The begining of a beatiful friendship

[Tarifather]

hey Bazil! : ), i read your progress report some days ago and all i have to say is this: you have some interesting dreams, so interesting i suggest you to give a shot at writing, as even if you didn't came up whit the things that happened in the dream you certainly narrated it masterfully (leaving grammar errors aside), i almost felt inside the dream, you have that sort of Hemingway stile in which you don't use complex words, yet you convey your feelings, the ones of the emo guy, the girl... the point is i find your writing pleasant and i suggest you to use it along the creation of your tulpa and further. By the way you shoulkd add up some positive traits to him before he becomes to much of a shadowy character, it could bring harm to people that are not you: my advice Kindness and Determination (but you decide is just a suggestion).

[Bazil]

Well thanks tarifather apreciate the critisism and apologize again for the spelling errors. And now for my next entry. I have to say im a very indecisive person as damien deviated again this time his skin turned green, his nose fell off, and his eyes turned white. He resembles a pirate zombie and...im okay with this. Then i became uncertain as while it would be cool to havee a zombie tulpa i wondered would he become stupid? Would he only be able to comunicate with moans. This gave me cause to retun to his original form that was the dorian grey character but now with two forms in my mind i am now concerned that i may have created two tulpas... How stupid of me. Putting theese concerns aside i decided to go back to forcing dorians form (ive begun calling him this again, what ramifications this is having on him i dont know).last night i dozed off and in my sleep i had noticed my reflection ( or lack of) in the mirror and had become lucid. What is most puzzling and frustrating is that from this dream i can barely remember anything but what i do i will tell you. Realizing i was in a dream i decided to do what everyone says and spin around in circles so that i dont wake up. Then i sat down. I found myself in a green room with a few chairs. I tried looking around to remember all the details but unfortunatly ive forotten them. all i can remember is that it was very fancy with a low hung chandeleir and a mirror and fine chairs despite how it was no larger than a bathroom (was it a bathroom?) i turned and sitting next to me was my fat cousin. I cant really remember what i said but i think i asked him where i was and he said "your wonderland, you can do anything here." This place was nothing like my old game room tough. As this was going on my body kept spining slowly around the room and then i thought to do somthing before i woke up and i said "i wish to see dorian" and then when i came back around to face my cousin there he was. Altough he looked NOTHING like i had imagined him. He sat crosslegged with his hands in his lap and leaning forward a little. Hair was wild and black but turned ginger red towards the ends. He wore a tam. His eyes were red and his face was black with dirt (or charcoal?)his grin was like the leprachaun. he wore ragged 1700s style clothing. Very common looking tough. And knee high socks, with buckled shoes. He was probably 5'10. He looked like a chimney sweep. Well i cant remember what i asked him but he rolled down his socks to reveal impossibly slim legs and i said "well thats not right". Then i woke up probably from the excitement of seeing him... Damn me. But what am i to make of this guys? Was that really my wonderland? Was that really him? Im so freaking confused. I dont think i could force that form cause i cant really remember all the details( this is my greatest weakness. I always failed at art and drawing cause i could never perfect details) but is that the form he wants? Im going to go mia for a while until i can make a proper form but if you guys could give input on this id really apreciate it

 

TLDR: im dealing with three forms (possibly three tulpas) and cannot decide on wich one.

[G+3]

Wow, really, we need someone with more experiences and multiple tulpæ' opinion on this. In my own opinion I really doubt it's three tulpæ but more just a confusion, if you can't decide I'd say use the one that just 'feels right'. If it is more than one then here's the first thread I got typing in ''accidental'' to the search bar, have a flick though it, might help; even go looking for others or make your own, the community's here to help.

 

http://tulpa.info/forums/Thread-Accidental-second-tulpa-advice?highlight=accidental