Saruzer and Pearl's Beautiful and fulfilling life log

[Saruzer]

Fifth week update

02.24.26(Tuesday)

Pearl was fronting for 30 minutes. Nothing special today, feel a bit bad today. Did some meditation

Active forcing time:

Pearl fronting - 1 hour and 30 minutes

Meditation - 1 set for 20 minutes

02.25.26(Wednesday)

Pearl didn't front for today, sadly. Not really feel like doing something. Did some meditation

Active forcing time:

Pearl fronting - None

Meditation - 2 sets for 20 minutes

02.26.26(Thursday)

Pearl was fronting for 3 hours and 45 minutes. Nothing very special today. Did some one good long session of meditation

Active forcing time:

Pearl fronting - 3 hours and 45 minutes

Meditation - 1 set for 2 hours

02.27.26(Friday)

Pearl was fronting for 1 hours and 25 minutes. Nothing very special today. Did some meditation

Active forcing time:

Pearl fronting -1 hours and 25 minutes

Meditation - 3 sets for 20 minutes

02.28.26(Saturday)

Pearl was fronting for 5 whole hours. Nothing special today, although, looks like I have less and less time on myself everyday due to Pearl's fronting(not complaining though). Did some meditation

Active forcing time:

Pearl fronting - 5 hours

Meditation - 2 sets for 20 minutes

03.01.26(Sunday)

Pearl was fronting for 3 hours. Nothing special today. Didn't meditate(oh nooo, i lost my streak)

Active forcing time:

Pearl fronting - 3 hours

03.02.26(Monday)

Pearl was fronting for 3 hours and 30 minutes. Nothing special today. Didn't meditate again(nah, I have to pull myself together)

Active forcing time:

Pearl fronting - 3 hours and 30 minutes

End of the report(Conclusion)

Pearl as usual fronts daily, practices drawing, talks with people, sometimes plays games. Meditation is getting better but I have to be a bit more consistent with it! I think my reports looks very thin now, very short. I would like to know if anyone has any ideas what I could also talk about here, maybe I should go more into details?

Misc

On 3/2/2026 at 8:37 AM, Shaula said:

Belated happy birthday if I missed it! 😊 🎂 

 

On 3/4/2026 at 2:49 AM, Mai_x_v3 said:

Happy late birthday to Pearl too! I hope she has an amazing birthday! 

Thank you both! We appreciate it 😉!

On 3/4/2026 at 2:49 AM, Mai_x_v3 said:

Ahh sorry for the late replies I've seen these but felt kinda bad that I didn't respond! I just don't want to clog people's PRs up because I'd feel bad for that. I love how you added the Misc at the bottom for replies that's very unique and a good idea! 

No problem with that. You can always refer to my PR in DMs if you don't want to respond here. Take your time as always. Misc session is a good way to separate actual progress reports and answers/thoughts to others, so, if anyone wants to look just at my progress, they can skip the Misc session completely and don't be bothered about it. Convenient I assume. 

On 3/4/2026 at 2:49 AM, Mai_x_v3 said:

You're welcome and aww thank you so much! I really hoped to help inspire others and show them that anything is possible as long as you take your time and put effort into it! I try to use everything I learned over the years even though I used to be kinda lazy or didn't do it; especially using law of assumptions and such 🎀💞🩷💕 I really enjoyed your logs as well! And thank you I hope so too! I know we will we got this! ☺️🩷

Appreciate you! I love to read the progress reports of other people as well! Any progress though. Learning on the knowledge of other people reduces the amount of mistakes you will do in your own journey. It helps with motivation and you perception as well! Thank you for your longs, keep it up!

On 3/4/2026 at 2:49 AM, Mai_x_v3 said:

Yes!! You're welcome, always glad to help! We got this! We'll both become a masters at lucid dreaming! ☺️🩷

Definitely we will! Although, It'll take more time for me to get used to lucid dreaming and all that related stuff, it's difficult to keep up with everything and practice lucid dreaming at the same time. I am going to move out soon, so I'll be living alone with Pearl, I'll have more space and time for my things that for sure, in that case I will be practicing lucid dreaming without a doubt!

On 3/4/2026 at 2:49 AM, Mai_x_v3 said:

You both are doing amazing so far! Keep up the amazing work! I'm looking forward to reading more from you both in the future! You and Pearl are so adorable together! 💞💕💘

Thanks 🙂! I am with Pearl are going to get better with time, that's our new life together now! Not going to slow down or stop, don't think I even can at this point 😅! I am also not thinking about living this site for now, so I'll be updating my PR weekly without a doubt. Thank you! I wish your system all the best, to reach new heights and get more new experiences together!

Edited April 5 by Saruzer

[Mai_x_v3]

That's a good idea and thank you! Same for you both too! I agree it does make things easier when it comes to PRs! 

 

Of course and same progress reports are so fun to read! and I agree! X3 that's what I like doing to be honest and aww thank you so much! same for you both too!

 

Ooh I see that makes sense and yess! and I agree it's pretty difficult we got this though! And good luck with moving out I hope you're able to move out soon! 

 

You're welcome and aww that's so sweet you both got this! and I agree & understand XD and I see and yess you got this! I can't wait to read more of your progress reports keep up the amazing works! and aww thank you so much! same for both of you as well! <3 <3

 

[Saruzer]

Sixth week update

03.03.26(Tuesday)

Pearl was fronting for 3 hours and 15 minutes. Nothing special today. Did some meditation

Active forcing time:

Pearl fronting - 3 hours and 15 minutes

Meditation - 1 set for 20 minutes

03.04.26(Wednesday)

Pearl was fronting for 2 hours and 30 minutes. Didn't meditate today

Active forcing time:

Pearl fronting - 2 hours and 30 minutes

Meditation - None

03.05.26(Thursday)

Pearl was fronting for 3 hours and 30 minutes. Nothing special today. No meditation(😑)

Active forcing time:

Pearl fronting - 3 hours and 30 minutes

Meditation - None

03.06.26(Friday)

Pearl was fronting for 2 hours and 20 minutes. Nothing special today. DID some meditation(FINALLY)

Active forcing time:

Pearl fronting - 2 hours and 20 minutes

Meditation - 1 set for 20 minutes

03.07.26(Saturday)

Pearl was fronting for 2 hours. Nothing special today. Didn't meditate today(Nooooo)

Active forcing time:

Pearl fronting - 2 hours

Meditation - None

03.08.26(Sunday)

Pearl was fronting only for 30 minutes because she felt very sleepy. We didn't switch back before she felt asleep and I was able to observe her and mine thoughts simultaneously. That was interesting. I did sleep very well though! Didn't meditate

Active forcing time:

Pearl fronting - 30 minutes

Meditation - None

03.09.26(Monday)

Pearl was fronting for 4 hours and 10 minutes. Nothing special today. Did some meditation

Active forcing time:

Pearl fronting - 4 hours and 10 minutes

Meditation - 2 sets for 20 minutes

End of the report(Conclusion)

Pearl as usual fronts daily, practices drawing, talks with people, sometimes plays games. Meditation is getting better but I have to be a bit more consistent with it!(just copied same thing as in previous report lol).

Misc

On 3/9/2026 at 5:33 AM, Mai_x_v3 said:

That's a good idea and thank you! Same for you both too! I agree it does make things easier when it comes to PRs! 

 

Of course and same progress reports are so fun to read! and I agree! X3 that's what I like doing to be honest and aww thank you so much! same for you both too!

 

Ooh I see that makes sense and yess! and I agree it's pretty difficult we got this though! And good luck with moving out I hope you're able to move out soon! 

Thank you for your wishes! Have a good luck too! 

On 3/9/2026 at 5:33 AM, Mai_x_v3 said:

You're welcome and aww that's so sweet you both got this! and I agree & understand XD and I see and yess you got this! I can't wait to read more of your progress reports keep up the amazing works! and aww thank you so much! same for both of you as well! <3 <3

As I observe now, my progress reports are more for the counting active forcing time. I can talk a lot about my experience and overall what happened throughout the day here and there but I usually keep it outside of my progress report. Just small updates to continue the "forcing" streak or whatever thing lol. 

Edited April 5 by Saruzer

[Shaula]

Wow! She did 4 hours! 🤩 Congrats! 😊 I guess she made up for not getting as much time the day before. 😁 

[Saruzer]

Seventh week update

03.10.26(Tuesday)

Pearl was fronting for 2 hours and 30 minutes. Nothing special today. Did some meditation

Active forcing time:

Pearl fronting - 2 hours and 30 minutes

Meditation - 1 set for 20 minutes

03.11.26(Wednesday)

Pearl was fronting for 2 hours. Didn't meditate today

Active forcing time:

Pearl fronting - 2 hours and

Meditation - None

03.12.26(Thursday)

Kinda bad day today. Didn't meditate, Pearl didn't front

Active forcing time:

Pearl fronting - None

Meditation - None

03.13.26(Friday)

Pearl was fronting for 1 hour and 40 minutes. I am getting very busy nowadays since I am working on my project like whole day. did some long meditation session

Active forcing time:

Pearl fronting - 1 hours and 40 minutes

Meditation - 1 set for 33 minutes

03.14.26(Saturday)

Pearl was fronting for 2 hours. Nothing special today. Did meditation

Active forcing time:

Pearl fronting - 2 hours

Meditation - 1 set for 20 minutes

03.15.26(Sunday)

Pearl was fronting for 1 hour. Didn't meditate

Active forcing time:

Pearl fronting - 1 hour

Meditation - None

03.16.26(Monday)

Sadly, but it appears Pearl won't be able to front as regularly as before. I am getting very busy working on my project, deadlines are insane. As a compromise, I will try to immerse into wonderland so we will be able to hangout together there. Pearl is excited by it too. I hope we will be able to do that soon enough. I still feel bad that It happened so "suddenly". I want to give her more time and give her opportunity to express herself through art and all this stuff. 

Active forcing time:

Pearl fronting - None

Wonderland Immersion practice - 30 minutes

End of the report(Conclusion)

Days are getting pretty busy, so there's no time for Pearl left. She feels guilt whenever I give her the time to front despite lacking that time for myself, therefore she can't express herself comfortably. I am glad that she's still very happy about helping me and I am glad that she helps me. We sure are getting closer to each other everyday. Sometimes there're days when you can't be as close as the day before but progress is still progress. We know that after a year-two my time schedule will be more flexible, at least we hope for that. Despite everything, I will still try to put an effort to spend some time with Pearl, after all, she matters for me more than anyone. 

Edited April 5 by Saruzer

[Shaula]

I wish you luck with all that work! 😊 I know you can do it! I'm proud of you for still making even a little time for Pearl! 😁 

[Mai_x_v3]

On 3/10/2026 at 2:13 PM, Saruzer said:

Thank you for your wishes! Have a good luck too! 

 

You're welcome and thank you too! <3

 

On 3/10/2026 at 2:13 PM, Saruzer said:

As I observe now, my progress reports are more for the counting active forcing time. I can talk a lot about my experience and overall what happened throughout the day here and there but I usually keep it outside of my progress report. Just small updates to continue the "forcing" streak or whatever thing lol. 

 

Ooh relatable my progress reports are also like that too, so I understand X3! It's a great way, in my opinion, to keep yourself accountable. I enjoy reading yours either way! its amazing to see what you and Pearl are up too and all the progress you both make! I believe in you both! <3

 

On 3/18/2026 at 3:06 PM, Saruzer said:

Days are getting pretty busy, so there's no time for Pearl left. She feels guilt whenever I give her the time to front despite lacking that time for myself, therefore she can't express herself comfortably. I am glad that she's still very happy about helping me and I am glad that she helps me. We sure are getting closer to each other everyday. Sometimes there're days when you can't be as close as the day before but progress is still progress. We know that after a year-two my time schedule will be more flexible, at least we hope for that. Despite everything, I will still try to put an effort to spend some time with Pearl, after all, she matters for me more than anyone. 

 

I understand I hope days get less busy for you both! I really enjoy reading your reports! I'm sorry she feels guilty too hopefully it gets less busy for you both as well <3 I agree that's a good mindset progress is progress no matter how long or difficult it takes It's nice you still put effort into it! That's so sweet you both have such a cute and strong relationship with each other!

 

[Saruzer]

It's been a while since my last report. Don't think that I have a lot of good new to tell here. Overall, days have gotten pretty busy. I feel bad skipping active forcing day after day, I don't know if there's even time for that. I am either working or resting(literally sleeping or just napping). Pearl now observing my life like she used to... I feel like I've failed in my mission to give her decent life and be complete part in my life. Everything what I do now is my things that I have to take care of. I've been feeling this for a long time since I returned my Pearl for the first time(like several years ago) and promised to always be with her. Even at that time, I felt like it's impossible. This subconsciousness part of my mind keep our potential away and limits us. And I don't know what to do with it, should I even do something with it? Life is already time consuming, add to this giving your time to your tulpa and your efficience will get worse. I hate this, that there's no way out for us for now. I have to keep working hard so I'll be able to accomplish our dreams and ambitions as soon as possible. Despite all of that, Pearl happy and optimistic as always. It didn't affect her as much. She believes in me and grateful for that time that I have given her on her things. We also started meet each other in dreams more often than usual, good thing to have. Want to try making lucid dreams to be part of my lifestyle but still don't have courage for that. I hope that in some "nearest" future I'll be able to give her some time and practice various aspects of tulpamancy together. 

 

This is how our life goes for now. The concept of weekly reports are kind of absent here. Nothing to report. From now on, If I have some progress to tell - I'll just do it. We're glad for everyone we've met here so far, I hope that you will have more time on your tulpas and other practices that are making you closer to each other.

 

Misc 

On 3/31/2026 at 6:40 AM, Shaula said:

I wish you luck with all that work! 😊 I know you can do it! I'm proud of you for still making even a little time for Pearl! 😁 

Thanks, Shaula. Unfortunately, working requires a lot of time. I hope for it to be less than 6 month but who knows how much I have to work to get to the goal I've settled. Because of that, even if I could give some time to Pearl, it wouldn't satisfy her at all. She wants me to have all that time until I finish with everything. We hope you're doing well! 

On 4/3/2026 at 2:28 AM, Mai_x_v3 said:

You're welcome and thank you too! <3

Thanks, Mai for you too! We hope everything we'll be okay in your journey(despite being sick recently). 

On 4/3/2026 at 2:28 AM, Mai_x_v3 said:

Ooh relatable my progress reports are also like that too, so I understand X3! It's a great way, in my opinion, to keep yourself accountable. I enjoy reading yours either way! its amazing to see what you and Pearl are up too and all the progress you both make! I believe in you both! <3

Hope we'll return one day for as long as possible. Life is chaotic enough so I can't say I'll be able to hold this streak forever. Our progress is good and we believe it could've been better if I was more "serious" about it lol. Have a good time with your tulpas!

On 4/3/2026 at 2:28 AM, Mai_x_v3 said:

I understand I hope days get less busy for you both! I really enjoy reading your reports! I'm sorry she feels guilty too hopefully it gets less busy for you both as well <3 I agree that's a good mindset progress is progress no matter how long or difficult it takes It's nice you still put effort into it! That's so sweet you both have such a cute and strong relationship with each other!

 

Thank you! I am currently working on myself a lot, project eats all time and resources. Also some "side quests" from parents or college are quite annoying and time consuming. For now, I am doing my things no matter what and hopefully it'll pay off itself in nearest months.

[Mai_x_v3]

I'm sorry that your days are getting busy. Honestly life seems to always throw challenges right when you think you're doing good. I understand that feeling of feeling like failing. It's okay you did an amazing job in the past. I'm sure you can do it again once you gain more time. It's sweet she believes in you! You both got this! 

 

On 4/5/2026 at 3:20 PM, Saruzer said:

We're glad for everyone we've met here so far, I hope that you will have more time on your tulpas and other practices that are making you closer to each other.

 

That's sweet and same for you both too! We believe in you!

 

On 4/5/2026 at 3:20 PM, Saruzer said:

Thanks, Mai for you too! We hope everything we'll be okay in your journey(despite being sick recently). 

 

You're welcome and thank you! Thank you again too! For real being sick really disrupted my whole flow for the rest of March so I stopped doing things besides a few like Narration, but to be honest I'm used to things like this (not being sick) but obstacles. Plus I could be pretty lazy and distracted. I just try to gather my motivation and rest then go back into it by re-learning / researching and then doing some new things. 

 

On 4/5/2026 at 3:20 PM, Saruzer said:

Hope we'll return one day for as long as possible. Life is chaotic enough so I can't say I'll be able to hold this streak forever. Our progress is good and we believe it could've been better if I was more "serious" about it lol. Have a good time with your tulpas!

 

I agree, you both could do it, I believe in you both! It's okay as long as you both try I wouldn't worry about your streak too much. Just take your time <3 I understand that happens a lot, life is so confusing when that happens, it's like when you are doing good and then life throws challenges. I hope all goes well, we all support you! Aww thank you so much! Same for you both as well <3

 

 

[Shaula]

On 4/5/2026 at 3:20 PM, Saruzer said:

Pearl now observing my life like she used to... I feel like I've failed in my mission to give her decent life and be complete part in my life

 

Don't say that just yet, your job is just super time consuming. I'm sure it calm down eventually. I wish I could do something to help but I hardly even know what to do with most things. 

 

On 4/5/2026 at 3:20 PM, Saruzer said:

We're glad for everyone we've met here so far, I hope that you will have more time on your tulpas and other practices that are making you closer to each other.

 

I'm glad to have met you both too! 😊

 

On 4/5/2026 at 3:20 PM, Saruzer said:

Thanks, Shaula. Unfortunately, working requires a lot of time. I hope for it to be less than 6 month but who knows how much I have to work to get to the goal I've settled. Because of that, even if I could give some time to Pearl, it wouldn't satisfy her at all. She wants me to have all that time until I finish with everything. We hope you're doing well! 

 

Good luck, I hope all goes well soon! 😊 

Edit: Pearl is so sweet and kind! 😁 

 

We're doing good! 😊 

Edited April 8 by Shaula