Please help answer questions for a newbie

[bootyshortscronus]

I've been interested in tulpas for a long time now, but I've only just now firmly decided that I'm going to put forth the effort to make one. I have a few questions I'd like answers on before I go throwing myself into this and messing something up.

 

First of all, I already have a form visualized in my head, I am basing him off a character that I would really rather not disclose if I can help it. I have been making it a loud and clear thought in my head that he is entirely free to deviate from this character, he doesn't need to live up to their life or any unrealistic expectations associated with them. I'm mostly using this character as a base to help form him and sort of ease the process along.

 

My main concern is that the form I keep visualizing him in is a sort of aged down version of the character, somewhere around 10 years old. I do like him this way and have no problem with his form looking like this, I'm just wondering about the possible drawbacks to him being so young. I don't want him to be stupid, he's going to be smart and know what's going on, not just be a dumb little kid, but obviously making him younger is going to limit him somewhat. Do you think I should try to force myself to see him older, or would it be alright in your opinion to keep him young?

 

Another concern I had pertains to privacy. How much of it will I have? I don't want my tulpa to invade on my privacy while I'm in the bathroom or something, is this a thing that he will automatically respect as long as I don't invade on his privacy as well, or is this something I'm going to need to implement and enforce?

 

Also, "self destruct words", basically the act of putting in some sort of trigger to erase them, like a phrase that you have to think really hard about or something. I've heard about this before, but is it something I should implant in him as a precaution or is it even a thing that exists? If something goes wrong and he tries to do something destructive to me or people around me, which I'm sure is unlikely, is there an easy way to stop him?

[Shui]

Age shouldn't make a difference. People have noted in the past that tulpa seem to have three ages: time since creation, physical appearance, and mental maturity. The three don't seem to be connected at all.

 

For privacy, this is something you can decide for yourself. Initially I kept my tulpa out of my thoughts and put a lot of effort into blocking her from certain things. Now I allow her to do whatever she wants, and just trust her.

 

Trust is a big thing. I think that any sort of self-destruct is more likely to be triggered accidentally than needed on purpose. In fact, the idea that you have one might give your tulpa the idea that you don't trust him or that he's not meant to be trusted, and that could lead to him becoming antagonistic to you.

 

Tulpa aren't dangerous. They can't maintain possession of you without your permission, they're very limited in ability when not possessing, and there are ways of dealing with a troublesome tulpa if it ever becomes a problem.

 

Don't go into this planning on killing him or he'll make you have to. Go into it knowing that you'll never need to, and you won't.

[bootyshortscronus]

Alright, thank you for the help!

 

I actually had an experience with a tulpa a few years ago that was pretty scary. I created (or began to create) a tulpa based on a character that was very mentally unstable to begin with. Then that combined with my own mentally unstable state (I was in an abusive relationship at the time) created something that wound up feeling malevolent.

 

I remember hearing that falling asleep while creating a tulpa was opening yourself up to troubles with them and that's exactly what I did, then I woke up to a horrible evil presence coming from the area I'd been visualizing him in. It was terrifying, but I'd tried implementing one of those safe words and so I used it and he disappeared and I haven't felt that since.

 

He wasn't very far along in the process of being created when that happened, honestly it was probably only my second or third night trying to put work into him, but that kept me from trying again for a long time.

[Shui]

I can understand you not want to try again for so long. It must have been a bad experience.

 

There's an old axiom about computers: "Garbage in, garbage out." It's very much true of tulpa as well. If you put abuse and fear in, you'll get abuse and fear out. As long as you know this, you shouldn't have that sort of trouble.

[bootyshortscronus]

Thank you again for the help.

 

I had one more question though, I started actively forcing last night and realized that I can hardly keep my own thoughts in check. I'm a pretty perverted person and sex is something that is constantly on my mind. I was only trying to visualize my tulpa, but it was nearly impossible not to take it a step further into some sexual thing.

 

I don't intend on using him for any such purpose and I'm trying to convey that I'm doing my best not to keep doing it, but do you think this could potentially harm him or hinder his progress in some way? I don't want him to think that I'd ever try forcing him to do something like that, but I'm worried since my thoughts are doing that it's something my subconscious wants and will convey to him.

[Ashmo]

You could always "have a moment to yourself" before you force. To help calm the thoughts. The rule with making a tulpa is pretty much "if you think it will be bad, it will be bad" same with "if you think it will be good, it will be good". I wouldn't worry too much about it. Let them know in advance that you are kind of a pervert and apologize if it makes you feel better. They will understand. They will always understand you.

[bootyshortscronus]

Thanks Ashmo, I'll try taking a moment to work out my thoughts before I do another active forcing session next time.