Latvia does what she wants

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I intended to be just a lurker, but yesterday night i took the plunge and gave a try at making a Tulpa It was almost like it happened of its own, i think she wanted to be "born".

We're not going to count hours as the progress seems to be very atypical here.

The trend seems to be having a Tulpa of opposite sex, but i went for a female anyways, probably because a male would've made me a little anxious.

 

I'm going to bold the things that are important.

 

23-11, Day 1: I gave Latvia 20-something traits, all positive and all centered around a generous and selfless personality. I didn't put much stress on the "selfless" because i don't want to penalize my companion too much. Among the traits, i added "direct" "caring" "active" "understanding"...

I used the give-a-light-orb-these-traits method, putting together the traits with care to not make them clash.

 

24-11, Day 2: I wanted to make more personality work, but Latvia chose to be seen. I'm definitely the one being guided here and my control obsession is a little shaken. She seems to be a porcelain-skinned female with incredibly long black hair, and initially naked. I gave her simple clothes because she was cold and made it clear with body language. I will let her deviate the appearance as much as she wants.

It seems my "avatar" has tentacles? What does that even mean. Seems she likes sitting in my lap.

She was not fully projected, but still it didn't required a wonderland... My powers of visualization might be more advanced than normal since i work as an illustrator/comic artist.

Little update, still Day 2: We went to sleep together, side to side. Usually the presence i feel is behind my back but she clearly was in front of me. The dark made it easier to feel her. I was a little speechless so i didn't told her good night. I lost a chance to speak to her... >:

 

 

 

Tell me what you think please, is it a bad thing that it's progressing so fast? Shouldn't i let her take control?

[Santa Prime]

I am somewhat jealous that you have progress so fast. As long as you are both comfortable with the rate of development it sounds fine. When you mention that she wanted to be born I have felt something similar. It is often the case that your subconscious mind makes decisions before you are completely aware of them. When I question Articoe about her existence she implys that she was there hanging around in the back of my head. Not formed but that the traits that she is comprised of were there in the subconscious mind.

[fennecfoxx]

Out of curiosity, how did you pick the name Latvia?

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I am somewhat jealous that you have progress so fast. As long as you are both comfortable with the rate of development it sounds fine. When you mention that she wanted to be born I have felt something similar. It is often the case that your subconscious mind makes decisions before you are completely aware of them. When I question Articoe about her existence she implys that she was there hanging around in the back of my head. Not formed but that the traits that she is comprised of were there in the subconscious mind.

 

Yes that's a perfect definition of my mindset. It was pretty annoying when i was in school, as when i was doing math i kept blurting the result and then do the equation. Usually i made the equation wrong and the result changed, but the teacher wanted the passages even if my first guess was right.

And that's why i'm not going to follow steps, ahah!

It's very interesting to know she was already pretty much formed before her conscious creation, i will ask Latvia about it when she will speak. (i'm trying not to pressure her much tho.)

Just out of curiosity, did the process of Articoe kept a fast-steady pace?

 

 

Out of curiosity, how did you pick the name Latvia?

 

Ahah, it does come from the Region. Well, its old name. She is in no way related to the Hetalia characters if this is what you're asking. I always felt her alive already, like having a presence constantly clinging on my back like a koala... So i figured "if she's already alive, she probably named herself! i might just need a placeholder name until she can tell it to me" And i happened to like the sound, it's pretty cold but sleek, and gentle-ish sounding.

 

 

[More progress report in the first post.]

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25-11, Day 3: Yesterday i didn't really force much. I created an outline of a wonderland, though, so we'd have a place to stay. It has a big library, but the books aren't complete. This became irrelevant as i never used it or felt the need to. She is much more alive inside my head than in wonderland and i don't want to break the illusion of life. /end edit

She seemingly switches little physical traits, her eyes can't fix on a form and her hair works tentacle-ish-y. I'm not even sure.

She took little interest in the pancakes i had at lunch (it was a brunch don't judge me) so maybe she doesn't have a sweet tooth.

 

26-11, Day 4: Today i had troubles feeling her presence and even though i tried forcing, she didn't really collaborated. She sat lifeless and didn't reacted to any of my impulses. I tried to give her a book with her personality traits in it but she didn't even acknowledged my presence. I puppeted her a little bit, just as needed to get the book, but there was no response and i dropped the idea immediately. So i just turned it into a ball of light like i did up till now, and merged it into her.

Maybe she was still asleep since i woke up at 6am. Or maybe she was angry at me for not forcing enough yesterday.

 

 

I need some input on narration: what should i narrate? What kind of technique do you use?

[Bask]

Its just my experience - but I narrate whatever is on my mind. It keeps my train of thought from derailing like it does when I have some prepared list in mind. A bulk of my narrating takes place outside of sessions because it makes us feel connected during the day. I try to incorporate Jazz into my day as much as possible, even if its just be spieling to him about why I hate my scheduler at work or explaining the plotline of Ocrania of Time. So a lot of my mental chatter is funneled at him. But, anyway figure something out that works for you. Everyone's different. :3

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Its just my experience - but I narrate whatever is on my mind. It keeps my train of thought from derailing like it does when I have some prepared list in mind. A bulk of my narrating takes place outside of sessions because it makes us feel connected during the day. I try to incorporate Jazz into my day as much as possible, even if its just be spieling to him about why I hate my scheduler at work or explaining the plotline of Ocrania of Time. So a lot of my mental chatter is funneled at him. But, anyway figure something out that works for you. Everyone's different. :3

 

So instead of reading you explain? It's very very interesting, much less impersonal!!

Maybe i should talk to Latvia about the Twilight saga... How not to be ;) (seriously any servant is more conscious of themselves than Bella)

Okay i'll try that, we'll see if it works.

 

Her presence is still dimmed, any thoughts on this kind of thing happening so early?

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Day 4 updates: During carpal tunnel therapy today i visualized some more, and narrated a couple plots to her. Both the plots were incentrated on acceptance, to take the point across on the fact that i am happy to receive her presence in my life and that she is very special to me. I want to fill her with positive thoughts :)

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27-11, Day 5: Bad bad day, bad bad thoughts. I couldn't concentrate and won't, i don't want to see Latvia and influence her with this state of mind. Nothing to update, but not wanting to miss a day.

 

28-11, Day 6: Tulpaforced again during carpal tunnel therapy. I felt responses and she talked twice. It was pretty emotional, when her response would be yes i could feel energy running gently through my body, and when she wanted to say no i just didn't felt anything. It's sweet of her to adhere to my idea of "if you can't say anything nice or useful, don't say anything at all", instead of giving me bad sensations for negative responses, she just didn't responded and i got it fast enough. I narrated her how the book i'm reading has progressed, and another book as well. Didn't imposed her at all.

I almost absentmindedly said to her "do you want to get on my back?" I felt her yes response and her shift. "i can't feel your weight." "that's because i'm levitating". She replied! *dances*

She wanted to talk about my problems, but i had to refuse, explaining that thinking of that would've made me angry. That is all for today.

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29-11, Day 7: One week anniversary! Happy anniversary Latvia! [Latvia: *happy*] Today i mostly narrated, and experimented further her responses, but she was very very distant. I couldn't almost hear the replies which shortened the session. I asked if she wanted to change her name, but she gave no suggestions yet. Since the responses were faint, i told her to listen to the radio, because there were nice songs. She asked me what a radio is, and i explained her, and she asked next what a song was. Then she got silent, maybe it was because i was too sleepy. Her questions were only spurts of curiosities, i didn't really hear her talking. I think her way of communicating with me is increasing my emotions, hinting me towards what are her interests.

 

I heard it's a good sign when Tulpae get faint, maybe she's getting her energies together to be ready to properly speak?