How do I kill a tulpa?

[DigitalHeartbeat]

Not too long ago, I developed an obsession with this one character. Projected onto them immensely. I have psychosis and experience a lot of struggles due to that, and I needed some sort of outlet. I would spend so much of my free time just monologuing to the version of them that exists inside my head. Sometimes I would pretend to be them, and adopt their mannerisms for the day. Because this character was awesome and powerful and by becoming them, I would become awesome and powerful too.

 

Eventually, things started getting weird. My interactions with them, my interactions with the media they’re from, the whole gist. For a while I thought it was just my psychosis being weird and playing off my obsession with them. But when everything culminated in a horrible panic attack that I don’t really want to talk about, I decided I had to look further into it. I had heard of tulpamancy before. Imaginary friends becoming sentient. I decided to reach out to the tulpamancy community on social media. They said it sounded a lot like I might have accidentally made a tulpa. Or at least an underdeveloped fragment of one.

 

For a bit, I was okay with that. I was going to roll with that. But today was horrible. Hard for both of us. I just got done banging my head against the wall out of sheer panic and frustration. My tulpa (??? maybe?) flat out told me it doesn’t want to be here. That it doesn’t want to exist. And I don’t want it in my head. I have enough problems with one person inside it. We’re both in agreement. But neither of us know how to kill a mental construct.

 

Please help. I don’t know where to go or what to do. I feel stuck. I didn’t ask for this. Now I want them dead.

[Luminesce]

Dissipation for tulpas is really just the process of neural connections weakening over time from lack of use. All you can do is affirm you'll not be thinking of them anymore (you can consider them gone in some symbolic way if you want), at least in the "focusing on them" way, acknowledging that they existed doesn't really matter but might as well avoid thinking about that too.

 

Obviously, psychosis and mental problems like these are still therapist/psychiatrist territory so while I give this advice, if problems persist beyond your control that is what medical professionals are for

(Generally, antipsychotics can help with chaotic/uncontrolled thoughts)

[DigitalHeartbeat]

2 minutes ago, Luminesce said:

Dissipation for tulpas is really just the process of neural connections weakening over time from lack of use. All you can do is affirm you'll not be thinking of them anymore (you can consider them gone in some symbolic way if you want), at least in the "focusing on them" way, acknowledging that they existed doesn't really matter but might as well avoid thinking about that too.

 

Obviously, psychosis and mental problems like these are still therapist/psychiatrist territory so while I give this advice, if problems persist beyond your control that is what medical professionals are for

(Generally, antipsychotics can help with chaotic/uncontrolled thoughts)

So, how exactly do I do that? Just stop thinking about them?

[Luminesce]

With an affirmation/commitment to doing so, yeah. Eventually after long enough even thinking about them shouldn't bring their sense of really being there back, and just be memories instead

 

Actually the same effect that goes into forgetting a tragedy or past relationship or so on, while your sentiment towards them may stay the same, the intensity of thinking about them fades over time as you stop exercising the neural connections that make them up in your brain
(eg. not thinking about a lost loved one constantly leads to the feeling of loss, when remembered occasionally, not being remotely as harsh - but if you think about them every day, it's going to keep hurting)

[DigitalHeartbeat]

I want them to be happy. And they aren’t happy here. In this world.