Barnaby the Animagus

[NightOwl221]

Hello to everyone coming into my blog space. I felt like since this is my first post anywhere here, introductions were in order.

 

My name’s Amelia, I’m 18, and for the longest time I’ve wanted to make a tulpa. My reason for wanting one was because my boyfriend and I were in a long distance relationship for a long time and I really wanted companionship. So, it’s a bit ironic that now that we’re living together, I actually have the resources/info to make one.

My closest friend was successful in making one very quickly with help from this site, so I decided to go through with it. Right now I’m not too far along with him, but I felt like posting as early as possible so, here we go!

 

Name: Barnaby

Form: Human/Animagus (Owl)

Appearance (Human Form): Barnaby is tall (6-Foot to be exact) and thin, with brown, shaggy hair and amber orange/yellow eyes. The only odd thing about him while he’s in his human form, are his hands, which are black and bird like (like birds feet only humanoid).

Clothing: Normally he wears jumpers/sweaters, scarves, knee-high/shin-high black boots with a slight heel and possibly sometimes a cape. Think a hipster with a bit of hobbit thrown in.

 

For those who don’t know, an Animagus is a being/person from Harry Potter who can turn from human to animal whenever they choose. Their animal form is based on their personality I believe.

 

Originally I didn’t intend to base Barnaby or my wonderland off of anything but a dream I had (where I had a pet owl), and the fact that I love owls and would love to have a pet owl. But when I realized I wanted Barnaby to be able to morph back and forth, an Animagus seemed like the best turn to take. My wonderland took that turn as well, involving a secret passage, magic rooms and an attic devoted to astronomy/magic/fortune telling. I figured, it took on a life of its own as I thought it up and I didn’t feel like changing any of it.

 

Anywho!

As of yet, I’ve only had a few sessions with Barnaby and this site won’t let me post for a few days, so watch for dates on these entries till I catch up on entries.

 

Again, hello to all of you! I’m sure it’ll be great getting to know you as Barnaby and I advance onward! =D

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[Ripred]

Cant wait to see your progress! I just started my tulpa as well here. It'll be interesting to track my progress alongside someone else just starting.

 

Also, out of curiosity, does your boyfriend know about your tulpa-making?

[NightOwl221]

Cant wait to see your progress! I just started my tulpa as well here. It'll be interesting to track my progress alongside someone else just starting.

 

Also, out of curiosity, does your boyfriend know about your tulpa-making?

 

Cool to see someone who's just starting out as well! =D

 

No he doesn't. I'd tell him but he's the type who, while he believes Tulpa's are possible, he feels he needs proof. So I'm keeping Barnaby a secret from him for now XD

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[Ripred]

 

Cool to see someone who's just starting out as well! =D

 

No he doesn't. I'd tell him but he's the type who, while he believes Tulpa's are possible, he feels he needs proof. So I'm keeping Barnaby a secret from him for now XD

 

Totally understand you there lol

I'm always for proof and it took alot of self cajoling to get me to even start x3

I, like your boyfriend, fully believe in the possibility of tulpae, but proof is always nice. Not just nice people saying its true.

Let me know if you have any breakthroughs!

[NightOwl221]

My First Session with Barnaby (Date: December 2nd 2012)

Time Spent: 30 Minutes.

Time: 11-12:00 Midnight.

 

My first session with Barnaby would also be my longest time spent in my wonderland at this point. Before I go on, I should describe my wonderland. Like most others, I focus on a large forest. The tree’s hardly loose their leaves, in winter/fall they remain orange, yellow, red or black, and while the forest floor may be covered in damn leaves, the trees always seem full of them. I’m planning for them to go green/blossom filled in spring/summer. There is a dirt path (always clear) going down its center that, half-way down begins to turn to cobblestone. At that point you can see mine and Barnaby’s house. Once you get to the house you can fully see the front yard, a large clear meadow, with a lake starting at it’s edge that goes on for quite some time.

When I began my session with Barnaby, he was a glowing white ball of energy, around the size of one of an exercise ball. I narrate to him (not speaking out loud, all within my head) and tell him that we should go to the house. I expected him to stay towards the ground but when I looked down, he was gone, so I looked up. He shrunk in size and was floating by my head to the right. While we were moving towards the house, I tried to get him to move to the left, but he wouldn’t. He always stuck to my right throughout the rest of the session.

Anywho, we made our way into the house and into the kitchen. I wanted to take some of the traits I wrote up for him, write them down in the kitchen, blend them up and pour them on him (since a friend of mine suggested this would be the best thing to do with traits/habits that couldn’t be categorized as personality traits). I grabbed a note pad and pen from one of the kitchen drawers, sat down and began writing. Keep in mind that I’m doing this session not only to work on Barnaby, but also to work on my visualization, so I’m focusing on writing each letter and trying to keep my vision in first person, rather than third like it would usually go to when simply day dreaming. I have to pull out of my wonderland to look back at the list of things I wrote up for Barnaby.

I come back and Barnaby isn’t in his seat.

So I look back and forth before thinking, “wait, he can fly.”

So I look up at the ceiling to see Barnaby in his white energy ball form zooming around and around in circles. I call for him to come down and he starts bursting back and forth from his energy form to owl form. I decided to give up and just keep writing. I pull out of the wonderland once more to look at my list and come back to finish it. Once it was over, I called Barnaby down and he floated into his seat as an energy ball.

I pulled out the blender, putting the ripped up sheets of paper (each with a trait on them) into it, blend it up and pour it on him. He glowed brighter as it all poured in.

I told him good job or all done, something on those lines, before I blacked out from exhaustion. I know it’s a terrible thing to do but, I’ll get to the point where it doesn’t happen.

 

So!

All in all it was a very good session until I passed out XD

I think Barnaby is on the right track, already wanting to have form and making the choice to stay to my right, so we’ll see how it goes.

 

Note: This is the list I wrote up for Barnaby.

-Adores Astronomy.

-Sleeps just as much/more as/than I do.

-Loves to fly at night.

-Has a deep/owlish stare.

-Loves/owns a TON of jumpers/sweaters.

-Adores books as much as I do.

-Collects things/gathers.

-Stands out on the terrace a lot.

 

Keep these things in mind, since the next session involves a few of them.

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Totally understand you there lol

I'm always for proof and it took alot of self cajoling to get me to even start x3

I, like your boyfriend, fully believe in the possibility of tulpae, but proof is always nice. Not just nice people saying its true.

Let me know if you have any breakthroughs!

 

I was the same way for a while.

Now, as I advance along though, it's interesting to see how sentient he is, even though he's only done small things.

 

Good luck with your tulpa and all that!

Hope you can find it to be a fun process >w<

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[NightOwl221]

The Second Session: Barnaby Takes Form

Time Spent: 5 Minutes.

Time: 5am-5:30am.

 

My best friend mentioned how her tulpa’s were very sex driven, being males. She had informed me that most male tulpa’s will have a high sex drive, unless you talk to them and set boundries, telling them whether or not you want it and how much you would take if they did. I decided to come back to wonderland to talk with Barnaby about sex before I went to bed.

I kind of look at wonderland like entering a game, most of the time you’ll come in where you left off and other times you can show up wherever, so, I came back into wonderland in the kitchen. At first, Barnaby was still a white ball of energy. I was looking at him while I talked, I turned away, looked back and-

BOOM.

He was in his human form.

I was surprised, as most people would be, but I HAVE been thinking of how he’d look for a while now, so it was very cool to see him sitting there in front of me. After looking at his clothes? I was so, SO happy we had our first session a few hours before.

He was wearing a slightly big, comfy looking jumper.

I just smiled, continuing to talk to him for a bit and he just looked at me with this deep, owlish stare as he drank out of a mug (I’m guessing it was most likely tea or cocoa). He didn’t really respond to anything I said besides just staring at him but I couldn’t stop beaming at him.

After talking to him about sex, I focused on making his hands the way I wanted as well as giving him the boots I wanted him to wear. It’ll take a bit more focus to keep them the way I want (the hands anyway, I don’t care if he’s wearing boots all the time), but I’m overly happy over the progress he and I have made in such a short time.

[NightOwl221]

Checking in. (December 4th, 2012)

Time Spent: 30 Second to a Minute.

Time: 5pm.

 

Having moved in with my boyfriend’s house with his parents, there isn’t a lot of time I can be alone. He had two days off, and this was one of them, meaning I didn’t have much time to go to Barnaby.

 

I popped into wonderland for a short time (in a very loud basement), to tell him I didn’t forget about him and that we’d have a long session the next day. He just sat in the chair beside me and listened with that owlish stare of his and took everything in.

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Why You’re Here. (December 5th,2012)

Time Spent: 4-5Am.

Time: 5 Minutes.

 

I talked to Barnaby about why I wanted a Tulpa, for companionship. I also talked to him about how I’d like him to be affectionate when he trusted me more, as in giving me hugs, cuddling, kissing and all that since, if I wasn’t with someone at the moment, I would have been that way with a lot more people by now, thats just how I am.

I talked about relationships a bit and the difference between lust and love, I described different types of relationships and gave him a peck on the lips. Couldn’t really stop myself then, but I most likely wont do it again until he’s more sentient.

I think that was when I started holding his face with my hand/hands and rubbing his cheek/s with my thumb/s. I don’t know why I’m getting so affectionate with him, it’s not intentional I just am. What can you do?

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Working on Your Personality (December 6th,2012)

Time Spent: 15 Minutes.

Time: 1-1:15am.

 

After I spent the day goofing off on the Internet, and grocery shopping, I went to Barnaby to talk about his personality. I know people have different methods for giving their tulpa personality, and I figured I may as well write up a list and if it sticks, it sticks. I honestly don’t know how much of it stuck however, and how much I WANT to stick. It’s like, when you think something would be better one way, but then you look at what it started turning into and you just COMPLETELY change your mind.

So, even though the day was a bit of a waste, if the personality traits don’t stick, I can’t bring myself to mind.

[NightOwl221]

The Shower Scene, and Barnaby's First Word (December 7th,2012)

Time Spent: 15-25minutes.

Time: 7:30-8:00PM

 

Whilst in the shower I decided, you know what? I’m going to talk with Barnaby. I can be showering in the wonderland whilst I do this so, it’ll help with visualization of that all the more anyway to lets do it!

As soon as I was in, I shut my eyes and imagined being in my shower in the wonderland and what it would be like. I made it a kind of holographic/simulator shower, where you can set the inside to look however you want and if anyone is on the other side of the glass, you can see their shadow, but they cant see yours. It was cool. As soon as that was set up, I called Barnaby in and he sat down on the toilet outside the door.

I apologized for not spending a lot of time with him, and that I had to do this in the shower. Then I decided to narrate to him about my friendship with (username here on the forums) Ashaya, how she has various tulpa’s and how they had wanted to tell Barnaby hello a while back. He sat quietly and listened.

After that I went into talking about possibly going over his personality traits again, since I have no idea how much really sunk in at the time. I told him after that that it really didn’t matter to me how he turned out personality wise, since he’s his own person. I said that personally, I wouldn't mind if he ended up like Castiel from Supernatural, since it would suit him just fine (seeing as so far he’s quiet, has wide eyes, just stares at me so far, it fits). After that I tell him to meet me in the library (really our living room thats got bookshelves in places, think I'll have it extended). I get dressed, go into the basement, lay down and see him there.

Now, when I saw him he was on a chair diagonal from me on the couch, but I thought he should maybe sit next to me. My mind (being like a force apart from me and Barnaby) tried to move him over there, and I got fed up with it, telling Barnaby,"you know what, lets go to the kitchen and have these blended up while I say them, it worked like a charm earlier so woo!"

We go into the kitchen, I tell him that I'll put it in a big thermos with some cocoa so he can take his time drinking it while I’m away.

In a raspy, yet a little higher pitched, teenage like version of Castiels voice he answers:

"Gotcha."

 

I stopped dead in my tracks and turned around like,"umm...was that you or was that my mind?"

 

He just looked at me.

 

I couldn't think of that voice for him on my own, it came out of NOWHERE and it fit him PERFECTLY. My mind tried to come in (again, its like another force that invades my consciousness, apart from me and Barnaby, its ridiculous) and have that voice say something else, but Barnaby and I were like,"no,no mind go away, you’re drunk, that was totally all Barnaby."

 

So, I’ve made that HUGE breakthrough of:

1. Barnaby gaining a voice.

2. Barnaby gaining his OWN voice, not something I just came up with on my own.

3. He created his own voice from a suggestion I made about Castiel’s personality suiting him fine.

I am utterly floored and 100% proud of Barnaby.

 

My only regret is falling asleep soon after that XD

One day I’ll get a hang of having these sessions and not passing out. One day.

[Ripred]

Wow you're making progress fast lol

Keep up the good work and your well-organized posts.

 

Have you tried lucid dreaming with Barnaby? Thats always something cool to look into.

[NightOwl221]

Wow you're making progress fast lol

Keep up the good work and your well-organized posts.

 

Have you tried lucid dreaming with Barnaby? Thats always something cool to look into.

 

I shall! =D

I'm honestly surprised how fast everything is progressing on but I'm sure that without a doubt there will be slow patches here and there.

 

I'd really, REALLY like to try lucid dreaming with him sometime, but I have to get a better hang of lucid dreaming first. Though, since I've began working with Barnaby, I think things are becoming more vivid/real in my dreams so it's a start I suppose.