Sing Adventures Into the world of Tulpa

[Sing]

Sing here. Some of you folks may have met me in the IRC Chat, although if not that is understandable. I'm going into tulpa creation and I wanted to create this thread. Probably won't be updating daily or anything though. Probably weekly though.

 

Anyways I have some reasons for creating a tulpa, most not really tied to lonliness or anything. I don't go in for the metaphysical, and I don't fully buy the math skill idea regarding tulpa.

 

I have a walk in the morning and evening that puts me at about 20-30 minutes each walk. I also try to squeeze in a 30 minute+ "force" (I don't care for that word) session before heading to bed. Not really timing though.

 

I haven't been at this for long but I intend to see it through for the foreseeable future. I don't normally have much interests in the world of sciences including psychology, but I am looking at this with more of a research perspective; although that doesn't mean I'm looking at my tulpa as a test subject or something I'll discard.

 

I want to mainly look over progress at the close of this month, although even if I don't see massive progress or even vocal response from my Tulpa I will keep with it.

[Upper Class Twit]

Can't wait to hear of your progress. If you don't mind me asking, what form are you going for regarding your Tulpa?

[Sing]

Can't wait to hear of your progress. If you don't mind me asking, what form are you going for regarding your Tulpa?

 

Well I was initially kind of having a cartoony cloud figure with me till a final form was chosen by the Tulpa, it ended up being an OC Pony. I'm okay with that, but I've encouraged/stated that I would be fine if she changed into something else (hell just a cloud lol). Granted for now it seems the form is sticking.

 

I did want to ask if any folks have opinions on Fede's methods stated in his guide?

[Upper Class Twit]

For me, Fede's stuff is no different form any other things. It varies form person to person, but I've had productive sessions with Eric Clapton's "Layla", for me being able to concentrate is better then having easier hallucinations, your Tulpa is going to hear it one way or another, in personality I would just stick to something that you can keep your focus with. For example, an Alpha wave biaural beat is fantastic for making Meletonin because it stimulates the Pinneal gland, so hallucinations happen easier. Down side it's hard to stay focused because your brain is so relaxed and ready to sleep. So its not good for Tulpa Forcing.

[Sing]

So something very strange occurred. It seems that at night or way early morning, I somehow retained information. For some reason my mind "saw" my tulpa operating the computer and opening My Ebay page, or at least it seemed to.

 

Everything was blurred so text was not even close to readable, but an item was no longer under "Selling" meaning it sold. So these items have been up for around 1 week and are under Buy it Now, so them selling isn't really expected.

 

I wake up and check My.Ebay and realize one item did indeed sell. A laptop sold for $310. So I asked in the IRC about this as it seemed puzzling to say the least. The response was that it could be sleep walking, which would make sense. Granted there are numerous holes in that idea:

 

• I would have to be able to get across the mess of my room that has become an inventory room due to resale.
  
• Get to the computer, open a browser, open My.Ebay, and get to the selling area.
  
• Retain information from that page
  
• Get across and fall back asleep on my couch.
  
• I also have no history of sleep walking to my knowledge
  

 

Upper, I was referring more to the idea of parroting and puppeting a tulpa. http://tulpa.info/forums/Thread-Fede-s-Ultimate-Superior-Tulpa-Guide

[Upper Class Twit]

Ah, Well then they're good ideas in the earlier stages, though I'd only use it to get her voice right and get body motions right. YMMV so I wouldn't recommend following exactly what anyone says.

[Sing]

So while things seemed to be going quite good, something odd happened during a session that kind of "freaked" me out for lack of a better term. My tulpa seemed to have acted like a dog upon me dropping into wonderland. I couldn't get a standard conversation response (even if I parrot) from her, and while I had an urge to immediately snap back to "reality" I stuck around to see if it would change. For the moments I was there it didn't.

 

I snapped back to reality and hoped to be able to just have some form of communication with her, but nothing really seemed to happen. The experience sort of screwed with me in various ways, and just left a "disturbed" feeling. I had a pet pass away somewhat recently, but the pet's death and the tulpa are by no means connected in terms of why I began all of this. I hope things will sort of return to the way things were between us tonight or tomorrow, but things still feel off after that incident.

[Sing]

Well we got through that last odd experience and things seem back to normal.

 

Oddly there does seem to be a "issue" for lack of a better term. Even though our conversations seem more natural than ever, we can't seem to have the words come from her.

I don't mean as in the thoughts aren't hers, but just in terms of the physical spectrum. Like her form doesn't speak, but she just speaks in my head.

I reckon this is mostly just me needing to work on visualization more, but I'm unsure.