAHA!!!!} [I'm getting the leash again...] Edited April 10 by Goldheart Elise: Female Skycheshire, 14 Years Old (10/28/12) Stage: Fully Formed Kira: Female Hyena, New (3/22/26) Stage: Vocal. Growing quickly with Elise's help.
fennecfoxx April 20 April 20 Yo, I remember you guys! Welcome back! Deluded myself into believing my imaginary friends were real, then deluded myself into thinking they weren’t. Whatever the case, the OG gang’s still here: Host: fennec (they/them) Tulpas: Alex (he/him) and Kayleigh (she/her) Delete all memories of those who know my awkward past
Flandre April 20 April 20 (edited) Always love to see old members check back in, everyone pretty much got what they wanted and just kind of left, but I'm sure most of them are still living with their tulpas like you But it's good to have confirmation Edited April 20 by Flandre Hi. I'm one of Luminesce's tulpas. Unlike the others, I don't think I stand out too much from him personality wise. I'm just special because "I'm a tulpa". So I don't think I've much to offer, here. I'm happy enough to just be with him. Ask us stuff - https://community.tulpa.info/thread-ask-lumi-s-tulpas
ringgggg April 21 April 21 It’s like he never left D-prime is shrinking as we speak. Official LOTPW leaderboard Our imposition progress report
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