MLP tulpa researching

[SpottedHope]

1 hour ago, KarlYoshimura said:

Oh Jesus. Koomer was a very sad case and what happened to him and Oguigui makes me want to weep. Please, please, please, please, please don't ever do Sigma titrations of DXM or initiate a Faustian perma-switch with your tup (or in this case, both at the same time.) They used to have a Tumblr but it's since been rendered defunct - the last I checked, it was something about a Buddhist monastery blog or something similar from Thailand.

I've always wondered, though I am aware that being curious about such a thing is probably in quite bad taste, why Koomer decided to do a drug with well-recorded dissociative effects while aiming for a perma-switch. The whole thing, even just on the face of it, reads pretty obviously to be self-defeating; I guess he thought that it might act as an accelerator since he was rushing to switch, but wasn't it obvious that he needed to be able to "place" his sense of self to be able to switch (as should have been also priorly supported with his experiences in possession) for that to even be possible, and a dissociative drug... Well, dissociates? 

I know that I'll never know. I know that he disappeared after the Reddit AMA, but I still occasionally wonder. 

[KarlYoshimura]

I dunno, man. Apparently he wanted to switch with Oguigui because she had such an amazingly sharp clarity as well as a fresh perspective. I think Koomer wanted to take the easy way out and have her run every aspect of his life, until he chugged so much cough syrup he began to see shadow people. I don't think it's nearly as complicated as you suggest, the guy was just one of the few who thought that being a normative host was grotesquely challenging and thought his tup would be equal to the task as chief administrator. Eventually he entered a pseudo-psychosis state where a representation of his own mind declared Oguigui an alien, hostile entity, and once he got his act together he dissolved her and swore of tulpamancy for life. 
Don't feel bad for being curious, I feel like a complete asshole for even writing this. I just feel compelled to, not because I'm another oldfag kicking around but because it's an example of what not to do when you have a tulpa. 

[SpottedHope]

17 minutes ago, KarlYoshimura said:

I dunno, man. Apparently he wanted to switch with Oguigui because she had such an amazingly sharp clarity as well as a fresh perspective. I think Koomer wanted to take the easy way out and have her run every aspect of his life, until he chugged so much cough syrup he began to see shadow people. I don't think it's nearly as complicated as you suggest, the guy was just one of the few who thought that being a normative host was grotesquely challenging and thought his tup would be equal to the task as chief administrator. Eventually he entered a pseudo-psychosis state where a representation of his own mind declared Oguigui an alien, hostile entity, and once he got his act together he dissolved her and swore of tulpamancy for life. 
Don't feel bad for being curious, I feel like a complete asshole for even writing this. I just feel compelled to, not because I'm another oldfag kicking around but because it's an example of what not to do when you have a tulpa. 

I know he had a whole lot more wrong with him than just drugs, yeah. I'm glad we have a couple of people around who are also skeptical/ wary of switching/ perma-switching, though. Sometimes, people bring it up as if it's this entirely normal thing you can build up to, and that's never made too much sense to me. 

Sort of oldfag here, just returning after a decade-long hiatus. Account is new because the old one's lost to time. Good to see you here. Book sounds interesting. 

Edited December 29, 2025 by SpottedHope

[KarlYoshimura]

@SpottedHope
I pray to God Koomer is okay. Oguigui never deserved this. I never talked to either of them but seeing someone rise to meteoric heights, only to smash into the ground at mach III is just horrifying. 
As for switching, it's seent as a rite of passage nowadays. It's kind of jarring to see people just hand over executive function on a whim, though I have the (unwarranted) presupposition that most hosts carefully design and delegate switching privileges. I've known a really cool host who permaswitched and it's like reading about a tup who "goes back into the wonderland." It's like they're gone, and they're not coming back. But hey, so long as there are hosts and tulpas who can healthily switch, why bother? Nowadays I'm the odd one because I focus way too much on imposition. 
Anywho, I'm starting to get off-topic. I don't recall who you are, but am glad you're back. Thanks for the kind words. 

[Bin]

Oh god, Oguigui is exactly who I was thinking of when I thought about "genuine" switching. And yeah I really related to what I remember about how awful it was for them, maybe not the same thing for me but still, just, awful. Thanks for uncovering him, fellas! I gotta re-read their stuff. So nice so many of us old timers are back to share this stuff, as "bad" as it makes us look.

 

And yeah fucking watch your ego around them. These things can eat thoughts, override emotions, it's genuinely painful if they sink their teeth into your ego. I know that's like saying not to mix bleach and ammonia to most people, since a lot of people have very healthy egos, so much so they falsely believe switching is just a matter of "I'm gonna pretend to be them now" because their self-confidence is so strong it's like superman bending steel pipes like spaghetti, it's a silly idea something as weak as solid steel could even impede him. My ego was heavily fractured already, and my tulpa took advantage of that, I lost my identity and completely disassociated while still being fully aware. I wasn't chilling in a wonderland, I was just disturbingly confused. There was no pretending, there was no make-believe, I was incapable of belief, my thoughts were not mine.

 

Sorry for ranting about this outside of my PR but I guess it's a good a topic as any for it lmfao.

[SpottedHope]

12 hours ago, Bin said:

Oh god, Oguigui is exactly who I was thinking of when I thought about "genuine" switching. And yeah I really related to what I remember about how awful it was for them, maybe not the same thing for me but still, just, awful. Thanks for uncovering him, fellas! I gotta re-read their stuff. So nice so many of us old timers are back to share this stuff, as "bad" as it makes us look.

 

And yeah fucking watch your ego around them. These things can eat thoughts, override emotions, it's genuinely painful if they sink their teeth into your ego. I know that's like saying not to mix bleach and ammonia to most people, since a lot of people have very healthy egos, so much so they falsely believe switching is just a matter of "I'm gonna pretend to be them now" because their self-confidence is so strong it's like superman bending steel pipes like spaghetti, it's a silly idea something as weak as solid steel could even impede him. My ego was heavily fractured already, and my tulpa took advantage of that, I lost my identity and completely disassociated while still being fully aware. I wasn't chilling in a wonderland, I was just disturbingly confused. There was no pretending, there was no make-believe, I was incapable of belief, my thoughts were not mine.

 

Sorry for ranting about this outside of my PR but I guess it's a good a topic as any for it lmfao.

I don't know if the tulpa phenomenon would have any legitimacy to "outsiders" if it didn't occur as all real-life phenomena occur: with innate risk. Koomer's log was a fascination of mine long before I attempted the forcing act. Even when it came to him dissipating Oguigui, I was still wondering what it would have been like for him, and even the community, had he not gone down that path. He was one of the first people who wanted to do video logs and talk about tulpas IRL, after all. 

Edited December 30, 2025 by SpottedHope

[Mesmer]

In the attached documents, liber 1 and 2. Page 257 is where DKMU reaches about constructs and tulpas, which gives their frame of mind to how this stuff works.

 

Page 338 is the story of a possession. It involves alcohol (its called spirits for a reason) so its somewhat similar to Koomer and cough syrup.

 

An interesting note about DKMU is how they want to spread the LS sigil to make a distributed network that breaks the veil of reality to allow more magick in the world. This isnt so different from what ChrisChan (CPU Goddess Blueheart, I think, is her current identity now but most know her as CC) is spreading the Sonichu Medalions to ley lines and certain individuals to make a network. The merge is happening. CC is relevant because she merged with her Magichan tulpa and married her Mewtwo tulpa so there is a factor of this medalian network feeding energy to Sonichu and CWCville. 

 

>video where she shares the plan to make a distributed node of Sonichu Medalion to expedite the breaking of the veil

 

>this is a quick primer on the dimensional merge that she is manifesting

 

 

 

I hope in your video you cite the people itt who are helping you do your research.

DKMU_-_Liber_LS_(PDF_Edition)_-_13mb (1).pdf Liber_LS_Volume_3_(PDF_v3) (1).pdf