Tea and friends [Progress log]

[teakettle13]

I'm bored so why not start a progress log here?

I will most likely write our breakthroughs and interesting experiences with tulpamancy here. Right now we are focused on possession and voluntary switching.

This progress log is meant for writing down my (Teakettle) and Misha's (tulpa) progress, but it's possible other headmates will use it too (we are not an exclusively tulpa system).

 

Also, obligatory Bad English Alert.

[teakettle13]

I guess if I made this log I better at least write something in it.

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Should've named it "The regress log" to be honest. I feel like we are stuck, kind of. I started to doubt that she is actually real once again, but after a mental smack on the forehead the denial subdued a little. So, things we can do so far:

 

Talk (pretty weak most of times with short bouts of incredibly clear communication and character, need to work on it)

 

Imposition (never really trained or practiced it, I guess I'm just a natural lol. No problems in seeing her with my mind's eye whatsoever, she also can use it and impose herself somewhere around me doing whatever. Useful for communication.)

 

Switching (very, very unstable. I switch with non-tulpa headmates involuntary and don't have much problems with it, it helps us regulate emotions and get through stressful situations sometimes. As of switching with tulpas, Misha and I had a couple of successful switching attempts, few of them random as well.)

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We are currently really trying to work on switching/possession and want to finally accomplish doing it on purpose and being distinct while fronting, so advice is always appreciated. 

-Teakettle

[teakettle13]

Today I've been trying to impose her mental form more, I still forget about her from time to time unfortunately, but time and practice is the answer; just need to build a habit.

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A little out of topic, I figured we can't exactly switch on purpose with non-tulpa headmates as well, it just happens on it's own (with influence from outer world ofc). So, we still can't switch on purpose.

-Teakettle

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Here's a few sketches of Misha:

 

 

Edited March 11 by teakettle13
forgot the tag

[Lucilyn]

Nice art!

I don't exactly know how to teach "intentional switching" when you can already switch "unintentionally", since in the tulpamancy community switching is always learned intentionally

Switching is something you generally have to figure out for yourself, so I suppose just keep at it until you can do it at will? The crossover of disorderly plurality and intentional plurality is a lot harder to give confident advice on, but the handful of members here in the past who've had mixed origins and really explored tulpamancy seemed to adapt tulpamancy techniques just fine (whether they had to be personally changed a bit or not), so I guess I can say it should be possible!

 

for every other skill, it's usually just about consistent practice

if you find yourself failing to do that, usually cutting the expected time down to more manageable bits but scheduling the times so you never miss them each day should help, consistently doing 5 minutes every day usually beats an hour and then dropping it for a week and then..

[teakettle13]

Thank you for your response, Lucilyn! But I should state that we are not a disordered/traumagenic system, just a system that was not originally created by will. The random switching doesn't really hinder our functionality, rather helps us stay stable enough to function.

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Today we tried a youtube guided meditation for switching. I tried to follow it all the way through, but I know it probably won't help on the first listen and we need to practice with it more. Long story short, I immersed in the wonderland so hard I forgot about Misha lol, somewhere halfway into the meditation I think she abruptly opened the physical eyes and was very surprised, then she got "kicked out" of the body and we had to start again. I'd say it can be considered a small progress, we will continue to use the same file to build a habit.

-Teakettle

[teakettle13]

No progress to write for the passing days. Well, tried to do a few hypnosis files, both for tulpamancy and out of it. Nothing really happens, like, at all. I'm not too interested in this hypnosis stuff to actually do research so I'll probably just leave it alone for now. The guided meditation has helped a little though, it can make me stay focused on the headspace immersion and the intention to switch itself.

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We started to switch more during stressful events rather than on random, I'm not sure what to think about it. Also I'm starting to feel not exactly "myself" sometimes in a rather weird way. Not too concerned, it's just a little uncomfortable sometimes.

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So, Misha. Can't tell anything productive has been happening in that regard, except the few times we actually talked and imposed her mind form during our walk to home, almost for the whole time. Also, she really helps me in the moments of spiraling when I agree to listen to her. I noticed I didn't have a single intense episode since she appeared in my life. I am very thankful to her for everything she does for us.

-Teakettle

[teakettle13]

Regress log, again.

I decided it would be better to ditch our switching attempts for now. It seems like I overestimated Misha's strength up until this point. We now will focus more on the beginning of forcing practice, building up stronger connection and just spending time together more. Of course I won't stop her if she will want to try, but I think I will need to strengthen her abilities until she will be more independent for the attempts to be successful.

-Teakettle

[teakettle13]

Just some reference ideas for Misha's part in the wonderland (all pictures were found on Pinterest).

-Teakettle 

[teakettle13]

Tea and friends [Regress log]

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Well, guess what.

Nothing to write here unfortunately, but we still exist. Yes, we.

I'm starting to forget to talk with her properly I must admit, yet I noticed she is still getting more present mentally despite my lack of effort. We found it easier and quicker to meet in the headspace rather than through imposing her irl, also I guess she has more freedom in the imaginary world instead of just being a ghost in physical space.

-Teakettle

 

[TurboSimmie]

Glad to hear she's still here! 😊 Sometimes just chilling in headspace can be more fun than being imposed in physical space.