kwilson2014 July 22, 2013 July 22, 2013 First off im sorry if theres already posts like this i find it hard to navigate this site on my tablet which is the only form of computer i use anymore; and secondly im really new to the world of tulpae. I think it was just over 6 months ago i read the creepypasta and became interested in the idea and read a few guides and decided to jump in. Where im at if its even a place is trying to talk to my tulpa and parrot it ( which also should i not call him/her it if i havent really fully visualized him/her yet?) And i dont deny the presence of it. I feel it with me at all times and often imagine its response to different things based on its personality traits that i wrote down and gave it but im not sure where i need to be now or even if im suppose to be at the steps i am right now and most guides ive found just tend to confuse me. Help?
Zer0.iNSaNiTY July 22, 2013 July 22, 2013 Ugh, dat creepypasta mane e.e; The guides are there as guidelines, making a tulpa's not black and white. As far as I see, you're doing okai so far (to those anti-parroting people maybe not, but i don't see anything wrong with it when you're starting). A form may be helpful if you feel like you're talking to yourself when narrating, but it's not necessary to do first. Just keep it up and slowly try to stop parroting. If you constantly do, you put yourself at risk for making a servitor. Otherwise, you seem to be fine. [Forseen] {Muse} |Alix|
kwilson2014 July 22, 2013 Author July 22, 2013 yeah i had to check out alot of posts reassuring that the creepypasta was just a creepypasta haha and thanks .one form came to mind almost randomly when trying to create a ball of light and i felt a my whole body almost chill but not in a bad way- kind of like a soothing way. All i can rememeber is it was a anime type girl with orange hair but i cant remember the exact look and idk if that was my tulpas form coming to me or what. I have received other kind of responses like dull pain in my neck (nothing too severe) when i get distracted from focus and light fuzzy sensation on my temples if i just begin to talk with it or during long "conversations" or hearing a soft voice (not my parroting cuz its sometimes cut me off mid sentence) but nothing ever lasting and when i acknowledge the responses they stop. Advice?
Zer0.iNSaNiTY July 22, 2013 July 22, 2013 Not sure how long you've been forcing, but that may be a sign of sentience and probably is your tulpa ^^ Or it may be placebo/random thoughts. Doesn't matter, assume it's your tulpa, always do, at least within reason. Just keep talking and forcing, everything seems to be going fine ^^ Also, it's bothering me you keep talking your tulpa 'it' ^^; Just choose him or her for now and stick with it. [Forseen] {Muse} |Alix|
kwilson2014 July 22, 2013 Author July 22, 2013 Alright i didnt know if saying her was to presumptuous to say. Id prefer a female tulpa but since she hasnt really cemented her form i didnt know if that would hinder progress. And im not sure how long ive been forcing either. I think i was at 10 hours and then i lost a fight and got my jaw broke and spent some time between hospitalization and surgeries and was just so low energy from the liquid diet i wasnt able to even meditate without falling asleep. So i kinda restarted and i guess i maybe got 35 total. Thats including the 10 before restarting but i didnt start a different tulpa so i guess it counts? Im not positive though. I spent a few weeks away yknow?
Zer0.iNSaNiTY July 22, 2013 July 22, 2013 It won't hinder anything ^^ And ow ^^; Bleh, I don't like hour counts lol. But then yeah that makes sense. Even if you take a break a tulpa doesn't really disappear (at least most of the time), they just kinda go into hibernation. Sometimes they'll develop more themselves. When I finally decided to acknowledge Muse she possessed my arm on the same day XD Or, I think it was >.> I dunno, it was pretty close. But yeah, the responces are probably your tulpa and that probably means she's sentient, more or less :P (I should also say I'm no expert, I'm just giving some subjective opinions.) [Forseen] {Muse} |Alix|
kwilson2014 July 22, 2013 Author July 22, 2013 Well expert or not you definetly have more experience and i appreciate your input, and if i may ask did your tulpae form themselves or did you "design" them? And what is possesion like? And that question can go towards anyone else in this thread
Zer0.iNSaNiTY July 22, 2013 July 22, 2013 lol I guess :P I made them, or I made Forseen, and then Muse split. The best I can explain possession is "it feels like you're doing it, but it doesn't" ^^; It's not a completely alien feeling so it can be confusing, but after some practice it'll get easier to differentiate. [Forseen] {Muse} |Alix|
kwilson2014 July 24, 2013 Author July 24, 2013 So its not like youd be unaware of it? Possesion just sounds really sinister haha :P
TulpaCouple July 24, 2013 July 24, 2013 No, you'd have to be very aware of it, you actively need to give them permission essentially because you are the head honcho of your body as you've had it your whole life. It's often very easy for a host to accidentally regain control when trying to let their tulpa possess. It's honestly a terrible word for it as it does sound sinister, but well, it's the word that stuck
Recommended Posts
Join the conversation
You can post now and register later. If you have an account, sign in now to post with your account.