Dr.Medic June 8, 2012 June 8, 2012 My own personal log for everything related to Lily. Where to start. I haven't been very active on this forum probably won't be very noticeable except on this thread. I'll go through the basics here. I started around when the tulpa threads began on /mlp/. I started around May 1st I believe and after 11 hours of forcing doing everything wrong I started anew and began Lily! I (correctly) started by following FAQ's guide the best I could. I had around 25 hours of personality forcing when I started narration. I spent many long hours simply talking to Lily. I tried to create a wonderland several times and they never worked. They would start out fairly well but after awhile I would lose interest and blow them up. I continued narrating to Lily for somewhere around 20 days doing random intervals sometimes only a few minutes throughout the day sometimes a few hours when I could find the time. Every few days I would completely go over personality again as a refresher. I believe around the time I'm writing this I'm around 60 hours in and today she finally proved to me she is sentient. Here's a picture of where I first got the idea of using this as a form.
glitchthe3rd June 8, 2012 June 8, 2012 Is tea time, Doktor! "Science isn't about why, science is about why not?" -Cave Johnson Tulpae: Luna, Elise, Naomi My progress report
Dr.Medic June 8, 2012 Author June 8, 2012 I've been having trouble making sure I wasn't parroting her movements so for the past couple days I had been trying to make a wonderland made entirely out of brass clockwork with the walls being entirely made of small cogs. I figure if I can concentrate on thousands of cogs I won't puppet Lily. It didn't work at all. Although here I found a way to clear my mind by collecting all the random thoughts and sorting them, it really helped. I went into a tulpaforcing session. Usually I'm able to call her so I can talk face to face but today I couldn't. So filled with a bit of angst I blew up the wonderland to start over and hopefully find her. When the dust cleared instead of the normal white space a purple door. I can only figure this was a room she created for herself. She was sitting in the middle of the floor with a book looking extremely frustrated. Before this she never showed any emotion at all so a major breakthrough. I went up to her and placed my hand on her head trying to see what she was thinking. Her inner mind was full of random words spinning around, the things we talked about and the traits we spend so long forcing. I believe she had been paying full attention all this time but couldn't combine the all this data into full thoughts or use it in anyway. So we sat down in her little room and sorted all her thoughts for what seemed like hours. I gave her a crash course on basic grammar to help explain what I was saying. This was the first time I truly felt like I was talking to a person. We then went over meditation and how to clear her mind without my help. I gave her a book on how to read and how to write. (A book on how to read?) Then after a few hours inside her room she spoke her first words *squee* "Thank you, but I think I need some alone time." I will gladly have some glitch!
Guest June 8, 2012 June 8, 2012 I've been having trouble making sure I wasn't parroting her movements so for the past couple days I had been trying to make a wonderland made entirely out of brass clockwork with the walls being entirely made of small cogs. I figure if I can concentrate on thousands of cogs I won't puppet Lily. It didn't work at all. Although here I found a way to clear my mind by collecting all the random thoughts and sorting them, it really helped. I went into a tulpaforcing session. Usually I'm able to call her so I can talk face to face but today I couldn't. So filled with a bit of angst I blew up the wonderland to start over and hopefully find her. When the dust cleared instead of the normal white space a purple door. I can only figure this was a room she created for herself. She was sitting in the middle of the floor with a book looking extremely frustrated. Before this she never showed any emotion at all so a major breakthrough. I went up to her and placed my hand on her head trying to see what she was thinking. Her inner mind was full of random words spinning around, the things we talked about and the traits we spend so long forcing. I believe she had been paying full attention all this time but couldn't combine the all this data into full thoughts or use it in anyway. So we sat down in her little room and sorted all her thoughts for what seemed like hours. I gave her a crash course on basic grammar to help explain what I was saying. This was the first time I truly felt like I was talking to a person. We then went over meditation and how to clear her mind without my help. I gave her a book on how to read and how to write. (A book on how to read?) Then after a few hours inside her room she spoke her first words *squee* "Thank you, but I think I need some alone time." I will gladly have some glitch! > I went up to her and placed my hand on her head trying to see what she was thinking. Her inner mind was full of random words spinning around, the things we talked about and the traits we spend so long forcing. I believe she had been paying full attention all this time but couldn't combine the all this data into full thoughts or use it in anyway. You could read your tulpa's mind? > We then went over meditation and how to clear her mind without my help. A tulpa needs to meditate? Aren't their experiences already rather far less cluttered than our own because they don't have to pay attention to the world, just their wonderland?
Dr.Medic June 8, 2012 Author June 8, 2012 More like her mind poured into the room. It's how I deal with my problems so it seemed natural. Reading her mind.. eh yes but not in a traditional sense. Meditation was one of the things we forced on. I have a problem with cluttered mind so again it seemed like the proper thing to do. I don't think all that we went over really sunk in till today when we took some time and went over everything again. It seems meta doesn't it? Meditation within meditation?
Guest June 8, 2012 June 8, 2012 More like her mind poured into the room. It's how I deal with my problems so it seemed natural. Reading her mind.. eh yes but not in a traditional sense. Meditation was one of the things we forced on. I have a problem with cluttered mind so again it seemed like the proper thing to do. I don't think all that we went over really sunk in till today when we took some time and went over everything again. It seems meta doesn't it? Meditation within meditation? ... How did it feel to 'read' her mind? Did you just see "words" or notice sounds/pictures? Just asking because it seems rather unusual compared to what others have said so far. Unusual, but very interesting.
Dr.Medic June 8, 2012 Author June 8, 2012 The words formed in the air. They were 2D, in various colors and semi-transparent. Most of her thoughts were incomplete sentences, random words and traits we forced. A few were logical, "What am I?" being an example. As I went though them they were highlighted and the word was spoken. I took the words and sorted them into workable piles by dragging them. One for traits, one for desires, one for her random thoughts, one for nonsense I couldn't comprehend and piles like that.
Dr.Medic June 19, 2012 Author June 19, 2012 Been doing sessions off and on. Thanks to Fede for those tones. I used to hate them but now tulpatone has been one of the things I look forward to hearing. I've been working a lot on visualization and touch together lately. Yesterday it donned on me that the reason I've only been getting little vocal snippits is because I'm not constantly talking to Lily. May seem stupid now but I would only talk when I had a problem to discuss or I was in a room with no one else around. I've been working on doing it whenever I can now. Lily has said a few other words in the past few weeks. She now actively moves around when I work on visualization and does what she pleases. Her movement started when I was starting to work on other kinds To get an idea of movement I made a pool to test out swimming animations because I was having troubles with running. Without having to focus she just jumped in and had perfect swimming movements that was beyond anything I could of consciously mimicked. After swimming drying off proved a great way to get a bit of practice with touch, using a towel to dry her. It's been good stuff.
Dr.Medic July 20, 2012 Author July 20, 2012 I had a dream. A beautiful dream. In it I talked to a friend who passed away a year ago. Whenever I find myself in times of stress I dream from her always calms me down and makes me take a different view on life. These past few weeks I've barely Tulpa or anything actually. I've been in such a daze and depression that nothing was even happening. I had no reason to be sad but I was. Today I feel so much better. I can think, I can feel, most of all Lily jumped from whisper to so vocal I feel crazy. What happened in the dream? I don't remember it much but it had a wonderful effect on my life. I feel almost stupid posting this but thank you, Sereah.
Semi-Nomadic July 20, 2012 July 20, 2012 Hm... I don't really understand, but it certainly sounds like something fascinating happened to you. Who's Sereah?
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