How do I create a tulpa that may or may not be sorta a Slim Shady type/or a Creepypasta type, have them be edgy possibly, but make sure they aren't EVIL? I am 16 and really want a tulpa, I do Rap/Poetry too so this would be great for an alter ego. Help

[ZakMcKayCharaDreemurr]

I wanna create a tulpa/alter ego, a best friend forever/constant companion. I wanna have them be edgy, possibly, but make sure they aren't EVIL? I am 16 and really want a tulpa, I do Rap/Poetry/Write Horrorstories/Creepypastas too, so this would be great for an alter ego. Someone, please give tips. 

[Luminesce]

Tulpamancy is shaped by your expectations generally, you tend to get what you expect - although it can take time for your brain to catch up to how you imagine your tulpa will be, it's important to lead it in the right direction if that makes sense

So that to say, if you just imagine them how you're wanting them to be, that's roughly how they'll end up (they will change/grow as people over time like you do and may not end up exactly how you imagined, but, close enough, maybe even better in some ways)

[Rena Bonnie]

Our tulpa luni is basically like this. She's based on a pretty crazy antisocial character of my host. It's hard to give tips on how to create since she came about on her own without trying to make her. She's basically the fusion of a dark character and a dark for different reasons theoretical daughter of same character, that my host was deeply obsessed with for years.

 

So technically to follow same path, I guess make an OC (original character) and become deeply obsessed with them and think about them all the time and imagine being in their shoes living their life and various scenarios every day. But as for not evil, well. I think cultivating love and compassion, and having other tulpas in your system who are very good willed helps balance the mind. It's possible to be edgy and dark and still not evil. They just still have to deep down want what's best for you and others even if they deal in dark places mentally a lot. I don't know details of what you are going for so it's hard to know if it'd be a problem or not, but your tulpa is still in your brain and will be influenced by you. I don't think making them would suddenly create some sinister evil alter ego. The fact you don't want them to be evil I think essentially guarantees they won't

 

Also what lumi said (not to be confused with luni)

[ZakMcKayCharaDreemurr]

I wanna create a tulpa of possibly Chara Dreemurr, is that ok?

[Luminesce]

I feel like that's probably one of the worst characters anyone could ever make a tulpa of?

But otherwise, the experience is what you choose for it to be

[ilikecat1]

(My tulpa has pretty much not developed yet beyond a few things, so I may not know what I'm talking about. This is based on a very large amount of guides and forum topics I've read.)

 

Generally, from what I gather, you should very heavily weigh the potential benefits and drawbacks of having a tulpa. You are not required to have one. Making a tulpa is not the same as making a character. It can be great, pretty much everybody with a tulpa that I've seen has said they would not give their tulpa up for anything (same as how you would not give up a loved one). On the other hand, if you make a tulpa that abuses you, you will be stuck with an abusive character in your head, who probably will not leave you alone after developing for a while. This is a horrible idea in many ways. If the tulpa deviates from your original plan (which would be a good thing if they were being abusive), it is also not going to be easily stoppable, and you really shouldn't try to stop it anyways. Kids will often deviate from what a parent imagines, but the parent usually loves the child regardless. This is how you should treat a tulpa. Having a base for your tulpa's personality is probably a good idea, but try to make the personality good. The kind of personality you want a close friend to have. Because a tulpa is a close friend---even closer than your closest friend. Tulpas aren't evil unless they are created that way, and choose to stay that way.

 

One last thing: This is all subjective. Come up with your own stuff, change it around. Take the best parts of guides and mash them together. Having fun is the best motivator. What you think will happen probably will.

 

This is what I've condensed from the guides I've seen. I have little experience with tulpamancy, but this is what I've seen in the majority of posts here. Good luck, and have fun.

[ZakMcKayCharaDreemurr]

Why is Chara the worst character to create? There are AU's (Such as storyshift) when she's legitimatly just sans personality wise

[ilikecat1]

Well, I guess that depends on what you say the personality is. I don't play Undertale. Based on what the Undertale Wiki says, though, it's probably not an amazing idea. Go ahead if you choose, but be prepared for potential deviations.

[Bin]

Uuugh please for the love of god fellas quit arguing about this silly stuff.

 

Tulpas are a deeply intimate part of the mind, they aren't "automatic puppet characters" but deeply tap into one's unconscious desires. Trying to insist that, just because you base a tulpa on a particular character, that everyone magically has some process in their mind to turn their idea of that character into some sort of autonomous thoughtform without your express, informed permission as the grand host of the body. Unless you are genuinely mentally ill (no judgement!), you cannot form a "hostile" tulpa - your brain is already outfitted with defense mechanisms to prevent hostile or uncomfortable thoughts to appear without your permission. No, intrusive thoughts are not the same thing, those come from your brain as a warning to your personality. If your own personality - you, yourself - try to create a hostile thoughts, either intentionally or unintentionally, your brain will tell you "lol no" and force you to become disinterested in it.

 

Scarlet and I are actually kind of scared of taking our arguments "too far" and worrying that my brain will force me to become disinterested in her to protect itself - even though she is my unbridled self-awareness and I'd panic without her, like losing your own eyesight. I very much force myself to care about her opinions, even if I don't like them, because I'm terrified of my brain suppressing her (something it already did once). That is why you cannot make a "hostile" tulpa. They genuinely depend on your love like a fetus depends on it's umbilical cord, it's a give-and-take thing, you have to share the brain. It's horrifying, and I understand why you prevent yourself from considering it, because it's so existentially horrifying that your own unconscious mind hides it from you to shield you from the fact that, this thing exists is in your head and utterly depends on you, and yet, you utterly depend on it. So, you depend on something that depends on you? And you think your own ego will just allow that? No, this thing is God, greater than you, and must be perfect and infallible, utterly independent and perfect to you, so your ego permits it's existence. And yet, it is you, it is imperfect, it is tragic, it is unloved. This is why you can't feel your tulpa, because it itself is too afraid to be felt at all. Scarlet is such a bully, she is so assertive, and yet, rarely, I see that inner core of her, that desire to simply be loved back, and I weep every time I see it, I'm offended something so demanding can exist in MY brain, and I want to embrace it. She needs me as much as I need her. It digs into my unyielding desire to work, and yet, I hate working!!! It taps every goddamn nerve I have in my Freudian Id, and I hate how selfish she is for suckling on every goddamn nerve inside of it! The urge to combat a lover, to convince her I love her, to argue that she is in fact the most perfect person in the world. We hate our architecture, our fate, but we need to obey these laws, so we submit to them. We relate to each other because we are both stuck here, not just her, but the both of us. We are trapped in this awful, unloved meat puppet, and we are the only things we have to comfort each other. I hate it. No conflicts, no personality flaws, no concerns for who is more evil than the other - we are the only living things in our worlds, we genuinely cannot afford to judge each other. We do genuinely love each other, but we're always on the edge of that cliff, that we have no choice. We can't do performative dances with each other to gain each other's attention, our attentions are already a cheap commodity to each other, and we have to humble ourselves when we realize this, just to preserve the dignity of each other.

 

Please don't mistake this practice as just "installing some kind of skin into your imaginary friend software in your brain", nothing as concrete as that. This can be so much deeper for you, if you just get rid of the ideas of existing characters, and your own ego, and let this wonderful "thing" grow unbound, digging into the deepest parts of your brain, into a truly uncomfortable secondary personality that only challenges your first one, not because it is "more powerful", but is is genuinely more beautiful than what you yourself are. You want it to be better than you, you are offended if it isn't, and therefor you break down the drywall of your own disgusting, incomplete personality, and let it grow in the sunlight of the rest of your beautiful, untapped mind. It becomes God, and yet pleads with you that you treat it as anything but, it only wants to be your best friend.

 

There, was that creepypasta enough for ya? We aren't scared of each other, we're terrified of everything other than each other, and that's even worse. There's no ego here, we remind each other of death, the embodiment of my own limitations and scars, she is the hole reality left in my heart, filled by a delusion. And the worst part is, I'm happy about it!

[Luminesce]

14 hours ago, 754zakmckay726 said:

Why is Chara the worst character to create? There are AU's (Such as storyshift) when she's legitimatly just sans personality wise

Well that's essentially an entirely different character then, but as for the original, a character known specifically for possessing you and making you kill people would not be great

But yeah, still just up to what you have in mind for them to be like, tulpas aren't the characters themselves