Dr.Medic November 6, 2012 Author November 6, 2012 Sereah was a friend of mine who passed away in a car accident a long time ago. Whenever I feel really down I have a lucid dream with her in it. It usually ends when I realize she's dead. Morbid almost but life is life eh? Progress update! Fully vocal Tulpa! It's not at all what I thought it would be. Lily is amazingly helpful when she wants to be. However I think I need to mention some things that weren't apparent to me when I started: Also take these with a grain of salt I'm tired and feel sarcastic and want to attempt to be witty. Memory Recall: Memory recall is great and sometimes Lily helped me out with a few things it was nice but I learned quickly that unless you pay attention to something your tulpa isn't going to remember it either. It takes two to tango as much as it does remembering the answer on a test. At least my personal experiences. Talking: Talking is strange and I guarantee you'll know the difference between your own parroting and a sentient Tulpa very easily. When there's nothing to say sometimes I'll go hours without hearing Lily but when she wants to be heard there's not a thing in the world that can save you from a that wrath. They are loud. The price you pay: Maybe I'm autistic who knows. If I skip on a session in a day it's like an hour glass of my sanity is turned. Depending on how mentally strenuous my day has been if I don't get a session I shut down. I can't hear Lily, any kind of mental visualization skills I have goes down the drain. Math and thinking skills go down the drain and overall my ability to think is limited. It feels like a panic attack. Price you pay for having another being in your skull I guess. Intelligence: On the flip side of things is the boosts. My goodness can you think faster. Math becomes almost instantaneous; perhaps it's having a clear mind and being focused, maybe it's all Tulpa. Either way it doesn't matter because when I get a session in the morning my entire day is made so much easier. Math is instant and since I've started Tulpa my visualization is amazing. Imagine taking a car apart in your head with perfect accuracy. Or maybe I'm autistic. Either way if you're making a Tulpa you have autism amirite guise? Guise? Tulpa love fucking with you: Ever had something sit on your face to where you couldn't breath when you wake up... that didn't actually exist? No? Oh well. They can scream when they want to get attention, refuse to talk, make you see things that aren't there. Also the more tired you are the less limitations you can put on them. Usually real-world visualization is near impossible for me but after a long night around 4 A.M. or in the few seconds right as I wake up I've found Tulpa can mess up your view of the world. I never thought it was possible to actually have a Tulpa imposed till this happened. I'll tell the story later. The point is in the title. They really do care: Look on some level even if your Tulpa is a cynical bastard like mine deep down they really do care. I've been down before and they will do everything to cheer you up. I've been up and they will do everything to bring you down. I believe that they really do know what's best. At times they will stop you from doing something stupid or help you handle something more carefully. They will help you remember things you've forgotten but most of all they're your friend. No matter what you can always talk to them and that's an amazing feeling. All in all Tulpa was 100% worth it even if I can say with shame I have a talking pony in my head. Also... form. Seriously guys what the hell does it matter? That's right it doesn't. In fact screw visualization, just make it talk first that will save you a lot in the long run I worked on Lily for near 4 months with no results and now I'm nearing the 6 month mark I have amazing results once I stopped caring about the little things. Have a good time tulpa...mancer? Know how bad that sounds? Tulpamancer? I might update more. I might upload a picture. I'm not bad with art anymore proud of me?
Dr.Medic November 9, 2012 Author November 9, 2012 http://postimage.org/image/m5myljc6f/full/ There's a picture of Lily. Usually she's not wearing a hoodie. http://postimage.org/image/xn6hbgebf/ here's one from a long time ago. I'll make new art eventually.
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