Accidental tulpa creation and tulpa competition

[LordV]

So, I've been tulpa forcing for about a month now, give or take about a week (yes, my memory really is that bad). And my tulpa, Tammy, has been coming along quite nicely. We're even having full conversations.

 

However, a while back something really strange happened. You see, I decided that it would be easier to interact with my tulpa if I had an avatar in my mind, so I created a simple servitor that looked pretty much like me. Well, to make a long story short, that avatar started acting on his own. The end result was that I more or less kicked the avatar out of my wonderland in an attempt to reassimilate him into my unconscious mind before he could actually gain sentience.

 

That being said, I couldn't get rid of him, and he's been come back as a zombie-like construct, basically a personification of the Id. Even so, I've decided that this thing has too much sentience for me to destroy it in good conscience. However, Tammy doesn't like it and wants me to kill it because it annoys her. What should I do? Also, if it comes to that, how would I go about getting rid of this construct?

[Bacn]

However, Tammy doesn't like it and wants me to kill it because it annoys her.

 

Wonderful out-of-context line.

 

 

Also, just ignore it and it should go away eventually.

[LordV]

Yea, I guess that does make her sound like a vicious sadist (and no, she isn't). However, the real question is should I destroy the construct, or would it be better to find a way to work out the differences between these two? Well, as much as possible, considering the construct's animalistic nature. The main problem is that I'm concerned about the morality of destroying a being with any degree of self-awareness. Even if it is just part of my own mind.

[Linkzelda]

When you start tapping into certain regions of your mind that shouldn't be opened in the first place, you should be well aware that sometimes your conscience isn't going to justify everything for you in a fair and pragmatic manner.

 

It's just a way to conceptualize the many aspects of self, if you keep using it to where you have an overwhelming moral dilemma, the same aspect that gives you a moral sense ends up perpetuating the problem even more.

 

Honestly, ignore it, there are many things you ignore or aren't aware of in your head, this is no exception. You're only going to cause a war with yourself if you keep having an impasse set of philosophies about this.

 

Think about it this way, you engage with thought-forms in your natural sleep, all with their own level of sentience (presumably), all figments of your imagination, how will you justify dealing with dream characters in your dreams and thought-forms in waking life?

 

tl;dr: Pro-tip: You just don't worry about it too much.

[LordV]

Thanks. Alright, I think I can live with that. It might not be easy, mostly because a) I have OCD, and it's not easy to just ignore things, and b) Tammy isn't the most patient individual I've ever met, and even if I ignore it, I'm not sure that she can. Is it possible for her dislike (and, as a side effect, attention) towards this thing able to fuel its existence, or are thoughtforms in my mind completely dependent on me?

[Linkzelda]

Is it possible for her dislike (and, as a side effect, attention) towards this thing able to fuel its existence, or are thoughtforms in my mind completely dependent on me?

 

I can only give an ad hoc explanation for this:

 

They are within the confines of your mind, meaning it's probable for them to share the same somatic and psychosomatic processes, behavioral, psychological, and other predispositions. They would be intuitive with pre-existing thoughts, memories, experiential learnings, etc. from the reservoir of your unconscious in general.

 

If she has an extreme attachment to the thought that her dislike is the sustenance for the entity's existence, it may be the case. And since you admitted to not being able to ignore things easily, it's probable that if you allow one thought to overwhelm you and her, the thought will end up being a plague for you (because of the moral strife).

 

It definitely won't be easy, and I apologize if I implied that, it will definitely take some practice on your end to reinforce your train of thought into another matter that's not a detriment to you both. If anything, communicate with her and be honest with her. Tell her that as much as she may dislike the entity, for the sake of both of you having a more flourishing bond with each other, she'll have to detach herself from focusing on the entity's existence.

 

It's just one of those things where if you try too hard to make everything a care bear ending, everyone will lose. This is just speaking from experience.

[LordV]

You have a good point about the care bear ending. After some reflection, I'm thinking my best option is probably to expand my wonderland beyond the almost completely nondescript space I've created for the purpose of forcing, and then let the entity loose in a much bigger world. If it sticks around there, then I guess I can let it be as long as it doesn't actually hurt anything or bug Tammy too much. And, if it's not in my immediate sight (which it pretty much always is in my wonderland as it is now) it should be easier for both myself and my tulpa to ignore. Thank you for your advice and insight, it was extremely helpful.